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the numbing

I hate that sometimes I think about you and immediately punish myself by sealing the memory in the dungeon in my mind. You don’t deserve to be in my memories anymore. To keep showing up when I feel lonely or when I hope that the next text is from you. You don’t have the right to remind me that you said my love was worth protecting if you didn’t care about destroying my world. You broke me.…

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ALL

I look at you and I see him. All of him. Every form of him. I am pleased. You are everything I could ever imagine and more. More than this world could offer me. More than the sun, the stars, the earth, the moon…you are God’s messenger, an angel, a supernatural being. My bundle of joy.  I look at you and I see me. All of me. Every form of me. I am elated. You will be strong, resilient, eager and…

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To the Core

I think we’ve broken each other down more times than I’ll allow myself to remember. I’ve literally hated you for loving me when all I needed was your love. I needed you. I’ll never understand why I made the decisions I’ve made. Said the things I’ve said. Treated you the way I did. I was difficult and disappointing. I was unrealistic and uncanny. I did everything in my power to break us and simply…

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2020

Should I have mended the relationships created in my era of brokenness? I was surrounded by ‘friendships’ that steered with envy, hatred, and lies. So many questions unanswered and the level of backstabbing was beyond belief. To this day, there are conversations unspoken. Apologies unattainable. Followed by the piercing disbelief in the renunciation of forgiveness.

We’ve all grown up, moved…

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Phoenix

Why do my emotions aspire to conspire against my will to be whole not broken? Why do my thoughts flash through memories of past lovers that once burnt me down to ash? Have I not proven to my inner being that I am capable of overcoming twisted obstacles? That still I rise, like a Phoenix reborn stretching her wings to make room for growth.

Stop tampering with me. Why must you choose to allow this…

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“I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, “Kiss me harder,” and “You’re a good person,” and, “You brighten my day.” I live my life as straight-forward as possible. Because one day, I might get hit by a bus. Maybe it’s weird. Maybe it’s scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be—to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether its your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands. But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate. And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care. We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans. We never know when the bus is coming.”

— Rachel C. Lewis, Tell The People You Love That You Love Them (via queer-lust)

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You never pulled me to the dark side, Blair.

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The Signs as States in the US

Aries: Texas

Taurus: Arizona

Gemini: Louisiana

Cancer: Oregon

Leo: Hawaii

Virgo: Alaska

Libra: Michigan

Scorpio: New York

Sagittarius: New Mexico

Capricorn: Montana

Aquarius: Pennsylvania

Pisces: California

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“It doesn’t matter how tough we are. Trauma always leaves a scar. It follows us home, it changes our lives. Trauma messes everybody up. But maybe that’s the point. All the pain and the fear and the crap. Maybe going through all that is what keeps us moving forward. It’s what pushes us. Maybe we have to get a little messed up, before we can step up.”

— Alex Karev, “Grey’s Anatomy”  

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/G . O . N . E/

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Curvy walk cycle by Pierre Rutz