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I can't love when I'm this sad but I also can't leave you cause I know it'll only make things worse

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Mad cuz I can't get high. Sad cause it's the only thing that takes away from how shitty everything around me is

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I wish I was a bird do I could fly far far away from here

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Dude I'm so sad I wanna rip off my eyelids so they cant cry

#also im high cause its the only thing that makes me feel lass alone anymore

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Why do people expect so much of me when literally all I wanna do is listen to classic rock and cry

#:(

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"'So I think I better go

I never really know how to please you

You're looking at me like I'm see through

I guess I'm gonna go

I just never know how you feel

Do you even feel anything?"

#Billie eilish #8 #why am i feeling like this ): #everything is so hard #i feel like i have to beg and plead just to get a fraction of the love you once showered me in #its so miserable #sad #sorry for being depressing #t #): #i just wanna sleep

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i covered this v cute song from one of my fave movies Her!!!!! c,:

#i love this!!!!!!!!!!

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Dracula Directed by Tod Browning (1931)

#i miss watching black and white movies :( #i just love the mid Atlantic accents

[jarayus]

Reblog this if you’re pro-receiving a brown paper package containing one (1) handwritten love letter, a small jar of strawberry jam from the farmers market, and a smattering of pressed flowers.

#!!!!! #please!!!! omg!! #this is so unbelievably cute!!! #im snagging this as a gift idea now!

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“She is passion embodied, a flower of melodrama in eternal bloom.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, The Idiot (via books-n-quotes)

#i love this #idk what its from #but it looks like something from a book #and sweet pete do i wish someone would write a book abt me #the true idiot

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i love the sims but everything after creating them feels so empty… feel like a bored god who’s only hubris was thinking he could create something beautiful……

#right #I just redownloaded sims last night #and im already like :\ #cause I have to make my ladies whole house #and it didn't save my game from last time I played #and I worked SO HARD on it :(

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#dog! #pumpkin! #I love fall!! #i cant wait!!

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staying here for weekend with the closest friends, laying on the grass observing the clouds, having long walks and enjoying the nature, relaxing with the glass of read wine

#aes

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I don't want to be part of the modern world anymore I'm so bored of it. I want to be a viking farmer. I want to live in a little village and grow crops and battle in raids and have a daughter named helga or something and sacrifice goats to the gods and be a part of the earth rather than trying to control it. If anyone knows of secret viking societies I can live in pls lmk thanks.

#i never sleep anymore #i dont want a career or anything #i want to be all self sustained away from everything #human life is just sooo boring and out of touch #i dont find that much joy in it at all anynore expect for when im travelling #i wanna build my own boat and said with an army of people all over the world ): #or just be turned into a bird #i would like to be a bird #vikings #into the wild #spirituality #gypsies #gypsyvibes #hippie #hippylove #spiritual #meditation #idk :/

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#one day ill live like this! #aes #spirituality

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#anyway why are mushrooms the best thing on the planet #food wise #i love mushrooms!!!!

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#:) #this is cute #soft #aes