i have no motivation to write whatsoever 💀 i’m really sorry for people who are waiting on drafts from me, being cut off from the muse for a few weeks kinda killed it for me, so i’m gonna wait and see if it comes back — might have to explore more AUs to try and diversify as well
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lucretia — marblecarved
@mctherdearest sent a letter to lucretia prewett: ‘‘ you look… as lovely as ever, lucretia. ’’
prompt: ballroom dialogue starters.
At her compliment, Lucretia tucks her chin into her neck as she looks down at herself, bringing her shoulders back. Such a movement prompts the tiered skirt of her dress to flutter about her frame, then settle against her knees.
❝ Thank you, ❞ she pronounces in a tone of voice loud enough to be heard above the chatter in the drawing room. Though her first choice was a coral-colored dress, her mother, Melania, asked her to reconsider. It would make you stand out more than you would like, she said, meeting her gaze through the mirror. In her hands she held the hanger of a burgundy dress. At the time, she followed her advice only because there was no more time to select another ( and they were late enough as it is ! ) but now…
With a hand, Lucretia brushes the fabric clean of imaginary dust; She has to admit its color is indeed lovely, and it creates quite the contrast with the dark furniture that is so characteristic of Grimmauld Place. It has, so far, not attracted as much attention as her previous coral choice surely would have.
Indeed, since her arrival with her family she engaged in few conversations of varying length; Brief exchanges of pleasantries, answering on the whereabouts of her mother or father or even both… All that one expects to engage with during a family gathering, while searching for one of the few tolerable of the lot.
In the end, it was Wal who found her, idly sipping a drink while letting her eyes wander about the room. They are now standing near the buffet table; Neither too far nor too near from the gathering, a position ideal to busy oneself with observing and not doing much talking. It had always been a favorite of Lucretia.
❝ You look splendid, Wal, ❞ as she raises her head, she points at her cousin’s dress with the empty glass, following her own movement with her eyes for a moment before raising them to meet hers. Here, Lucretia smiles, prompting her eyes to crinkle at the corners. ❝ I’m so glad you are here, ❞ then, following a brief pause. ❝ I missed you. ❞
the black family never shies away from throwing extravagant parties, for whatever reasons. this one is probably to celebrate the spring awakening - or so she thinks, losing tracks of her parents' excuses for gathering the whole family and more in the town house of 12, grimmauld square. in any case, it gives walburga a good occasion to dress up, and see her extended family and cousins with whom she barely spends time with anymore since graduating from hogwarts last summer — though really, there is only one cousin she's eager to see tonight.
she and lucretia never spends too long apart, but it's been almost a whole month since their last get-together, at another pureblood ball in the countryside. so she chooses a dress she knows her cousin will like: satin, dark emerald green, worn on several occasion already but always drawing compliments nonethless. she draws her dark hair into a low bun and applies some lipstick to finish the look. in the mirror, her reflection smiles at her.
when she finally goes downstairs, she notices many people are there already, gathered in the ballroom. she scans the room, searching for the other dark-haired girl — which proves tricky in the sea of their relatives, all sporting the same dark looks. but there she is, in the burgundy dress, and wally feels the familiar fluttering of her stomach as she crosses the room in a few strides to meet her.
" thank you " she blushes and smiles at lucretia's compliment. she wants to add, i thought of you when i chose this dress, but she keeps quiet. instead, she takes her cousin's hand in hers, intertwinning their fingers and squeezing lightly. " i missed you, too " again she wants to say, i would spend every day with you if i could, and again she keeps quiet. instead she snaps her fingers for lucretia's glass to refill, and grabs one of her own. " perhaps next time, there will be an actual thing to celebrate - like a wedding or an engagement " she speaks only for their distant cousins though ; she cannot imagine either of them getting married, not yet. " i'm betting on malfoy - you know how eager abraxas was about getting a wife "
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professor corvinus — fallencrowns
Oh the pride of Slytherins and purebloods, something he had had a hand in crafting many centuries ago but he couldn’t help but find AMUSEMENT in a child acting in such a way. His lips curled into a faint smile, a spark in his dark eyes. ❝ Ah, yes, how very REFINED it is. Like table sugar that once came from sugarcane that could grow and stand all on its own and is now stored in delicate containers for an evening tea. ❞ He was teasing her, the mirth all too apparent. There was his own pride shining through so easily. Here he was trying to EDUCATE rather than have others forget entirely where they all came from, rather than letting their history be forgotten and thrown aside.
His attention momentarily turned away from the girl, back towards his desk that he leaned on. His hand moved from where it had rested in his pocket, so lazily stretching out towards the cup of tea that was growing colder by the moment. But Salazar didn’t reach entirely for it, instead letting his magic expel from his hand without so much as a WORD and the teacup was soon moving across the desk and straight into his hand. A subtle display of his own POWER, wordless and wandless before Salazar’s gaze returned to Walburga. ❝ Cutting branches away doesn’t eradicate them from your history, I’m afraid. The world would be so much more SIMPLE if that were possible. I’ve family of my own that I’m not entirely fond of. ❞ Raising the cup up to his lips, he took a sip before speaking again, this time his gaze on the dark liquid and his amusement gone.
