ladiosaflorecientex

[ladiosaflorecientex]

“Be careful who you make memories with. Those things can last a lifetime.”

— Ugo Eze

[ladiosaflorecientex]

They don't know that i just want to give up...they see what they want to see. How can i express my feelings when i know they wouldn't understand. If i look sad all i want is a hug. This is all i need. This is was i needed as a kid but no one was there...

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#pro ans #mental breakdown #skinny #negative thoughts #schreibt mir #redebedarf #disappointed #want to give up #i need help #pro ania #depressed #chatten #brauche jemanden zum reden #i need a hug #neue freunde kennenlernen #quotes #schreiben

[ladiosaflorecientex]

These Mood Swaps taking away all my energy. i just feel so low and tired and unloved. i am always scared that something bad will happen to me and that i am not able to handle it. my boyfriend and arguing every day and sometimes i feel like he wants to start an argument just to say something snitchy or just to critisise me. today Was the 3rd day in a row and nearly at the same time it happened the to other days before. He has no clue what happened to me in my past and that i just feel this inner fear and lonlieness 24/7. I have this suicidal thoughts every day and i just feel like my mind became my prison. Anxiety gets worse day by day because i can't rest or feel save. Not just because of my Relationship situation it is also because of all this flashbacks running through my mind like a dia-show.

End Result : another panic attack

i am just scared that i could leave and he wouldn't care about it...this is my biggerst fear.

i still have moments where i am able to feel a little joy and for every little dose of this positive energy i say thank you to the universe because this little moments showed me that there is still something left inside me. But it is still not the same. Something changed in the last 3 month and at first i could ignore it but this was a mistake and should be a warning for everyone.

please pay attention to those thoughts and do not ignore them !

#quotes #depressed #redebedarf #schreiben #neue freunde kennenlernen #neue freundschaften

[ladiosaflorecientex]

“You own everything that has happened to you. Tell your stories. If people wanted you to write warmly about them, they should have behaved better.”

— Anne Lamont