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yeah lol! you know it’s bad when even the UK isn’t defending portugal

new favorite video

#reminds me of the nigerian civil war too #which had pretty different alliances iirc

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Sometimes the angry latino escapes out of me and I have to write about the ways in which Portugal in my story is a deeply flawed person. It’s really nice.

#geisttalk #I like never ever speak specifically only of spain #but believe me I’ve got some choice words about that guy

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There’s one thing that really separates Portugal from the rest of the “main colonizer countries” (UK, France and Spain. I know there are others) in my mind is that, contrary to certain people in his own government, he just feels such like… Immense crushing guilt and shame about his past all the time. Things that happened during the period in which he was dead (estado novo) such as the wars of Independence of lusophone African countries are things he can sort of abstract as not being his fault, but everything that came before it… But honestly, it’s still a twisted kind of guilt, in a way. Portugal doesn’t necessarily feel bad for the colonization itself - because well, he was just following the country he represents, wasn’t he? he didn’t do anything bad out of his own volition! -, he feels bad about his lack of closeness to his former colonial possessions, for having never been there for them. Whenever he’s with the other Lusophone countries, there’s just such an distance between everyone and Portugal, which is something that personally hurts him.

But he knows that he’s never said anything in the past, knows he never made the effort to be there or to make the situation better for them, so these bridges are pretty much broken beyond repair. Portugal desires a weird sense of fatherhood to them, something he knows he can never have because, well… He’s just never having a colony again. He’s never going to have the “opportunity” to get what he really wants - a deep familial connection. He just can’t be a father to them, time has passed, and really, none of them want it either.

Sometimes he wished he could go back in time, do things differently, perhaps even give Iberian Union the type of attention they never received from him or Spain, but he just can’t. It’s impossible. Time’s arrow only goes forward, and he already messed up irreparably.

In principle, Portugal knows that it’s the colonization itself that was bad, but in his mind… The almost selfish desire to be a father is what matters the most.

#geisttalk #france and UK pretend like they never did anything wrong #france even more so because she gets to cloak in the fact that people just do not give a shit abt african countries sigh #but with spain. well. I just can’t see him as a person who experiences guilt about the past sorry spaniards #he just kinda goes ‘oh well what’s past is past’ because he is kind of a selfish asshole #all of these countries are in the camp of #I can see them doing good things but I can’t see them being good people you know #I don’t agree with the label ‘good person’ but yadayada #some of these countries did take in some of their colonies in as children but. well. it’s not like they were good parents in any sense #Portugal even tried to act all father and daughter with Brazil when they met for the first time #but like she was already 200 something years old and never expected to even see his face #so she could never bring herself to call him her father

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new favorite video

#geisttalk #the video is a little loud I will warn

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Augh I have so many writing ideas I do not know which ones to start first

#geisttalk #so much CH concepts floating around in my head… #I should probably write them down in a bulletin list

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Next time you draw world organizations can you draw mercosul for me thank you

#geisttalk #we're cool too you guys /j

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Hey, happy pride month!

#geisttalk #maybe I'll make something for it #sometime in the month

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The best thing about writing in Portuguese is that when I translate it into English its basically like editing the story already

#geisttalk #mostly the reason I don't post amy of my portuguese writings #is because its all very stream of consciousness stuff #also no one would read it lmao

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Thinking about east germany and I think she would play chess with poland (although she never ever won. random but I don’t think poland would throw games just to make someone else feel better, even if she likes them)… And I would write something about that but frankly I don’t know anything about chess

#geisttalk #I used to when I was really little but don’t know much nowadays

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At some point if you tried to speak English with her she would quite literally go “nooo sorry I don’t speak English” and run away from you

So I was talking with someone today about the Brazilian accent in English and its tendency to add vowels (particularly i or e) where there "are none", and surprise surprise that got me thinking about Brazil the CH character.

For some time she really tried to speak "correctly" and got super unnecessarily stressed about that, to the point where it wasn't really helping and just made her try to avoid speaking it at all costs. This would be exacerbated during moments where her relationship with English-speaking countries is very important. It paused a little during the Vargas era, especially with his push against foreign languages (shutting down non-Portuguese speaking newspapers and schools), but I think the biggest death of her "speaking correctly" obssession was during the Civic-Military dictatorship with another push for appreciation of Brazilian culture that the government did. That and primarily, you know, her fallout with USA.

With Brazil, she tends to get influenced by her government a lot more than she'd like. From the 90s to now, she probably took a more... Ironic of sorts approach to English. She doesn't try as hard to speak the "correct" way and does that intentional abrasileiração of English words as a meme lol. Not to say she still isn't a little insecure about her accent, but that goes for any other language she can speak.

#and brazil has long legs so she was getting far far away before you even processed it in your head

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this is how I imagine the communist countries during the cold war

#geisttalk #I do think the all leftists hate each other joke is kinda funny sorry

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So I was talking with someone today about the Brazilian accent in English and its tendency to add vowels (particularly i or e) where there "are none", and surprise surprise that got me thinking about Brazil the CH character.

For some time she really tried to speak "correctly" and got super unnecessarily stressed about that, to the point where it wasn't really helping and just made her try to avoid speaking it at all costs. This would be exacerbated during moments where her relationship with English-speaking countries is very important. It paused a little during the Vargas era, especially with his push against foreign languages (shutting down non-Portuguese speaking newspapers and schools), but I think the biggest death of her "speaking correctly" obssession was during the Civic-Military dictatorship with another push for appreciation of Brazilian culture that the government did. That and primarily, you know, her fallout with USA.

With Brazil, she tends to get influenced by her government a lot more than she'd like. From the 90s to now, she probably took a more... Ironic of sorts approach to English. She doesn't try as hard to speak the "correct" way and does that intentional abrasileiração of English words as a meme lol. Not to say she still isn't a little insecure about her accent, but that goes for any other language she can speak.

#geisttalk #she has a big big interest in languages and learning them #but she has issues specifically with english #and ngl that comes from. well a reflected problem from a big part of her population lol

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germany, austria, and a kitty

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(by Aaron Burden)

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I always draw flags in my drawings cuz I want people to know who the characters are but some of you have got to some hard to draw flags

#countryhumans #ch canada #ch usa #ch mexico #I’ve always liked the flag of mexico though I think it’s a fundamentally good design #and I like canada’s too I just can’t draw the leaf #but hey neither could r/place

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It was 6 C° today and I'm going somewhere even colder for Corpus Christi. Suffice it to say I'm a happy person currently lol

It finally got back to being cold where I live and it's a really big relief. Well, until next time that climate change starts messing with us again... Never been really good with the heat, I can't really think properly when it's too hot.

#geisttalk #been really considering that second chapter of Inversão Colonial #tempting stuff to write for sure #esp now that I'm (trying to) read 1808 #it helps understand the portuguese perspective somewhat