❝ I would also be quite CAREFUL in trimming a tree, Ms. Black. You see, trees have a nasty tendency to wither away and DIE if too many branches are cut away. ❞ That was more of a warning, something Salazar had seen many times. The end of a family line, a name fading away and its legacy along with it.
she shifts her weight from one foot to another as she watches his little demonstration of his magic. of course she has never doubted the professor to be a most powerful magician, as all teachers are ; though you wouldn't imagine a history teacher being an exceptional wizard. perhaps he would be more suited teaching charms, or defense against the dark arts, if his interest in ancient forms of magic run so deep. " i'll admit that's impressive " she crosses her arms over her chest. " and i suppose that's why magic manifests in this form in children. but why should we cling to remains of our past ? " she raises an eyebrow.
" if we pretend they don't exist, they might as well not exist at all " she shrugs. whatever those people might be doing in their lives were of no concern to them, once they were erased from the family tree. all ties were severed and all contacts prohibited. " if you never see something, or hear about that thing, does it still have an existence ? " her question is rhetorical : in her case, she already knows the answer. " as for my family tree, it's in perfect health " she smiles. " i have two brothers and many cousins, and though not all of them bear our name, all our trees are intertwinned and keeping each other alive "
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andromeda — prioriincantatem
“I didn’t run off with Ted,” Andromeda says tensely. She hates being looked at with this level of disdain, with this level of disgust from the woman that’s been as good as a mother to her. “His family were kind enough to let me stay with them until I could get my things.” She can’t deny that she burned herself off the tapestry. She’s still proud of that; she won’t make apologies for it.
The slap startles her, and Andromeda takes a half step back from the force of it. She looks at Walburga, shocked and hurt. “I’m still part of this family,” she says. “You can’t take me out of this family, I’m part of you. You told me that. You can’t take that back.”
the trouble with cherished children is they start thinking they will get away with anything — like lying to one's face, as andromeda is doing now. pretending her stay with the muggles is — what ? a vacation ? " they're muggles, andromeda ! filfthy muggles ! " she snarls. " you should know better than to lie to me, girl "
she lets a little chuckle escape her at her niece's words, though it is bitter. she did see her as a daughter, and it made the betrayal all the more painful and terrible. " what did you think happen when you burned your name of the tapestry ? " her lips are pinched, her stare icy. " you're no longer part of this family. whatever you were exists no longer. you're no black, andromeda. you're no kin of mine "
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sirius — adveanture
IT IS A TENUOUS BALANCE BETWEEN THE CONFLICT AND REBELLION HE CRAVES AND THE REALITY OF HIS PARENTS’ REACTIONS. there is an inexplicable blend of wishing for the pain and weeping at its arrival — a fascinating conflagration of sirius’s wish for their disapproval and wish for their love. he cannot explain it . . . he never will be able to explain it. once upon a time, regulus and he would sneak each other snacks or books when confined to their rooms. sirius will not be able to count on even that now, he is sure of it.
he grits his teeth, clenches his hands tightly at his sides, and looks down at the floor instead of his mother’s cold, hardened expression. “ i will . . . behave myself, mother, ” he promises, begging through barred teeth. “ . . . please. ” he hates the sound of the plea from his lips, but he hates the idea of isolation from any and everything that makes life in this house bearable even more. “ i’ll do better. ”
a line has been crossed when she is able to bend him. in his younger years, it was easier, but it has gotten harder and harder with the years, when he starts to push back against her more and more. so far she has always achieved what she aimed for — aware that one day, the reed might break altogether.
now she knows she has reached a point for him where he can't do anything but back down ; robbing him of his freedom is the one threat which has never failed her so far. " these are only words — empty promises " she says " i will need to see acts and deeds before i allow you your freedom again "
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sirius — adveanture
WHEN HE IS SMALL, HE FLINCHES AT VIOLENCE IN HER VOICE — AT TOUCES THAT ARE TOO TIGHT OR WORDS THAT ARE TOO SHARP. now, they only fuel him — only stoke the fire inside to burn ever brighter, ever hotter, ever endless. he is uncontrollable, they say. they never mean it well. but perhaps he is, and perhaps that is a good thing. good or bad, it is impossible to change — and impossible to wish to change.
“ being born to privilege and prosperity isn’t working for anything, mother, ” he retorts, pleased at least that he’s pushed her to reactivity. once she loses her temper, she loses all sorts of reason in her arguments. that is, at least, some small success in sirius’s mind, though he knows now, invoking this sort of talk, that he will engage his father’s ire as well most likely. and orion does not partake in the verbal sparring of his son and wife. “ you and this entire fucking family are the worthless ones! ”
even when she knows his own purpose in pushing her over the edge, she cannot help but falling. perhaps she falls because there is some sort of satisfaction in letting out this pure anger — it's not like he isn't asking for it, goading them past their limits each time. " and your little friend james, he works so hard, uh ? and so do you ? i mean, besides your little pranks and your fights ? " she knows of his behaviour at hogwarts, informed regularly by his head of house.
her body tenses as he crosses the line, and she only needs a split second to seize her wand inside her robe. " you do not talk of your family like this " she growls, pointing at him. " you do not talk about us like that. crucio ! "
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lucretia — marblecarved
@mctherdearest sent a letter to lucretia prewett: ‘‘ i’ll bring you tea with honey. i know that always makes you feel better. ’’
prompt: platonic and familiar sentence starters.
