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“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.”

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My family dynamic is so fucked up. I have been emotionally detached from humans for a long time. I don't trust anyone, especially my family. Humans are terrible.

Being emotionally detached has been a great tool. It has kept me safe/sane.

It also is a burden because now I can't emotionally connect with others, especially for long periods of time.

I don't want to be this way. I break up with everyone I end up dating. I literally have no friends. I have certain people who I have so much love for and will always be open to talk. The thing with me is that I barely check up on anyone. That makes people think I don't care.

Dear my heart, I will create a safe space for you to be able to come out of that dungeon and feel free. Free to love. Getting hurt is just a part of the game of life. Do not let it dim your light. You shine so bright and the dungeon hides your greatness, you want to be there. It's will soon be okay for you to get out. See what happens when you are emotionally aware of others.

Ugh It's draining connecting with others 😵

The healing process is scary but I must heal soon befire I turn 25.

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finland, pietarsaari, 2020

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Kawagoe Hikawa Shrine, Tokyo Japan 

by Tadahisa Hagiwara

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12/06/21

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