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The masculine urge to just dig a huge fucking hole in someone's backyard.

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If you ever feel like your whole purpose in life is to just follow people around and annoy them to death, always remember that a human being is a persistence predator.

So even if you weren't born to do that, you're still hardwired to be really, really good at it.

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sorry to add this on, but what if I hurted them aswell?

everyone makes mistakes I tell myself but yet hatred and spite and shame clears my brain. I made mistakes and realized but why is forgiving so hard? the thought of being a villain in someone’s story is so fearing and something I never want. should I forgive ? What if I’m not forgiven. what if I’m in the wrong.. the bad one even

thank you for answering my other one. Your words so well placed and I resonate with your work heavily.❤️

It's like when you get physically hurt: The pain is there to tell you to not do that again. Continuing to fret over it is like letting the fire alarm keep blaring after you already put out the fire. You screwed up, you know that now, and you know you're not doing that again. Forgiveness is a gift that's only given freely, without pressure, and if aknowledging where you messed up and letting them know you learned from it won't prompt them to forgive you, then the lesson you got is "don't treat the next one like this", assuming that you really did do them wrong for real.

You're always going to be a villain in someone else's story. There are complete fucking strangers out there who think that I have the moral obligation to kill myself and that the people who love me are wrong for not pushing me that way. There's always going to be someone who thinks that whatever you're doing is wrong. That's why you have to learn to ask yourself: Who got hurt by what I did? What could I have done to avoid that?

And then you tell the person that you unwittingly hurt that it wasn't your intention and you now know better than to do that again. And if you can't point to a specific person who was hurt by your actions, or think of anything else that you could have done instead that could have avoided this, then it is simply not your fucking problem.

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Only hire baristas who vape and allow them to vape on the job.

Concept: foggy café. It's just a regular café, except they've got a fog machine going at all times whenever they're open.

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Concept: foggy café. It's just a regular café, except they've got a fog machine going at all times whenever they're open.

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Oh also btw, if you have netflix, I recommend watching The Blacklist. Like yeah the main character is a cop but I'm telling you, watch the first episode. Just the first one, and if you're not sold after that, it's just not for you. Also this guy is fucking adorable and he knows it.

He would 100% respond "god forbid women do anything" to someone pointing out he just fucking shot someone in the face, and you'd agree with him.

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how to forgive others that hurt you? I can’t help to be so filled with spite after experiencing it

That's the neat part: You don't.

If someone hurts you and refuses to aknowledge that they've hurt you, or you know they're going to do that again, you can just stop thinking of them as a person who's capable of choosing to be better. From now on they're like the weather, or chimpanzees - something that's just going to hurt you because of what they are. You won't be disappointed by them if you don't expect any better of them. If a chimp bites you, you can just shrug and think "well, it's a wild animal, what did I expect would happen?"

And the next thing you do is get out of the chimp enclosure and don't go back there again. If you got frostbite the last time you went outdoors in the snow without shoes, because you trusted that the snow wouldn't do that to you, that's unfortunate. But it's worse for you if you keep doing it again and again in hopes that this time the snow won't freeze what's left of your feet.

You don't forgive people who hurt you. You just stop thinking of them as people who are capable of doing better, and protect yourself accordingly.

René Descartes believed that animals do not have souls - that they are machines that have no will of their own, no thoughts, no feelings, no capability to feel true pain, joy or sorrow. They are only clockwork mechanisms made of meat, incapable of doing anything except what they were programmed to do. I don't think that about animals, but that's how I think of my father.

I don't hate him because I didn't think of him as a conscious, thinking and feeling human being who could have done better, and chose not to. He was only a mindless machine made of meat.

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Cynics will go "social animals are still selfish, the only reason that people love each other is out of instinct to survive" and don't consider how amazing it is that the reason that humanity survives is out of the instinct to love each other.

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I can smooth-shark anything and anyone. I'll play the devil's advocate like a fiddle.

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Hey no reason how rich are your parents that you want to get some pity about how tortured you are while having every security provided for you haha no reason haha I’ll wait

I'm guessing this is about the "sometimes rich people treat their kids like exotic pets" post. If you think that people whose entire sense of identity and their way of life is built on exploiting and dehumanising other people would never, ever do that to the most vulnerable people they have unlimited, unsupervised access to, you're painfully naive. They don't just crawl out of the cracks of the earth fully formed, all fucked up and ready to go.

