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There are many days when I wish I sound back in time. To relive a moment. To feel something all over again. To love that deeply. Cara Lou Apgar. You are, and always will be my hero. You taught me how to love. How to be selfless. How to devout myself to God, as the service of others. How to knit. How to bake French toast. How to know you've found the one, And how to mend a broke heart. I always knew the day you went home would be the worst of my life. I don't want to live in a world where my nanny doesn't exist. I cannot and will not ever be able to put into words the impact you had on my life... What i would do for one more moment... I love you so much ... I miss you everyday, But that's one day closer until we meet again. I promise I'll make you proud. I promise I'll be the woman you raised. Nanny, Cara... I miss you with all of my heart, With every ounce of who i am. Thank you for teaching me a love this strong, And until we meet again, please continue to live on inside me... I love you Nanny ❤ Forever&always

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. There used to be a time where 2 hours seemed too long to not hear from you, and now it's been 2 years. And sometimes I wish you knew that I call your phone, knowing damn well that you'll never answer just to hear the sound of your voice.

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I don't think anyone really understands being cheated on until it happens to them

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But think about it, no matter how much I've been dealt with this year, I got to travel to 3 places on on the top of my bucket list. Honolulu ✅ California ✅ Niagara Falls ✅

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Everyday I wish I never would have left Hawaii. It's the dream to make the move there.

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I used to tell myself that the worse day of my life would be the day that my grandmother died. A year and a half after she has passed i can still say that the worst words I have ever heard in my life were "Megan she passed on". I wish I could have told you how much you meant to me, I wish I could have told me you were my hero, I wish I could have told you that you are the woman I wish I can be one day, nanny I wish I could tell you that you are and will always be my hero. I miss French toast on sundays, and weekdays by the pool. I miss computer games, and peanut butter and jelly. I miss you. And I cannot wait for the day that I can hug you again for real. Dreams aren't enough, I miss you so much.

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A Letter To Heaven

Dear heaven,

I can’t honestly say that I have no idea how near or far away you are. I have no idea what you look like, or smell like or taste like. What I do know is you are now the home to my grandmother, my role model, my hero. I never knew how much you could truly miss someone until you welcomed her home. I never knew what true heartbreak felt like. I do know that she is safe within your gates, and I do know that her pain is over. But heaven, please take care of her still. I miss her more than I thought was humanly possible. I miss her sense of humor and her laugh, her hand knitted scarves. I miss her all right advice, and abundance of cookies at any given time. I miss her Facebook posts, and church on Sunday’s. Heaven, you have my hero, please tell her I said hello, and I miss her.

Sincerely, Her granddaughter on earth. I love you Nan.

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It's hard trying to convince myself that I miss someone else because I'm so afraid of losing you

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I wish you would want me the way you do when your blood with filled with alcohol. I wish you heart would crave my touch the way that it does when the room can't seem to stop spinning. I wish you would reach out to me the way you do when it's 3am and your arms need something to hold. I wish you could want me like that sober

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my dog: barks @ 1am

me: look i also would like to scream loudly in the middle of the night but we dont always get what we want

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I’m scared that this is it. That for the rest of my life I’ll lay awake at 2am because nothing is okay and nothing feels right.

what if I never get better (via alaylmiley)

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A Letter To Heaven

Dear heaven, I can't honestly say that I have no idea how near or far away you are. I have no idea what you look like, or smell like or taste like. What I do know is you are now the home to my grandmother, my role model, my hero. I never knew how much you could truly miss someone until you welcomed her home. I never knew what true heartbreak felt like. I do know that she is safe within your gates, and I do know that her pain is over. But heaven, please take care of her still. I miss her more than I thought was humanly possible. I miss her sense of humor and her laugh, her hand knitted scarves. I miss her all right advice, and abundance of cookies at any given time. I miss her Facebook posts, and church on Sunday's. Heaven, you have my hero, please tell her I said hello, and I miss her. Sincerely, Her granddaughter on earth. I love you Nan.

#letter to heaven #i miss you #grandmother #earth

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i luv when cats randomly burst into a full gallop across the house for absolutely no apparent reason. idk what ur doin or where ur goin but i support it

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And then suddenly, all at once, everything started to make sense