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Bucks final love interest will be one he kisses first and officially breaks the cycle of being kissed and not making decisions for himself because in the moment when he decides to make the first move he will be saying with certainty “this is what I want for me” not just letting someone else make or help with his ‘decisions’ he’s not quite there yet but his next first kiss will be the game changer

#buddie #Yes obviously this is about Eddie #911 abc #Evan Bisexual Buckley almost out of these cycles

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The way that Buck said he couldn’t stop thinking about Tommy is the exact same way he said that Natalia really saw him and I think it’s really funny when he gets a little delusional over someone he just met TO EDDIES FACE

#buddie

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I’m just gonna fucking say it; Tommy looks like he could be Bucks older brother, especially when Bucks hair is curly and it’s hilarious

#911 abc #the Tommy stans can hate this all they want #Look at Buck in 4 12 and you’ll see it #buddie

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The thing about Buck is that everyone wants a piece but nobody wants all of him, and the thing about Eddie is that he has a hard time wanting something with all of himself but that’s how much he wants Buck, and the thing about Buck is that he never knows what he wants or makes his own choices but he always chooses Eddie, and the thing about Eddie is that he only makes choices that are for the benefit of other people except he chose Buck for himself

#Buddie #soulmate things #These are the facts as we know them after all these years #911 abc #I’m just in love with them okay #They are made for each other #Queer Eddie Diaz canon here we come

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I really want Eddie to say something so blatantly comphet that it screams ‘gay’ loud enough his parents would hear it and for Hen to look at him like ‘you are so close to getting the point’

#Eddie Diaz #how far back does that closet go baby #Buddie #911 abc

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Every time Ryan talks about Eddie he’s just using creative language to call him a comphet closet gayboy and I think it’s really beautiful of him

#Ryan Guzman #he is the king of gay Eddie truthers #Buddie

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I have no clue what is happening right now but I'd like to thank the person who told him to say all that...

"It's Buck. I don't have an elevator to close so that's it."

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#I have been enjoying this man for his whole career but I have never loved him more #buddie #sam from new girl #king of our hearts #who would have thought this man would be the man of the hour on a completely different show #i love him crazy #911abc #Doctor Sam for the win again #He actually did that #The man that he is

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I will never stop believing that Eddie did not mention Marisol once to tommy that whole time they were hanging out until he said she’d be the one to come get him from the hospital, so Tommy thought he was single and they were flirting and was trying to date Eddie first, but realised he wasn’t an option and like a day later showed up to kiss Buck? you cannot change my mind that this man wanted back in the group so bad it didn’t matter to him which one he tried to get with cause they’re both cute and he was just missing Chim and Hen and Tommys thinking the least clearly out of all these idiots

#911 abc #he thinks bucks adorable but he also really wanted to fuck Eddie let’s be real #He is a mad man I’m not here for him but I get him #Buddie #He’ll serve his purpose and maybe stay their friend but I don’t think he even knows what he’s gotten himself into #He just knows it’s bad

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No but they literally had to add in character traits to make Tommy more like Eddie, because if you rewatch his scenes from the episodes he was in seasons prior he was the original Buck of the 118, he was so much like Buck that they brought him back to be Eddie’s love interest but then they had to switch which girlfriend would be dumped off screen verses which one would stay on as a plot device, so that means there’s an alternate version of this story out there where we got to watch Natalia slowly give Buck the death obsession creeps and him never get around to buying that couch with her while Eddie’s one date with Marisol tanked offscreen and then he started making out with a man that was just like a ten year older version of Buck and this is what we KNOW

#Buddie #the queer Eddie Diaz evidence binder is growing by the second #This is information we have as facts and I don’t even know what to do with it #There’s a version of this story somewhere out there where Buck is scratching his forehead thinking ‘why am I homophobic all of a sudden’ #Because Eddie is dating a guy just like Buck #I’m foaming at the mouth