How old are you that you're yet to develop the ability to consider things from someone else's perspective, and to have sympathy for people who are not you?

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What pronouns do you use

He/him exclusively.

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If we start turning artists' names into verbs, how many of them would you assume would have an immediate and obvious meaning? While there were so many better things he should be known for, if someone "Van Gogh'd themselves" you're going to assume that a non-medically-necessary ear removal was involved. But what does one do if they plan to "Hemingway their way out" of something? Like is their plan to Just Start Saying Shit, and if they can't win people over with overconfidence, it is time for violence, and just start fucking punching people out?

What does one do when they Dalí something? What kind of a skillset does a person have if their talents include being able to Edith Piaf through anything?

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You know, in a way, your posts about your life give me hope. Like, our lives don't share too many specific details, but still, the fact that your life has been a miserable mess (as is mine, currently; frankly in my case it's mostly of my own causing but still), but now you're at a place where at least from your posts, you seem to be fairly content with your life, idk, it's just one of the few things that makes me go, okay if i can somehow navigate this shit right (no clue how to do that but if i manage it), maybe in ten years' time i'll be doing kinda ok too.

Admittedly there's also the high chance that i can't figure it out and keep being fucking miserable and most of the reason i don't kill myself continues to be that me dying would be a hassle to deal with for other people and i don't really want to inconvenience them like that. But hey. maybe. maybe in ten years' time i'll have found a way to have my shit together and exist in a way that i'll be content with

Well, all I can say is that what worked for me was trying every single thing I could. Not in hopes that one of them would Just Click and magically be good, but if something's just as bad as the last thing but at least it's not worse, and it's bad in a different way, that's still something. When you have no idea where you're going, any direction but down counts as going forward.

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Sun postausta, jossa puhut huijarisyndrooman muuttamisesta 'brilliant conman' syndroomaksi on käytetty yliopistossa rahoitushakemuskurssilla (luennoija tais puhua koijarisyndroomasta)

lmao yeet

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Hey btw please don't make jokes about being a "boring adult" or how adulthood is boring when you're around small kids. They'll believe you, and growing up with the idea that their final destination is as bleak as it is inevitable is not a healthy way to live. Even if they don't know it consciously, whenever they look at adults they are looking at their future. Like even if your life does suck, please don't frame it as just an inevitable part of being an adult.

If you know someone's kid whose interests and tastes are loud, shiny, sparkly and all over the place, and you're absolutely overwhelmed by being suddenly rapidly infodumped about a cartoon you had not heard of 30 seconds ago and about everything they've been getting into, and you're caught off-guard by them suddenly switching gears and askining you why you're still into the same things as you were a year ago, that aren't even that loud, sparkly and fun, please don't say something like

"Well when you're a boring adult you start to like boring things like that and then like those forever :)" Like don't fucking say that, they'll believe you. It doesn't make them feel fun and special to be told you think you're boring in comparison. They take their spark for granted and being told that they'll lose it one day is awful. And it's not even true!

It's far more truthful to tell them about how when you've been a grownup for long enough, you've had to the time to try all of the things and you know for sure which ones you like the most. And that's why it's so important that they also try everything, at least once, so that they'll know for sure whether they will or won't like it. Being a grownup isn't about giving up doing new fun things, it's about finding all the things you like so much that you never get bored of them.

Boldly claiming that you've done everything when you're not very worldly might seem dishonest, but a four-year-old can't tell the difference between a century and a decade. As far as they are concerned, their nearest neighbourhood is the whole universe, and you have been alive forever. Don't tell them the world is boring, and that being bored of it is inevitable.

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I haven't done comissions for a while and don't have the energy for that, but at best, it's like making balloon animals to kids at a festival. Like ok what kinda colour you want? Yeah no you don't have to pick between the blue and the pink one, I've got this whole row of different colour ballons and you can pick any one you like. You want a long dog or a short dog? Wait, if your favourite animal is a bunny, I can do one too. Yeah it's the same amount of work, I can do that. And they would've been happy with just a blue balloon dog but got a green bunny, when it didn't even occur to them that they could ask for one!

And then the next one is upset that you can't make a truck that actually does truck sounds. And just doesn't grasp that you can't do that. That's not how balloons work.

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Having snow in April is messing with my circadian rythm. I'll look out there and it's all white out and I think "hmm, it must be around noon? 2 pm?" and then I look at the clock and HOW IS IT SEVEN IN THE EVENING.