“i hate it here” is peak escapism and hearing her talk about how she lives in a garden no one else has access to in her mind (unlike the rest of her life) for most of the year is sooooo. made up scenarios and imagining living in the 1800s… it’s giving the lakes except she’s alone and she can’t actually leave. so much of the album is about feeling stuck and this one is about feeling stuck in herself.
It’s not that there’s no one. or no one cares. it’s that everyone is involved in their own group and they don’t think to include you or they do and then it’s the realization that you just don’t connect enough to feel noticed which feels. lonely. what can you really do with that though? just accept this isolated life and close your eyes while you’re in the ocean cause your anxiety comes out at night and it’s best to let it not drown you
fucking love when I'm on a call with someone and they start to do a little errand or go somewhere else and they say "and you're coming with me" like. absolutely I am let's go on an adventure I've been spirited away