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missing

it has been three hundred and ninety seven days, thirteen hours and fifteen minutes since sarah reese was last seen. by investigators’ standards, her disappearance is a cold case.

but not for ava. sarah had been the only person to make moving almost eight thousand miles from everything and everyone she’d ever known.

their friendship had been the only thing keeping her afloat in those first few awful months, and her kisses had been the only thing that had felt like home to ava on this side of the atlantic.

she knew that sarah wouldn’t have just left her alone without any warning, and she definitely wouldn’t have gone willingly with robert.

if only the waste of space cops would believe her when she told them that, repeatedly.

now it has been three hundred and ninety seven days, thirteen hours and sixteen minutes since sarah reese was last seen.

and then ava’s phone rings, an unknown number with a chicago area code. one maggie lockwood at gaffney chicago medical centre informing ava that a jane doe had been repeating her name and number ever since she’d been found.

three hundred and ninety seven days, thirteen hours and sixteen minutes without sarah reese, and ava was certain they wouldn’t spend a day apart ever again.

#👀👀👀 #daisy🌸

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CHICAGO FIRE 9.15 A WHITE KNUCKLE PANIC

#her <3

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diner!au

“What can I get you?” Ava asks, looking up at the woman standing before her, with windswept hair and a pensive look about her.

“Oh, uh,” Sarah’s caught off guard, looking about her.

“That’s alright,” Ava smiles gently, “take your time.”

“Mama makes the best mac n cheese!” A voice pipes up behind her, and Sarah whips around, startled. She hadn’t thought there was anyone else there. Her face rearranges into a smile, though, seeing a girl of about six kneeling up on the seat of one of the upholstered leather booths, crayon in hand.

“That so?” Sarah laughs, receiving a vigorous nod from the girl in response. “I think I might have to go with that, then,” she decides.

#👀👀 #zee🫀

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early seasons Will makes me want to scream. he’s literally obsessed with playing god and thinks he knows better than all his patients and he Doesn’t

#the dnr episode- #and going against the patient's wishes #fr he should have been fired

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📚 <3

It’s when he punched Ethan for some passing remark that Connor stepped in. Connor drags him to a conference room to be like “dude what the fuck is up with you.” Will can’t answer, he doesn’t know. He doesn’t know why he’s acting like this but he can’t stop. He needs to leave, he’s a danger to himself and everyone else.

“I can’t do this anymore, Connor,” he’s shaking and he looks petrified. Will can’t make eye contact and Connor knows something had to have happened before or soon after he came back.

“What are you going to do?”

“I need to leave… I need to get away you have to help me.”

“Where?” Connor is looking at him like he’s grown two heads. He just came back and now Will wants to leave again.

“Dunno. Come with me?”

Connor doesn’t know why he agrees almost immediately, all he knows is something is wrong and Will shouldn’t be alone.

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The silence in the waiting room is suffocating. It’s just the two of them — Sarah and Crockett, sitting tense side-by-side — and all she wants to do is run. Down the hall, to the elevators, out the front door of the hospital and then to wherever her legs will take her. Anywhere is better than here.

She picks at one of the holes in her jeans, bony fingers pulling at little white threads, and all the while she can feel Crockett’s eyes on her. He’s been doing that a lot recently, staring when he thinks she’s not looking, but she always knows.

“I’m sorry.”

He shakes his head. “I don’t want apologies, Sarah. I just want you to get better.”

— nervosa!au

#👀👀 #nova🐌

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are we ever going to talk about this or…

#sarah pretty much going 'it's ok i'm already traumatised' like bestie... #also the 'i'm not an idiot'-

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paramedics au + “you can’t cook”!!

“…The most important thing to remember when riding with us is,” Connor has Sarah hanging on his every word, the newly qualified EMT frantically scribbling his words of wisdom into the notebook she keeps in her pocket “never let Ava make you food.”

Sarah’s expression quickly changes from one of immense concentration to amused confusion, and she’s about to ask for the story behind his advice when the blonde in question marches over to defend her bruised dignity.

“What are you telling her?” She demands, and Sarah thinks she should be scared of the stern edge to her voice, but the smile creeping onto her face tells her this must be an old joke between the two paramedics.

“Only what’s necessary to her survival,” He replies, nudging her lightly with his elbow. “You know you can’t cook!”

“Don’t listen to a word he says, it’s all rubbish!” Ava’s turned to Sarah, who’s eyes flit between the two of them nervously.

Connor shakes his head, mouthing ‘I’m right!’ in Sarah’s direction now Ava’s back is turned.

“I know exactly what you’re doing, Connor, you should consider yourself lucky you have a witness,” Ava rolls her eyes and puts an arm around Sarah, gently squeezing her elbow in reassurance. “Come on, I’ll show you the ambo.”

#cute!

