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Hey 👋, I see your taking Kanej fic requests so I was wondering (if you can of course) write one where some creep causes Inej to vanish in the the Crow Club, and she’s trying to fight the memories and the past or somethin’ like that? Thank you so much 😊!

Hey there, I'm so sorry this is so pathetically late- but I tried :) hope you enjoy!

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Inej had not been to Ketterdam in eight months. Eight months since Kaz Brekker held her hand without gloves, eight months since she knew they may have a future together- a future where she was more than just the Queen of the seas and he was more than just the King of the barrel.

While setting out to save children who would have, possibly suffered the same fate as her, what Inej had not anticipated was- memories. The first time she had ever been on a ship was when she was fourteen, snatched from her parents and shoved into an abyss of unknown darkness.

Captain Ghafa was, of course, still more than capable of taking care of herself. She had, therefore not taken care to send out word that she would be docking in the Ketterdam harbor at night. By the time she was done with her duties with getting the children who came to Ketterdam transport to a safe place and unloading the ship, the moon was high and it was late.

Inej wasn’t concerned about how late it was. The city was still the same under the sole of her feet- even after eight months at sea. She entered the Slat through the front door.

“Wraith!”

“Keep your voice down, Pim.”

“You want me to tell the boss you’re here?”

That. Now that she had not considered. She took two moments to think,

“Yes.”

He looked like a boy getting toffee as he left his post at the door.

Inej walked into the Crow Club, still buzzing with pigeons and unlucky folks who had come to try their luck at Three Men Bramble. The air was thick with the smell of kvas and sweat.

Isn’t this a bit too crowded? Inej thought. But then maybe it was her long months at sea which had destroyed her habit. She walked in. The noise was a collective chatter, some men loud sometimes.

She had no thought about what Kaz would say, or do. Was he the same? Did he change? Did he work on his layers or did he build the walls back up again?

It was not usual for the wraith, or even Inej Ghafa to lose vision of her surroundings even when she was thinking- but this time, she had. And she managed to stop right in front of a big man. A man she recognized. From her past.

“The Suli Lynx, is it? C’mere little lynx”

She wasn’t the lynx anymore, she had come a long way since then. Hadn’t she? The silks were no more on her, it was her fighting gear. But the smell- it was the same smell she used to get from him back then. It was engraved in her memory.

Inej reached for her knives, but even they felt too heavy. She found herself wishing she could disappear into the shadows- so she did the next best thing.

The world started to fade from her view, her breathing came shallow, and she found herself hoping the man did not notice the change. Just like it used to be, back in the menagerie.

Suddenly that smell was gone. There was a loud groan somewhere and the air filled with the smell of cigars.

“Inej.”

Her name, Inej Ghafa, Captain Ghafa, The Wraith. Not the little lynx.

“Inej, look at me.”

Look. Open eyes.

“Open your damn eyes, Inej”

The voice had a rasp. It was familiar. She tried to get her breathing under control, and slowly opened her eyes- only to meet the bitter brown pupils of Kaz Brekker.

“To my room”

And he walked away. He had held her wrist with his gloved hands and now he was walking away. Inej began to wish she’d never come back.

She stood there for a moment, the crowd that had gathered being dispersed by Pim and Anika. His boot disappeared behind the door. She started up the stairs.

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Hesitating before the door for a moment, she pushed it open. She expected Kaz to have his gloves on, back turned and berating her for not being useful for herself with her knives.

He did stand with his back turned and hands clasped behind, but he did not have gloves on. As soon as Inej clicked the door closed, he relaxed,

“Inej.”

“Kaz”

“You’re back.”

Inej swallowed a lump, “yes”

Unprecedented, he turned, and opened his arms in a low arc, welcoming her for a hug.

Inej was beyond surprised. She stood there for two moments- and then before she knew what she was doing, she was striding across the room and into him.

His arms wrapped around her waist and tightened as she clutched the fabric near his heart.

“Who was that?”

“Someone-” Inej choked, “someone who made me disappear everyday.”

“Do you want me to move away?”

His voice was soft, his smell was familiar and his heartbeat-

“No.” she said, swallowing, “no, Kaz. I want to be home.”

He said nothing, but she felt the briefest brush of his lips against her temple and the slightest tightening of his arms around her.

#inej ghafa #*cries in kanej*#kanej angst #kanej fic #kaz x inej #crooked kingdom #kaz brekker #six of crows #the grisha series #ptsd tw #pathetic try at writing

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