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Ya know when people told me "when you're finally safe enough that you can leave survival mode and start to let go of and process your c-ptsd/trauma things are probably going to get really, really bad before they slowly start to get better" I thought that was reasonable. I did not understand that by "things are going to get bad" they meant "you're going to find yourself in the worst mental state of your entire life, but dw, that means it's working" and tbh I simply wish someone had been more clear.

#i really want my butterfly tattoo

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gnight i love you (my future self my past self and my current self)

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by Marlon Holden

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unfortunately for all of us i cannot shut the fuck up

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brushing one's teeth... a farewell to treats. good night, sweet delicacies, my mouth knows only tooth paste now. perhaps when a new day breaks we will meet once more

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feeling like pure shit today my cursed eye glowing red as fuck

#julian

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i'll fucking do it but christ alive

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morning routine:

1. wake up already in tears

2. hysterically sob

3. threaten suicide

4. make coffee

5. cry into my coffee

6. hygienic rituals

7. god's light enters through the window of my soul

8. i am tranquil in an instant

9. serve

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I hate when people say ohhhh your pets only love you because you feed them. as if that wasn't the first form of love any of us felt. get real.

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I used to be 21 but now I'm 24. so you can understand why I'm so freaked out

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what do they put in large rocks that make u just want to. stand on it.

#cat behavior

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This year for christmas I am summoning the biggest fattest joint for everyone in the world to take one big smoke on. and happy holidays

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