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#Imagine waiting for permission to wear something you like #Couldn't be me #(spoken while wearing big ass flare jeans and an oversized button down with fishbones on it

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"Pluto isn't a planet" Fine.

"Dinosaurs had feathers" Fine!

"Neptune isn't a beautiful oceanic blue, it's actually the same washed-out disappointing color as Uranus" I will kill you with my bare hands

Look how they massacred my boy

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it's so funny how graffiti is like a non issue that effortlessly reveals peoples' reactionary tendencies.

#You can tell if someone hadn't examined their reactionary responses if they immediately shit on all graffiti #Coming from someone who only recently discovered I was doing that exact thing #If you think all rule breaking is ugly you're not gonna see the beauty in vandalism

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yes my name is penn ehehehehuhuhuh and this is my little gay slave teller…teller why dont you show the audience your cock..? *teller sheepishly shrugs and does as he is told* *audience cheering and whooping and hollering* yes..very nice.. now teller here has a little secret to show you all but first im going to tuch him sexualy because as you will see he needs a little ..magic *penn wink* to get him going

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people b saying things so definitively. like man i think it depends

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i’ll forgive a fat girl for so many annoying things simply because i know how fucking miserable it is to be a fat girl. like. you dont get to exist freely and with any joy until you go through a decades long soul search full of extreme emotional pain OR you nearly kill yourself to become something society might accept. or you toughen up after years of bullying forced you to be more confident. literally there is no painless route to being a fat girl in your 20 somethings. so like. fat girls can be annoying as a treat. you have all been annoying our whole lives

#As much as I appreciate the thing at the very end #Sometimes I do wonder if part of my motivation to transition or at least free myself from gender #Is precisely because being myself as a girl was just too much. #When I transitioned I went from being a fat girl to being a pretty standard issue guy #And I'm still actively working on so many of my body image things #But I will always hold love in my heart for fat girls and fat people in general #I saw the stigma tear through my parents and settle on my and my sisters shoulders

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#Hope they're doing well these days

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Love my body. Love my body's response to tiny mistakes. Super love feeling like a can being crushed. Love enduring it. My favorite thing.

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it is a parents responsibility to play good music during their child’s formative years. make sure the nostalgia playlist is a banger

#Still pisses me off that my dad is a huge Pink Floyd fan and for some reason he never played it for me as a kid #Legitimately the first time I heard it was when my wife played it for me #My dad was listening to Nickelback when I was a kid. For some ungodly reason.

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#Told this joke to my trans gf and she laughed

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bro we have to shotgun the weed. its not gay its just financially smart to do it. we get twice the value out of weed. come on just kiss me

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best of the onion

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underrated fictional food that i would love to eat IRL

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A girl has not felt loved in years. She never gets told that she's a pretty girl. She doesn't get called a girl. Her parents don't call her daughter. She never smiles and doesn't take care of her hair anymore. She stopped taking showers every day. She has acne and stubble. She doesn't shave, she can't stand looking at herself in the mirror. She was told that "fat is hot" until she gained more weight. People look at her weird. She feels like nobody wants her. She doesn't want anyone to look at her. She feels alone. People avoid her. She feels like she can't vent to others anymore because it's all she can think about. She wants to be loved

A girl doesn't talk anymore. She's distant and insecure. She bottles up her feelings. People reach out to her to try and help, but don't know how to help. She isolates herself, she's scared. She knows that nobody will put in the time and effort to be there for her. Nobody says good morning to her. She stopped asking for help. She doesn't laugh anymore. She feels like she's worthless. She's told that this isn't true, but notices that people only care about her when she's feeling suicidal. She feels like a burden. She can't think a week ahead because she is terrified of the future. She doesn't know if she'll make it to the end of the year. She wants to be loved

A girl doesn't express her opinions anymore. People think she's a dangerous freak, that she is disgusting, gross and filthy. She feels that weight. She cries most of the day, most days. She stopped brushing her teeth. She feels disposable. She only feels useful when she's validated. People will toss her aside as soon as they get a good excuse to do it. She feels like a sacrificial lamb. They keep her at arm's length. She knows that she's judged silently. She feels like people would feel more comfortable if she wasn't there. She's trying to keep going. Her eyes hurt. She's loud. People think she is annoying. She's tired. She wants to be loved

I see u. I love u

You're a pretty girl. What you say matters. How you feel matters. It's ok to be angry and afraid. It's unfair that others don't notice and don't care. Keep being loud, keep being yourself. It's not too late. You matter