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[isaiahgen]

happiness and heartaches turned 10 today!

#tumblr birthday #tumblr milestone

[isaiahgen]

He was a stranger, But he lives across our barangay. He said, He have been seeing me for so long at the street, plaza everywhere in the town from a far; But I never in a million years I notice him.

Until December last year, he was introduced by my cousin. Then January this year he pop up in my inbox, then there it started.

I never expected that he will make me feel so loved, and beautiful. He admires me for the longest.

[isaiahgen]

Twenty two

Got a year older.

Its been a rough year being twenty one; I doesn't know what i really want or how would i really start to live my in my own. It is hard when reality hits you so damn intently.

The transition phase is no longer enough for me [i think] because in the first place i don't know where the hell would i start. I kept asking myself "what do i really wanna do?" and can give a lot of answers put up my own small business, or work in a hotel.

But the second question is "Can i do it?" It is getting difficult for me way back because i don't believe in my self that i could it; and ofcourse the pressure around be is always there.

But few months later I got a job in a well-known hotel. The eagerness to work there but for real it shocked me, that the reality looked like that. It is stressing yet giving me life.

It's been months since I had this job somehow I am helping my family. I begun feeding myself by my own earned money. Not totally by my self cause my tita and mama is still supporting me with some of the bills. But somehow I am proud of what I am now because of what I have been through. I am taking lil tiny steps with the life i want to have years from now.

But still.. I don't know what i really want to do. I got a degree, job, a boyfriend a family to lean on whenever I feel down. The pressure is still kicking.

But... I have nothing to do with it, This is life. If it throws some lemons give them lemonade. I always need to be strong for my dreams, myself and my family. I should always believe in me.

That no matter what happens I will win this life.

[isaiahgen]

Usap

Gusto ko ng kausap yung mapapagaan nya yung pakiramdam ko. Yung mapapakalma nya yung isip ko.. Sa kakaisip ng kung ano ano

[isaiahgen]

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[isaiahgen]

Saglit lang haharot muna ko 😂😂

[isaiahgen]

H

He is already my past, but stil

He will always be part of me

He was and will be my only H

My only version of Hyder, that causes my Happiness & Heartaches.

[isaiahgen]

Friendship is a ship to ride through trips, happines, sadness and in pain.

[isaiahgen]

When will i feel so okay? Without pretention and fooling myself to believe that i am okay. But really hell no.

[isaiahgen]

Stop holding onto people just becuase you have history together

Poetryporm

[isaiahgen]

I still have this vain hope, that at the end of your long journey, i would be the one you want to come home to.

moon

[isaiahgen]

Wanna know what hurts being told you deserve someone better by the person who is refusing to be better for you.

-anonymous

[isaiahgen]

because the doctor is late https://www.instagram.com/p/BqExK6LBlxXKLclVNpDSGAe4HkD2erVSE9ec0g0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=4g2ht7fcvvxw

[isaiahgen]

i never thought that these guys would be a perfect ingredient to my life. ❤ opps to chessy 🙊😅 #vsco (at San Fabian Beach Resort Pangasinan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp07px9glcSMDPxpnoAX3aXv3C12jxlOY1yge00/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=6zkdjfnxnn9q

#vsco

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different but bestfriends #vsco (at San Fabian Beach Resort Pangasinan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp06xsKgsKYw5drD323lz9visonM6yO2CMNy_c0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=118rv1b75imcm

#vsco

[isaiahgen]

friends but brothers by heart ❤ #vsco (at San Fabian Beach Resort Pangasinan) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bp06I26g3_F27C1yOp9TAyyBY8z5RWBJyOaZJg0/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=chwmmrt7dqkm

#vsco