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SYLVIE BRETT (+ Antonio Dawson)

5x07 - Lift Each Other

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— sacred moments

“ don't go. stay. “

“ but you're here, so stay. “

“ i don't want to be alone tonight. “

“ just come over. “

“ let's be alone together. “

“ i didn't know where else to go. “

“ i don't want us to be apart anymore. ever. “

“ i wouldn't have called you if it wasn't important. “

“ you can talk to me about anything. you know that, right? “

“ just be honest with me. do you hate me? “

“ i could never hate you. not really. “

“ you're my friend, but... sometimes i wish you were more than that. “

“ we're not just friends. you know that. “

“ i think i'm falling in love with you. “

“ can i hold your hand? “

“ i think you're in love with me. “

“ just hold me. “

“ things would be so much easier if we were honest with each other. “

“ why can't you be honest with me? with yourself? “

“ maybe you could stay? just for tonight? “

“ it’s dark outside, and it’s raining. my arms are much safer. “

“ you can't keep doing this. you can't keep lying to yourself. “

“ i can't keep lying to you, or to myself. it's not fair on either of us. “

“ i think you should kiss me. “

“ kiss me like you mean it. “

“ just kiss me. “

“ you shouldn't kiss me right now. “

“ you can't lie to me, you know. “

“ you know me better than anyone. you always have. “

“ you're pretty amazing. you know that, right? “

“ you're just... extraordinary. “

“ you're good to me, you know. really good. “

“ you make me so happy. “

“ i don't know what i would have done if you weren't here. “

“ our love can conquer anything. “

“ and for many generations to come, our love story will live on. “

“ i want you to marry me. “

“ if you asked me to marry you tomorrow, i'd say yes. “ “ what about today? “

“ marry me, [name]. marry me and make me the luckiest [person] in the world. “

“ your kiss could mend a broken heart. “

“ so are you going to kiss me, or do i have to make the first move? “

“ i could cry, you know. that's how much i love you. “

“ you're worthy of my love. “

“ truth is that i'm so damn in love with you, i don't know what to do with myself. “

“ maybe tonight, it's you and me. “

“ i don't know what the future holds. all i know is that i hope you're in it. “

“ could you promise me one thing? “

“ promise me that we'll be together, forever. no matter what happens. “

“ it's you and me, forever. no matter what. “

“ i didn't want to tell you until i was sure, but... i'm pregnant. “

“ we're going to be family! “

“ this baby, it's the best thing that could have ever happened to us. “

“ i can't believe this, we're going to be parents! “

“ dance with me? “

“ may i have this dance? “

“ you're my whole world, you know. “

“ don't speak. just kiss me. “

“ you have no idea how long i've been wanting to that. “

“ i've been wanting to tell you for so long... “

“ so is this like, a thing now? “

“ i always miss you, even when you're next to me. “

” i miss you. i miss you so much it hurts. ”

” i don’t want you to miss me. it’s tearing me apart. ”

“ you make me happier. “

“ i love waking up next to you. “

“ my favorite thing is falling asleep next to you. “

“ come cuddle with me. “

“ this is torture, isn't it? “ “ not in the slightest. “

“ do you love me? “

“ could this be something more? “

“ move in with me. “

“ do you think we should move in together? you spend all your time here anyway. “

“ are you serious? i've had a crush on you for as long as i can remember. “

“ i know you're in love with me. “

“ you're really cute, you know. “

“ you're so damn attractive, you know that right? “

“ if anybody were to kiss me, i would want that person to be you. “

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I think my dream job would be sitting in the writers’ room for tv shows and just telling them when their ideas are bad. They don’t even have to pay me, I’d do it for free. Really I don’t even need a chair. I’ll just stand in the corner.

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headcanon that sarah's a space nerd and leaves sticky notes with random space facts on everyone else's lockers/bags/notes/any surface she can find

#and she even has those planet themed sticky notes #sarah reese #chicago med

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"you never loved me"~maybe for birthright for tsf :)

After Ava storms out, Sarah’s alone for a few hours. No one comes to check on her, or offer her more water or something to eat, and by the time the door clicks open again, there’s a dull throbbing pain in the side of her head, and the only relief she can give herself is by resting her cheek on the cool, metal table in front of her.

It takes her a moment to look up when the door opens, but when she does, the headache is all but forgotten. Ava’s standing there, arms folded in front of her, and Sarah wishes more than anything that she could go over and hug her.

“You came back! I’m sorry for what I said earlier, Ava. I wasn’t thinking straight, and I didn’t mean any of it.”

“Save it.” Ava crosses the room and pulls out the chair opposite Sarah. “I’m not doing this for you.”

She’s quiet for a moment, mentally rehearsing what she’s going to say, and all the while, Sarah just stares at her.

Ava wants to run.

“I talked to Agent Prentiss, and I’ve decided you can see Lolly one last time. But I need you to tell me something first.”

“Of course, Ava, anything.” She seems so earnest, and it’s almost enough to make Ava forget who she’s talking to, and what she’s done.

“Is it true what they’re saying? That you never loved me? Or Lolly? That you could never love us?”

Sarah frowns, but she doesn’t say anything.

“Tell me.”

“I love Lolly. I will always love Lolly. That’s why I took those kids! I couldn’t stand being away from her, and I thought they could replace her. But no one can replace Lolly. She’s better than them.”

Ava nods. She knows about the kids, knows that they were all unharmed, but that knowledge doesn’t make hearing Sarah admit to the kidnappings so freely any easier.

“And what about me? Did you ever love me?”

“I love what we had.”

#the last line- #love this #nova your brain

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I hate how sarah, april, and maggie stopped interacting after season 1 because their friendship was just sweet and nice to see

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Dr. Charles comforting his daughter Sarah

#i miss them :( #<- prev tags #same #time for a rewatch