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[goopymess]

bpd culture is feeling like youre being pushed to your limits everyday even if nothing happened

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bpd culture is remembering ur old fp/abuser exists and just. seething w rage. my heart is pounding so bad why did he get away with what he did. and oh god i just realised its his birthday and a big one too i feel sm more sick. he deserves NO enjoyment ever why does he get to have everything he wants when he hurt me and a bunch of other people

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I don't believe it is.

-Mod Ghost

[goopymess]

BPD culture is - sorry about that 'not so little breakdown' earlier I swear I'm a different person now. in fact I don't even remember what set me off to cry that much and relapse in the first place

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// cw vent

bpd culture is i'm sorry for keeping to myself and isolating. i just don't want to be a burden or worry you. you already deal with so much and i can't make things worse. i won't. it's too much for me, there's no way it wouldn't be too much for anyone else. i want to tell someone but i just can't. how can i even bring that up? and what's even the point if i'm just going to fail them again. i'll go right back to the start and disappoint them all over again. i just want someone to notice. i want someone to ask what is going on. i want someone to hold me and say it's okay. i want someone to comfort me. but i also want them to yell at me. to say how disappointed they are with me. i want them to abandon me and leave me to bleed. i want them to make me hurt. because that's what i deserve. because i am a bad person for not getting better yet. i want everyone in my life to leave me so i have no one to disappoint. no one to let down or worry. i can just get worse and worse until i reach the end. they deserve better anyway. someone better than me and doesn't act like i do or have such complicated things going on in their head.

i'm sorry i'm not better. i don't know what to do.

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I'm sooo genuinely tired

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I'm seriously spiraling about this oh my god.

[goopymess]

there's something so raw and soul crushing about spending your late childhood+teen years suicidal then growing up and actually wanting to live, after an ungodly effort, only to see your health deteriorate because of chronic illness.

[goopymess]

BPD Culture is- Being judged harshly if you talk about your symptoms. Cant talk about them in a positive way or youre "romanticising it" Cant talk about them in a negative way or youre "Dangerous/bad example/toxic" Make sure you dont fit the stereotype, but ALSO if you're too far from it youre just a faker. Dont talk about your symptoms. Dont be percived. just dont exist

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might cut contact with everyone and just end it. I'm seriously fed up

[goopymess]

"you gonna end up with a disability" I already have one and I know imma end worse if this doesn't stop I know I already know just stop I know I know

[goopymess]

Low support needs autistic culture is not being believed when you say you lose control of yourself during meltdowns, and if you insist on it people accuse you of lying and punish you or say you have "severe autism" and start treating you like you're fucking five.

(Actually I'm not sure if this is just a low support needs thing or not, please correct me.)

#i dont know but i feel so seen in here and i dunno if i like it or not #/lighthearted

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of everything I thought my brother could say about my hair, I didn't think he would compare me to a fucking cancer patient. what the fuck.

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you had THREE YEARS to apologize to me TELL ME YOU WANT TO DO IT *YOURSELF*

DONT TELL SOME OTHER FUCK TO TELL ME YOU WANT TO APOLOGIZE

DO IT YOU FUCKING COWARD

#vent post

[goopymess]

"how can you say X how can you say Y" i will keep saying fuck you to the people who killed my people and are killing my land until they do something good, amen

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i am so stupid WHAT