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Die off= Extinct

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After a long time In the middle of Economic Crisis

Thinking for a very long time I started to put everything going on Sri Lanka from a middle class person.

Yesterday night another fuel price increasing happened. The country is in a chaos w/ high fuel price, food price, no $ reserves and pile of debts. As a young person in a country, I see no any future. Even I can't go abroad. Foreign uni doesn't allow SL students to come to their uni bc of $ issue in the country. Don't provide work visa for SL ppl. Power cut is even killing us who work from home in the IT industry.

There's a website we can see when will the power go out. Every morning I wake up and see that. Then I charge my laptop, mobile and everything ready when power go out, we on batteries, power banks and try to continue the work.

Signal strength is so poor. Internet, mobile everything isn't working when the power goes out. I dn't knw how am I managing but still holding on to this. And don't knw how much longer I'll stay like this.

#sri lanka #power outage #inflation #economic crisis #fuel prices #dollar issue

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#kyototemple #I just want to live in a place like this.

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Time is cruel

After breaking up with him I haven't found someone who flattered my heart this much until I met him. But time is against us. I met him 3 years ago and he was single and I was committed but after 1 year ended that relationship and that person got married to another girl. If he was single I would have love him the bottom of my heart. But TIME has become a 3rd wheel to our love. I feel like he loves me too. He care about me, he asked me that have I taken meals or not. He's worried about my health. But deep down we both know that we can't be together. If one day I met him single I know I'll be married by then. Time is always cruel to me. I TR u.

#TR lv #mylv #time #cruel #plzgivehimtome

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I received a scholarship from ANU (Australian National Uni) yesterday (16th March 2021). It is something I really wanted to do for a long time. But time wasn't right. We are hitting on a pandemic and I have already started a MSc in SL and spent my all the money into it. And I am thinking if I go there would I be able to be success. So I am trying to find a job here and stay here forever. I think there's no chance for me to go abroad and live a comfortable life. I really hope in my next life I'd be born into a country like Japan or Korea. Then I can be whatever I want.

Even if I want to go Ausi there are lot of works to do and I know no one is gonna help me. So I just giveup without trying even though I know I sould not give up without trying. But I'm facing the reality. This is my reality. No escape from this. I'll live like this and die like this. I'll start over in my next life.

I'm not gona regret this whatever happens. Coz I know there's nothing I could do. I'm just a person who has no power and with a lost will. I'm just a broken cookie.

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I am looking forward to help a Thai, Chinese or Korean child when I have enough money. I want to supports a child from his little age and see how he’s growing. I don’t even want to see him face to face but looking afar from is enough. I searched some UNICEF sites for donating and find some adaption options too. But in Sri Lanka there are no foreign adaptions going o so it will be hard. Still I like to adapt a child and raise as my own. 

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COVID-19 was a game changer in our lives. I resigned from my job last month (February) bcoz there were nothing for me to learn. Now I am looking for another opportunity. Positively waiting for a good job. I have so many to write this is just a beginning.

#lifeinpandemic #justagirl

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What happened to me

As you all know I am an ARMY who really like BTS. But recently their dating scandal was a hot topic and at that time I realized I need to make up my mind for the worst. Anything can happen so better to be ready. I know I can’t have them, marry or even they won’t know my name. I’m just a fan in the fandom. If I keep going with this, at the end I could go crazy when they reveal their real partners or disband. So to avoid that I started to move on and go back to my previous hobby Cricket. 

I was a die hard cricket fan but after Kumar sangakkar and Mahela Jayawardena retired from cricket I wan not into that anymore. But in 2020/12 LPL brought those things into me again and I found very cute coupe in Ausi team too. So these things made me want be a cricket fan again and helps me to move on Kpop a little bit. I will still love kpop but won’t clingy. Zoinis is my new ship and Ausi is my new team. I found new dream to follow. 

Getting attached to anything can cause harm. That is y Buddha said that to much attachment is painful. So as a Buddhist, I’m gonna follow that and try to control my mind. I personally don’t like to marry or have a family bcoz attachments always end up hurting you. But I won’t be able to stay like that coz my parents won’t let me do that. I have to marry. Someone else who I even don’t know. With this COVID-19 thing I am so disappointed in my life. Wanna leave and start a new life somewhere else. Since I love Adam Zampa now I want to go Australia and born there. 

#zoinis adamzampa marcusstoinis kpop dream life disappointed

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Living Legends. ❤❤❤

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I'm a Whalien. The most loneliest creature in the world. (BTS - RM)

I've seen people fell in love and cry over it and end it in a very sad way. I'm one of them. No regrets though since I did nothing to harm him only to benefit.

If I say today I'm writing thanks to BTS, it is not a showoff. You may see them as a bunch of Korean boys who sing, dance and rap. But for me they are my saviours. They are my inspiration and living legends to me as well. # of times I was thinking to end my life and this is what saved me from doing that, "Love yourself". It is their latest album campaign and released series of albums titling that name. Songs were really inspirational and I began to think that they had and have a difficult life style than me but survived until today. So y should I end my life over nothing or a boy who doesn't care about me. So don't look down on BTS because they are cute or acting like that. They have saved # of lives through their music.

Thank you BTS for saving my life and giving courage to me. U a the best of the best no matter what people say.

And thank you for leaving me. Letting me have enjoy my life with my own rules. Fighting..