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i think someone should introduce him to the sims

#megalomaniacal madman #awawawa

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i think like. in ffxiv gridania and the crystarium feel very cozy to me, both of them feel like Ok im at home now! when i go there, but really nothing beats rabanastre for that. i dont even ship from ff12 anymore or really have a coherent self insert but rabanastre is so like. Okay! I live here this is my house

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it can be important to not only have f/os who are people, but f/os which are places. i don't mean f/o in a romantic sense (although you're valid to feel that way), but in a home sense. i call them home f/os. i think everyone should have a fictional space they love and enjoy where they can escape to without only having a character attached. this can be a whole fictional community you feel at home with, or simply the physicality of a setting that you just love. you can have f/os from this media or none at all. having a personal fictional area that invokes the sense of safety, comfort and being at home gives you the opportunity to step away from reality and feel sheltered and enveloped in a different way that character f/os don't. i feel many people have home f/os without realizing it, but if you don't, think about it! where's your home away from home, in another reality?

pr*ship/neutral please dni

#RABANASTRE!!!!!!

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london gets trolled

#never forget

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remember them

#fallen london au tag #my draws

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— and immortality's gold blinded him to the mortal curse of loneliness.

#so obsessed with this #the body language here is so natural and real #megalomaniacal madman

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Okay people, backlog has been satisfied, and we are here.

#megalomaniacal madman #REALLY REALLY REALLY GOOD

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stickers that are up in my store rn :)

https://weiyiswy.storenvy.com/collections/2011916-stickers

#megalomaniacal madman

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get out of those stuffy clothes, old man, time to get objectified

#thinking about this forever now #megalomaniacal madman

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#megalomaniacal madman #this rules

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ive been working on music again today and found a really satisfying and good workflow and im too tired to write any more bc ive been awake since forever but i want to write a song about emet tomorrow. and maer too, i already wrote one about him but it was years ago and i can do better now

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im still badly struggling with a title (i always have such trouble with titles) but im going to try to make a star wars pfeil fancomic and i already have some pages done so. cheer me on

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u kno i had to do it to em

#megalomaniacal madman #SCREAM

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idk if ive talked here about the. most of star war au tbh? hard to summarize. rambling incoming

essentially. pfeil was prince of zygerria, but it sucked for numerous reasons (terrible fascist hell culture, abusive family, etc). his mom was physically violent and during one altercation he freaks out and kills her with the dark side of the force. like jsut explodes her. obviously being like 15 he panics and flees the planet as a stowaway on the first ship he can find.

he ends up on this planet I MADE UP <3 called orphan, which is an orphan planet (hence the name). it's home to an imperial shipyard, and in essence it kind of functions like a prison colony and general shunting-off place for Undesirables. nothing grows there, it's all solid ice, its day-night cycle is managed by a big stupid orbital lamp and the ice crystals in the air cause a lot of optical illusions. the overseer lets him stay on the condition that he work, and everyone sort of quietly overlooks the fact that he gives a fake name and doesn't legally exist and the obviousness of like. i mean come on this little zygerrian guy shows up and then a few days later you hear on the news that their prince is missing and his mom is dead? DUH

anyway. orphan sucks, the optical bullshit and isolation and bad safety standards and all cause a LOT of industrial accidents and general malaise. pfeil just kind of absorbs this horrible atmosphere and gets mad about it and mad at the empire and it all sort of festers until someone Else gets into an accident and he's had Enough and steals a ship to go attack the first imperial operation he comes across and hopes he'll just get blown up. instead thrawn grabs him, and he does his typical thing of like "oh hmmm, he might be useful later," and essentially lets him go and leads him to the ghost crew.

i think pfeil meets up with everybody after the shit with maul, so between seasons 2 and 3. obviously kanan doesn't like him bc he's got the most rancid dark side vibes humanly possibly (felinely possible?) but ezra likes him. pfeil gets weird about kanan thinking he's ontologically evil since he's already got massive guilt issues and ocd also. everybody else is some level of cool with him though. he and zeb get along particularly well since they're the least humany of the crew i think, and obviously he has force shit in common with ezra and an interest in art in common with sabine. hera just kind of adopts him

i tend to imagine season 3 is kind of like...he has a lot of soul searching to do about his self destructive/suicidal tendencies and connection to the force and kanan really only makes it worse. i think a lot that pfeil would seek out the bendu and be like OKAY SO YOURE A GREAT AND WISE TEACHER. IM ALL FUCKED UP. HOW DO I STOP BEING FORCE SENSITIVE. and ofc the bendu is like Well you'd have to kill yourself (the living force is part of everyone, you can't not be alive unless you're dead, etc). and pfeil being pfeil takes this to mean "Ah, so i am morally obligated to kill myself then" which. Not what he said

the big battle at atollon is probably his nadir, really. i had been thinking he gets over his whole Thing before then but really his behavior ive written for it suggests he is in fact still up to his usual bullshit. snooping as usual i see. anyway. it is Terribly hopeless for the rebels so i imagine pfeil processes this as like "I can make a difference in the survival of the rebellion. By finally doing the moral thing and CRAZY DYING." and goes out there and fights like an insane scary reckless person until his ship does, in fact, get blown up.

i think this is where there are two sort of possibilities. either way he survives due to the horrible inside of him (dark side of the force). in an au where emet expy polydegmon is emperor, he gets scooped out of space and put in a bacta tank and shit, and there's an uncomfortable captor-captive romance thing that happens and whatever, i still haven't found a way to plot that out in my head to my satisfaction, i never like it. it's not interesting anyway.

the thing that i did this whole big long preamble for is that like. i started thinking "ok but what if i DIDNT replace palpatine with a cuntress. what would happen then." i don't think sheevy palps would scoop pfeil out of the space dirt, honestly. polydegmon initially wants to get in on that because he thinks his dark side echo bullshit might be useful and then falls in love with him and is like oh no oh fuck god dammit, but i think palpatine is too busy being palpatine to take much interest in pfeil, and beyond that i think he'd rather have pfeil be dead than potentially bring another apprentice into the stupid mix bc it's not like pfeil is as cool and badass in the force as luke or anything.

what i'm saying mostly is that i think it would be interesting if maybe in this timeline pfeil was stuck as a pfeilsicle out in space until like. idk. new republic times probably. fry from futurama ass situation

#suicide ment #just in the context of the fiction

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this fucking sanrio mascot will ram his ship directly into you hes fucking crazy and doesnt afraid of anything

really funny to me that star war pfeil is a soft and cute and fuzzy space kittycat whose entire character gimmick can be genuinely summed up by "my plan is to blow up and then act like i dont know nobody nyahahahaha"

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really funny to me that star war pfeil is a soft and cute and fuzzy space kittycat whose entire character gimmick can be genuinely summed up by "my plan is to blow up and then act like i dont know nobody nyahahahaha"