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this line hits a lot harder especially when you view laios as having autism...

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anaquirosa

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me trying to not shut everyone out of my life for two weeks out of the month and telling myself that my pmdd is lying when it says that i’m annoying and a burden to everyone i love and care about and i’m not doing this all for attention and that my feelings are real and valid and-

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I hate PMDD because I want to be held, I want to be gently touched, and I want none of that, I'm angry, I'm angry and I'm lonely, and I'm frustrated because I have no reason to be angry or lonely, I just feel so deeply it hurts and it aches.

PMDD is like "I see you feel pain over rejection. Let's amplify that until you feel nothing but rejection even in the middle of an embrace."

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do you ever feel the need to take ur brain out and give it a rinse to get all the bad vibes and sad gunk off bc same

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The thing about PMDD that makes it so much worse then having just general depression or anxiety is how invalidating it feels.

Knowing that a sudden onslaught of negative thoughts or paranoid feelings is only occurring because of your period makes it really hard to be understanding or to reframe the thinking. A typical way of dealing with depression or anxiety is finding the root of the problem and reworking how one thinks but when those feelings are just something your body goes through because of hormones and there genuinely is no cause what are you meant to do then?

Plus, how do you even begin to explain that feeling to other people? If you admit how your feeling it’s not like anyone can actually help you, they can make things a little easier maybe but the feelings are always going to return every single month and there is absolutely no way to explain why you feel off unless you’re willing to tell someone it’s your period, and even then saying “my period is messing me up” isn’t going to actually get you sympathy or help. Other people who menstruate may say “oh I get that!” And joke a bit about how much it sucks but they don’t actually get how awful it is when you have PMDD, it’s not the same as a normal period. Most people don’t suddenly fall into a severe depression once a month because of their fucking period.

My point, I guess, is that having PMDD is both invalidating and isolating. It’s the sort of thing that can make you feel really hopeless sometimes because it’s never going to go away, you’re only option is to try and lessen it and push through it.

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We are all born so beautiful. The greatest tragedy is being convinced we are not.

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Silvio Vieira, Guided Expansion

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🧿 to keep you safe from people who want to do you harm.<3 🧿

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“I’m having his baby! No I’m not, but you should see your faces!”