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Can you tell him? Ask him if he is JRM? There are some expats and Filipino who tried to copy the life that I had. Maybe they also want their 5 year old to be molested. Do you think he is a Ramos too? That molester?

Maybe when I came back, they still want to know. So they brought me to rehab. They brought me to rehab twice. Was it you? he or them?

I don't think we'll be the same. If they don't have my father's family.

Can you tell him. I'm tired.

Yes, to you who is reading.

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6/4

Therapy done. My back still aches. What to do?

Program almost done. Still no progress. What to do?

It's 5:30 am already been awake since 3 am. Still mopping and still unproductive. What to do?

Exam is fast approaching. Still unprepared. What to do?

I feel lazy. What to do?

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Toys

My eyes are screaming with flashing hearts when I received my recent purchase form a local online store. Less than 50 php.

A cp screen magnifier. Perfect for my personal Netflix account which password I totally forgot. Only accessible in my phone.

One of the few things to be happy about. Let's drown for a while. Think not. Think not.

What to do? Where to go? Until where and when?

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Melancholic

This is one of my worn-out word.

Not happy.

I really don't want to think.

The new shoes gave me satisfaction though. I followed the doctors.

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pain

heavy back

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Life Update

Had my 3rd session of physical therapy yesterday. My back still hurts as well as my head. I think I should not do yoga. Maybe I just need to follow the routine that we do in the rehab.

I was so happy to visit the chocolate and snack store in front of the hospital. Got myself my favourite chocolate and a few packs of a new favourite instant ramen. Really, really tasty. Too bad I didn't get the instant pancit. Already out of stock.

I also get to buy a new set of clothes and a reviewer for the board which I didn't know that I badly needed until I purchased it. Luckily, I chose the right book.

I just realized that I badly need to work.

Today, I did some personal errand. Needed to settle some dues. Good thing it did not expire. I am not really sure if I am wasting my money here. Hope I didn't make the wrong decision.

My sewing machine disappointed me. It malfunctioned. I also bought a lot of cloth. I have a project for the students. Bad. I can't pursue the plan. Bad because I can't make my own bedsheets. So bad.

There is really something cryptic about this new person that I discovered. Well, I know him before, he is kinda popular, but I think he is acting like Moriarty. Turns out, I can only do Watson. Deductive.

I am also throwing my confusion and anger to them and him maybe. Still what. I have long list of maybe why. I need to know what. What did he mean?

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Work

I need to work. Damn... I have spend a lot last month. Yeah, never again.

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Karma

My curse and my Karma. My head. My herniating-like uterus.

Yeah, karma. why? what about them?

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Chocolates

I am excited to get a new bar of chocolate... even though my head and back is aching again. I forgot that I am still on rehab. I carried the grocery and walked, approximately, 1 km. Stupid... Really stupid.

I wish I can manage to make a new blog where I can only post everything that I love. Like the foods that I like in each restaurant and the stores that feast my frugal eyes.

Precious book for the price of 15 pesos and up. Yes, 15 philippine peso. In Kuwait it's just 100 fils. very cheap price for a valuable item. Actually, I am not sure if my memory is deceiving me, it can be 35 php still cheap but oh so nice.

Seems nonsense but with what has happened and with the new lifestyle that I have lived for the past year, I am now struggling to read fiction novels. Not as focused like before. These non-fiction, coffee table like books is kinda like my silver lining. I am still ok. Not wrecked.

Do you know that in one book I read the history of psychology. One of the earliest diagnoses is hysteria. women's issue. I wonder if they think that the most appropriate cure is hysterectomy. Did they get it from there? Do they think that women aren't women anymore because their uterus is gone? No more hysteria, no more postpartum, no more pms?... You see... the culprit... is the dimwit who never understand.

Ahhhh... My head is detaching from my neck. I can feel it. Stupid me!!!!

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Cadbury

I don't know why my cadbury chocolate made me so, so happy today. I hope it's not because someone (close to me) is experiencing the opposite.

Bumming will make me fat.

I wish we can all be shallow and just be shallow, not irrational or a professional liar.

What is next for me?

I think I ended my epic.

Perspective. I know I will be better.

Oh... and maybe also because of the rainy weather (hot climate gone) and the good outcome of my physical therapy.

A lot of good things. Just enough for today.

#thriving

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Small success

My back pain is healing. Yay! After 2 therapy now big progress. wowowowow.

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Yesterday

Unproductive...

First therapy...

No work is very costly...

A next chapter resolution (Fingers cross)

Life...

I'm waiting for a reborn...

4 hrs sleep...

Don't know what I will do first...

Early breakfast...

Keep morning busy...

siesta...

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Block

Can I have the whole saturday on my own?

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Party

What is the story of your Aqeel? or your Angel?

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Minions

I am seeing some of his minions here.

Kinda like him but no, maybe his second. play of souls. Just a play of souls. Boring. Just a group of Sherlocks and Watsons. I am M. I'll be busting you.

I don't like seeing Gozons.

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Angel

Who are your angels?

I can give a few definitions of angel in my world.

I'm just too lazy to enlist them.

I feel so lazy. I want to start my blog.

Wrong. Wrong. Odd. What are your roles?

Do you know that Nicholas Spark and Bill Gates divorce after more than a decade of marriage? The irony of it all. A romantic and a humanitarian.

You want me to be like them? I passed the age? For the glory and holiness of the universe?

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Writer

I have always said that history is written by victors. He who writes if not contested is always the writer. Haha. Righter.

I wonder who writes better or if thinker is better than writers now. I want to know if...

RM? Is who? Are you or him?

National Bookstore or Jarir? Or W.H. Smith?

I want to write. A delusion that at this moment seems possible. I want to write. Maybe if you are RM, you can be a publisher. FMM for me.

I wonder in which crossfire I will live or which one I will lose.

I want to write. I'll write about the multiverse, The twelfth night.... It seems sad but I guess maybe one day I will write about my fallen.

What if I write all?

So sad.

You all want the Smith?