I don't like calling myself queer but not because of any "queer is a slur" reasons I just think it's not a phonetically pleasant word. Doesn't have a nice mouthfeel.
I kinda wish I had died back in January, at least then I wouldn’t have to live in the hollowed out corpse of the rest of my life, stuck with the knowledge once and for all that I am insignificant and growing more and more irrelevant to people and places in my life