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Fasted for 19h before this.

Now I really gotta commit to 24

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⋆˚ ౨ৎ ˙˖° female horror game protagonist th1nsp0 ⋆˚ ౨ৎ ˙˖°

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Things people told me in public

"You are the size of 3 people. Stop eating"

Because I didn't acknowledge a man on the bus

"Shut up tub of lard"

I told a lady who shoved me while walking "uh

excuse me" and she told me to shut up. I did

"For a fat person, you don't smell bad"

^This one is lowkey good?? Someone at school

"You have unnecessary extra skin, a lot of it"

girl who was measuring my booba

"Makeup won't change anything but I diet will"

Another person as school when I was doing my

makeup in the library

"I can tell your parents didn't love you/I can tell you don't have a dad because if they did/if you did, they/he wouldn't have let you gat so fat"

Close friend told me this

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The way I go between:

This disorder is terrible and horrible and will Ruin your life!

And

This disorder is the only thing making me feel better and makes my life worth living. It's all I have.

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honestly, atp i watched a lot of supersized vs superskinny, and one thing almost all superskinnies have in common is the disinterest in food.

"It takes up too much time"

"Its a drag"

"Its not a part of my routine really"

And i think that is a valuable point of view on food, start thinking about all the other things you could do instead of eat. Doing a task? You would have to interupt the task to go eat. Having fun? You have to interupt the fun to go eat. Start looking at meal times as a chore, and not something thats on your daily plan.

This helped me at least, though I'm not too good at explaining

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24h fast starting at 5am

I need to lock the fuck in! I hate myself for falling off but fuck it

I'll just be 10 times stronger

I still feel to fucking fat to post results ( ´-｀)

I have to be stronger in may

I need to be stronger in may

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Hot girls have a cigarette and go to sleep. You’re not trying hard enough.

TH*NSPO

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i want to be one of them so bad

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Never before have I identified with a tv character so much.

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The Lucy and Cooper/Ghoul being mirroring foils parallel arcs go crazy.

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B/p

I'm super nervous about doing this apartment walk through I couldn't help myself. I feel so stupid since I've been making progress 🙃

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unhinged thinspo †

all photos off 📌trest

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Period

modern social media should stop offering "sync with your phone contacts to follow them" options and start offering "block all your phone contacts so they never see your account" options

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opening tumblr whenever i get hungry like a soldier in war gazing lovingly at a photo of his wife

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Cleaned my entire apartment after like 6 months. Having it clean feels really good and now I feel good

But now that my kitchen is clean, I do think, I dont want to make anything because it'll get dirty again and I don't want to clean it again... does that make sense

Also fuck all those bed rotting videos on tiktok. At least the ones who think it's trendy. It's not fucking trendy or cute, I was living in squalor for 6 months due to depression and just wanting bad for myself.

It's not trendy.

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I couldn't sleep because I was thinking about what ate gor dinner. How it felt being chewed and swallowed. I wanted to p but I didn't so now I'm doing a 37h fast

Wish me luck yall

Also I love this song but it's not something I'd normally listen to

#Spotify