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Okay, but I kinda wanna talk about the panic attack conversation with new context, because here's the thing, the wording of that conversation is very on purpose. And Buck is calling Eddie out in a very specific way because what Buck is saying is actually "if you love me you're not going to do that to her" but like, everything about that conversation is crazy. Buck is checking in in a way I feel he's very entitled to considering that he gets Chris if something happens to Eddie, so if Eddie is seeing cardiologists, something might be wrong and I think Eddie gave up the right to privacy about his health when he signed his will, but like, does Buck assume the problem is the shooting because he is still anxious about it? And like, Buck is assuming things are fine with Ana, we have no reason to believe things aren't fine with Taylor, but you don't talk about a relationship you want to be in as just fine, and Buck is talking about loving someone who doesn't love him enough to be all the way in and he's talking about Abby, but is he? The will reveal was a love confession. But halfway done. It was a shield. Eddie hiding behind Chris. "My kid loves her" "Is that enough?". Is Buck saying your kid loves me. You offered him to me. What does it mean? Is that all it takes? If that's all it takes then why aren't you all the way in with me? Why does all I get is a maybe under a condition I can't live with? "Somehow we became a ready made family and I don't know if I'm ready for that" Buck has been taking care of Chris since he found out Chris existed. Someone assumed Eddie, Chris and Buck were a family months into them knowing each other. Is Buck seeing that as Eddie being scared of any type of family? Is Buck seeing that as Eddie being scared of his place in Chris' life? Does he think Eddie would freak out if it was him? That's pretty much the only situation where we see Buck seem genuinely mad at Eddie. Eddie confessed his love hiding behind his child, now he's having all these feelings about someone assuming Ana's place in their life. Is Buck feeling as rejected there because he has no way of knowing if Eddie wouldn't react like that if someone assumed that about them? Because the will is a love confession but is one that Buck can't accept. In his head that is conditional. And the price is something he will never be willing to pay. "If you don't want to hurt Ana, you owe it to her to be honest" "come on, Eddie, if you're not gonna be honest with Frank, at least be honest with me", "look, man, you don't need to pretend with me" was Buck begging for clarification? Was Buck asking if he's allowed to want this? Has Buck been daring Eddie to say it again because he doesn't know if he read what happened right since Eddie didn't mention it again and he can't risk being wrong? Is the miscommunication of this situation even deeper than we imagined? Did Eddie assume Buck rejected what he offered while Buck assumed Eddie didn't love him enough to offer everything? Does Eddie understand that while he offered everything, he put a condition to it that Buck will never take because Buck needs him too much to even consider? Does Eddie understand that he offered Buck everything he ever wanted and put it just out of his reach in a place Buck would never dare to reach for anyway, because he thinks the only way he gets there is if Eddie dies and Eddie dying means he's not actually getting everything he wanted? I wrote in a fic once "I can't ask for more of you, Eddie" "everything is already yours", but do they even realize that that's what's going on? That they are imagining obstacles that could be solved if they were just honest with each other the way they keep begging the other to be? Do they even understand that the only thing between them is the way they keep assuming things and acting on that assumption instead of just asking for clarification? "You don't need to decide right now" does Buck think that Eddie not telling him again means he made a decision already? Are they just looking at each other thinking they can't reach for it????????

Are they just trapped in the moment that gun went off watching the other fall away and helpless to do anything about it??????

#They need to communicate so bad it’s literally the only thing standing in their way but it’s everything #Buddie #911 abc

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Amazing that now we can actually rewatch and say with certainty that “YES in fact Buck HAS been in love with Eddie THE WHOLE ENTIRE TIME!!!!!!!”

#Buddie

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Actually disgusted by the amount of people disrespecting Eddie Diaz to stan Tommy? As if his every now and again character is somehow more important than Eddie Diaz? As if his character is fledged out even a fraction of the depth that Eddie’s has? As if he could ever understand Buck the way Eddie does? Eddie tried to leave the 118 for five minutes and then came home, Tommys been gone-gone for YEARS, Eddie has been taking care of Buck and standing by him all these years, Tommy has met him a handful of times, Tommy has put his lips on Buck, but Eddie put Buck in his will, they are NOT the same

#Eddie Diaz #buddie #i will never allow Eddie-disrespect on my blog #I couldn’t be paid to give a shit about Tommy he could serve a purpose but he’s not the story #911 abc

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If Eddie remembered a single damn thing about being shot he would realise he’s in love with Buck and that’s why he blocked it out and I could write an essay on this

#Buddie

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i think that buck needs to be bisexual before he can realize his feelings for eddie, but eddie needs to realize his feelings for buck before he can comprehend his sexuality

#Buddie

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#Buddie Wedding Season 10 Everyone's Invited

#Buddie #ship captain #he’s showing his hand

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Bucks face when he says “That’s a relief” is the most disappointed face I have ever seen anyone make my entire life

#Buddie #he was in fact not relieved #He could not have been more upset he just didn’t understand why

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Catholicly repressed Eddie Diaz deserves to kiss boys 🗣️🗣️🗣️

#Eddie diaz #kind of less than happy that they changed it I get why they let Buck go first but Eddie needs this so bad #buddie