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Just saw Wattpad is starting their very own purge. As a fandom elder who lived through the MANY purges and fansite deletions of the aughts prior to Ao3’s existence, I give everyone my deepest sympathies.

Good luck creators.

I highly recommend migrating to Ao3. There is a learning curve but it is ultimately superior IMO.

#i hope they purge my jamilton fanfiction from 2019 bc thats the only way its coming down

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Papyrus

Sage

Cactus

Ask game!!!! :D

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

snow angel by reneé rapp ugh it's a really good song on a killer album it makes me think of the immediate aftermath of leaving my ex. one of the recurring lyrics is "i'll make it through the winter if it kills me" and i just kept singing it while i was trying to get through this past winter and now that it's spring it's like ! :D i did make it through the winter

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

Ooooh god I just love art so muchhhh I'd say either music or statues. I adore music and it just makes me feel so much and ugh music is so so sooo important to me but there's just something about like. a good baroque marble statue??? the patient intimacy of carving that kind of beauty out of a slab of marble or whatever is just. ugh. bernini's david is one of my favoritesss

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

my brain is soo fried rn bc of finals buttttt textiles ig? i just got some thickk books about 18th century textiles that i'm excited to go through

#ask game

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bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

YESSSS immediately I always change into my comfy shorts and loose shirt the SECOND I get home I needdddd to be comfortable

My room is like. A pretty minimalist green and cream color scheme with plants. I like calming, airy neutrals :)))

God idek I’d probably talk about my upcoming internship and the end of the semester bc that’s what’s on my mind rn :D

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for the ask game :]

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

Unfortunately I think I’m a pretty expressive person so. Sometimes my face just does what it wants lollll I have a hard time concealing what I’m really thinking. But also if I’m tired or hungry or annoyed or something I just get very silent. Like stare at the wall no words for hours silent

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 ﹟random get-to-know-me ask game  !! 

orchid ⇢ what’s a song you consider to be perfect?

cactus ⇢ something you’re currently learning (about)?

bamboo ⇢ do you change into a different outfit when you get home?

abelia ⇢ do you have a particular piece of jewelry you always wear or can’t part with?

daffodil ⇢ do you have siblings? if yes, in what ways do you think you’re similar to or different from them?

mahonia ⇢ what place, thing, activity inspires you most and how do you express yourself when it does?

chia ⇢ what’s an inside joke you have with someone else?

sage ⇢ what ‘medium’ of art (poetry, music, fiction, paintings, statues etc.) is the most touching to you? why do you think that is?

edelweiss ⇢ how’d you think of your url/username? what’s it associated with to you?

camellia ⇢ what were you like when you were younger? do you think you’ve changed a lot?

jasmine ⇢ do you have a movie or book you loved but will never watch/read again?

ivy ⇢ what are your ‘tells’ for your emotions and moods? how can someone tell you’re happy, annoyed, upset or tired?

chamomile ⇢ what kind of things do you like receiving as gifts?

aloe vera ⇢ what’s something (mundane) you really want to experience in life?

palm tree ⇢ do you have a fictional villain you shouldn’t like but love regardless?

nutmeg ⇢ how’s your room/home decorated? do you have a specific theme or style going on?

papyrus ⇢ if you put your ‘on repeat’ playlist on shuffle, what’s the first song that comes up? what do you like about it / associate it with?

taro ⇢ if someone called you right now to catch up, what’re the things you’d tell them about?

#aaaaah pls ask a bunch!!! :D #ask game

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No preworkout no protein no nothing just the knowledge that I’m seeing my ex in a week and a half and I need to be so hot she has nightmares about it

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No bc if I had listened to “my boy only breaks his favorite toys” like six months ago I would’ve been like “omgggg I’m his sickest army doll 🥰🥺 my boy DOES only break his ✨favorite✨ toys” WHAT WAS I ONNNNN I’m nauseous someone needs to go back in time and like. Grab me and shake me by my shoulders and knock some sense into me plssss god

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All that time you were throwing punches I was building something And I couldn't wait to show you it was real Screamed, "Fuck you, Aimee" to the night sky As the blood was gushing But I can't forget the way you made me heal

#such a real song #thank you aimee

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more soft wakanda times for this spring 🌿💐

my emergency Commissions are open and you can support me on ko-fi

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Blood and Bones - Kodaline

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yk what european chocolate is so fucking good oh my god. i just got a bunch of european chocolate bars and i wanna die its so good

#wegmans international section ftw

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I’ve had like seven mini panic attacks today I can’t take it

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tyyyyyy for the tag, @painted-doe :D

last song i listened to: The Prophecy by Taylor Swift

my favorite color: oooooh i love really powdery greens or purples. sage, lavender, like that :D

currently watching: Baby Reindeer ughhhh creeps me outt but it's really good so far

spicy, savory, or sweet: savory!

relationship status: in a very loving relationship with my best friend :DD

current obsession: heart shaped cheerios

last thing i googled: "listless synonym" lmfaooo love me a good synonym

tagging @mandyyvibes, @chaos-and-ink, @stuckydrewx @numberonestuckyshipper @sarahowritesostucky and anyone else who would like to answer :D

#tag game

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sometimes i just think about how beautiful sarah wilson looked in that outfit with the rust/golden orange-colored jacket, that plum-and-white shirt, those plum-colored pants, and those cute little white sneakers and i FREAK OUT

like… oh my god. just LOOK at her. she is actual perfection and i am so glad she exists

#i love her so bad holy shit #im so in love with her #sarah wilson

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Teenage Petulance

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How many hours at the gym before I get strong enough that men stop looking at me like an object to hurt asking for a friend

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#I Am Ash From Your Fire 2: The Electric Boogaloo