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narratives about doomed love that aren’t romantic in nature. the love between siblings who understand each other the most but are growing apart no matter how much they try to come back to one another. the love between friends whose life paths pull them apart and they never see each other again, only remembering the face of a once kind childhood. the love for a hometown that year by year becomes less and less the one that raised you until you are a foreigner in your own backyard. there was no stopping it. the love was there and it mattered and you can never come back again.

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i think one thing that bridgerton s2 does well is establish why kate and anthony gravitate to each other. so many romance stories flop because they cant convince you what the deal is but bridgerton is like well they are both eldest siblings they are both patronizing and overbearing they are both control freak know it alls. put them in a jar lock them in a room. haha

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I'm now all set for my finals at Silverlight. Thanks Hoid!👍

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HI WHO WOULD LIKE TO SEE A BABY GOOSE

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what is wrong with him (affectionate)

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The Dor is the powerhouse of the Sel.

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Hua Cheng's Very Different Loves

There is often a fundamental misunderstanding of Hua Cheng's love for Xie Lian. The biggest of them was Mu Qing and Feng Xin's assumption at seeing the Cave of Ten Thousand Gods.

They see Hua Cheng as obsessive, dangerous. And given the history with Bai Wuxian, yeah, not entirely in the wrong for that assumption.

It's hard to understand that Hua Cheng is one who has truly separated his devotion from his romantic love for Xie Lian. Because devotion/worship of a god and love of a person are different.

At least until now, the devout and obsessive level of worship that Hua Cheng exhibits is the first type. The type of a religious devotee. And that cave, that's what we see. Hua Cheng did not make the sculptures and the paintings for Xie Lian exactly, he didn't do it with a plan to bring Xie Lian there and ask for praise, he did it because Xie Lian was his totem, the very thing that could center him even at times of extreme suffering to pull through. Religious love is not something that expects reciprocation, it's not something that requires anything of the subject of worship except their existence. And the Hua Cheng of the past 800 years poured his obsessive love into this type of love, the love that he does not have any expectations for.

We know that Hua Cheng also felt the other type of love. His sexual awakening was downright traumatic. Seriously, imagine being fourteen, and having to defend your beloved god from sex demons who are forcing you to realize that your devotion to your god has an edge of desire, all while said god is stabbing himself to keep from acting on the extreme discomfort of sexual urges forced on him by those same damn sex demons. No wonder Hua Cheng is so absolutely freaked out and a little disgusted about harboring that type of love for Xie Lian.

When Hua Cheng finally finds Xie Lian again after 800 years, I fundamentally believe that Hua Cheng would have been content with an existence of watching over and protecting his god from the sidelines. His devotion mattering more than that sliver of self-loathing desire that would never be erased.

The story we got to read though, the one that makes TGCF so special is the way that the other love grows between Xie Lian and Hua Cheng. They enjoy each other's company, enjoy teasing and talking, enjoy the little touches that they share. When Hua Cheng talks about his beloved, he speaks of his romantic love and winning over that person. He speaks of it shyly, because he knows it is something that has to be shared and has to grow naturally. It's what makes their love story so very human, because Hua Cheng treated his religious love and his desirous love as completely separate from each other. And the best part? Xie Lian knows this, understands this, has no doubt about this.

It means that the scene in the cave, where both Feng Xin and Mu Qing mistook Hua Cheng's obsessive devotion for obsessive desire, Xie Lian recognizes correctly.

And Xie Lian reciprocates those romantic feelings.

I like to picture those days that Xie Lian wakes up and finds the other side of his bed empty, then wanders to the Thousand Lights Temple to see Hua Cheng there changing the single white flower in his god's hands, then bowing his head and saying a prayer. Xie Lian rolls his eyes, because well, he's right there, but it's Hua Cheng's ritual, and whether they are husbands, whether they had rough and enjoyable sex the night before, Hua Cheng won't slack on his religious love just because he gets to share romantic love with his husband and god.

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Kaladin "killed Syl" according to the Stormfather in their conversation during the highstorm in the chasm. He got her back when he swore the next ideal.

So if Adolin finds the right words, he just might revive Maya

I was rereading Words of Radiance and reached this conversation between Pattern and Shallan where he mentions that spren break but they could unbreak with aid.

This makes me more excited regarding Maya and Adolin's future!

And also quite possibly Shallan unbreaking Testament and having 2 sprens!!

#cosmere #stormlight spoilers #syl #kaladin #adolin #mayalaran #words of radiance #stormlight archives

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having short-term memory is like. this book profoundly affected me. that show bared my soul. i don’t remember a single thing about it. but it did

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I was rereading Words of Radiance and reached this conversation between Pattern and Shallan where he mentions that spren break but they could unbreak with aid.

This makes me more excited regarding Maya and Adolin's future!

And also quite possibly Shallan unbreaking Testament and having 2 sprens!!

#cosmere #words of radiance #cosmere spoilers #mayalaran #stormlight archives #adolin #shallan #pattern #spren

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...I found the “girl falls into middle earth” fic I wrote when I was 11

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Xie Lian keeping Hua Cheng calm 🦋 | Heaven Official’s Blessing S2 Ep9

+ bonus Xie Lian losing it himself:

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oh your pronouns are he/they?

well that’s mathematically incorrect becuase you can still simplify the fraction since both sides have “he”

making your pronouns technically 1/ty

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Nothing important to see here. Just a man at the checkout buying some aluminium and hard cheese.  (Did you never wonder where he got all those aluminium sheets from in Oathbringer?) Anyway, nothing wrong with being prepared. What would you pack for a journey to Roshar?

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How to compliment me:

Say something nice about Taylor Swift

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gay sex