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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

#a.....................

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Sasuke isn't mad about liking men he's mad about liking Naruto. Similarly Naruto isn't mad about liking Sasuke he's mad about liking men

#sns #real

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Wenzhou + handholding

Bonus:

#the hand shots WEHH 😭 #woh

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The most embarrassing thing In my life is whenever I see people and they ask what I’ve been up to . Literally nothing ever . Im like ohh you know this and that …. The usual ..

#yea........

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in my dmmd era keep scrolling

#happy bday king 💙

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you bottle Miette??

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read something recently that said a majority of people don’t have a wall clock these days, thought it was interesting since I’ve always considered it an essential and functional piece of home decor.

#oh huh. can't live without it actually

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so many things to draw so little patience and willpower

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*about to call mutual by name* *checks their bio* *i remembered their name correctly* *starts writing the post* *deletes it and checks the url again* *stares at url telling myself i know their name* *checks their bio again and i was still right* *writes post* *drafts it so i can check one more time before posting*

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being obsessed w a piece of media is so scary. what if my mutuals see how insane i go about it and think oh i gotta check out what this is about and then think it sucks and kill me with rocks. what if they hate my favorite characters

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Oh she thinks she’s the plusherrrrr

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running in the 90's 🚗🚕🚙

#LET'SFDF LET;S FUCKIGN GO BESTIE #initial d

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when ur friends have finally figured out ur taste in fictional guys ahahaha.... so embarrassing.... *chews my guys like a dog toy*

#they all come from ryosuke the holy father btw so if tall and black hair and not too loud = almost immediate score

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maxjulan

#photography

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You need to draw and make art or else all the images will stay in your head and you'll get sick

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cats don't even unstick their claws out of things anymore they will just sit there with their claw stuck in a blanket and look at you like this until you unstick it for them