Though occupied with adjusting her position on the settee, Lucretia tips her head to one side, looking up at her cousin from under her lashes. As their eyes meet, she smiles. It’s a mere hint of one, appearing there, at the corners of her mouth, but it a smile nonetheless. Of course she remembers how I take my tea, Lucretia thinks to herself, and it prompts a note of appreciative surprise to appear in her voice when she answers thus: ❝ I would like that very much, ❞ while intertwining her hands on her lap, and there takes on the likeness of a statue, with a tense set of shoulders and a straight back that refuses to lean on the settee. Her gaze has yet to leave her cousin, and from familiar features she draws a comfort this house never gave her, no matter the company.
Indeed, not even the lit fireplace at the center of the drawing room is enough to make it at least seem hospitable. Still, the settee and accompanying armchairs are near enough to let its warmth envelop them in a luminous embrace. That is something that Lucretia appreciates immensely, at the moment. ❝ Thank you, ❞ and then, following a brief hesitation, she adds a ❝ Wal, ❞ dusting off the childhood nickname, pronouncing it with the same sweetness she used the first time she gave it a voice to.
lucretia left the house when she got married, like all other girls joining their husband's family and mansion ; her departure left an empty space that could never be fulfilled, not in walburga's eyes. at first, their visit to each other were quite frequent, but as walburga founded her own family, they began seeing less and less of each other — which made their reunion the more important in her eyes. there isn't one little detail walburga can forget about her cousin, and she snaps her fingers to order the house elf to make the tea as she likes it. " i knew you would " she says, smiling as she takes her own seat in front of lucretia. she takes in the sight of her cousin, her own black hair and clear eyes so alike hers. she mimicks her pose for a second, but the use of her childhood nickname prompts her into action.
she leans forward and rests her hand atop her cousin's. " lili " she says, using her own childhood nickname for her, from a time where, as a toddler, she found it impossible to pronounce 'lulu'. " why are you here today ? do you need my help ? "
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— i’m out of dissertation HELL ! so that means i will slowly be making a comeback as everyone’s favourite mum
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𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐞𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐨 𝐢 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐦𝐨𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠, 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐢’𝐯𝐞 𝐜𝐡𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐝 𝐚 𝐟𝐞𝐰 𝐭𝐢𝐦𝐞𝐬 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐧. - indie. regulus black. based largely on original worldbuilding and alternate universes, incl. regency, comicverse (dc, marveI), spyverse, chronicIes of narnia, mythos, star wars 𝙘𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙙
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sirius — adveanture
PIECES OF HIS MIND BREAK AND SCATTER IN AZKABAN. memories are lost to him, more than the general ravages of time . . . but most of those memories are good ones. the dementors feast on the pain and the fear and the agony, yes, but in so doing they bring those nightmares to the forefront again and again and again until those are all that remain to you.
so this face — this voice, this countenance — of his mother is familiar because though he remembers feeling it little at the time, his earliest memories are some of the most painful to reflect upon. but being back here, being returned to this cursed place, makes them impossible to avoid at the same time.
“ i didn’t want to be, ” he replies, small and quiet, unable to move or look away. “ i . . . didn’t want to come back. ”
the face is frowning as if she doesn't understand what he is saying. " what do you mean ? " the man has changed, but it is her son looking at her, speaking to her — isn't it ? then why wouldn't he want to be back inside his house, his home ? " i've been waiting for you " the part of her consciousness which got attached to the painting loved him, and it remembers his love, too.
so it must be the traitors. the traitors who have kept him away, the traitors who have told him all the bad things she can hear them whisper, even with the curtains drawn. her neck twists and she faces him, her face contorted in a scream. " they lie ! it's all lies ! " she screams, before she relaxes once more, her face back to normal in the mirror. " but you're here now, and you're going to stay with me "
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sirius — adveanture
SIRIUS’S WHOLE BODY GOES COLD. his eyes widen, and his lips part. not truly in surprise — they love to come up with tailored punishments for their children, and they know what will hurt sirius the most — but in fear. “ you can’t do that, ” he gasps, his hands shaking at his side in fists. “ y-you — no! ”
he can’t be trapped here without anything to do — without anyone outside to speak with. he can’t. “ are you going to just lock me in my fucking room until i do as you say once again?! ” it would hardly be the first time. but the older he gets, the more the years pass, the harder such punishments are to bear. he can feel the emotion and terror of that beginning to choke him.
she crosses her arms satisfied knowing this is how she wins their ever constant fighting. she pushes and pushes until she hits the right spot ; she never takes a blind swing at her son because she doesn't need to. " you'll find that i very much can " she says, having gotten the reaction she expected out of him.
she knows the danger of it, too — how he'll probably turn into a wild animal once he's trapped in his cage. but he brings it upon himself, time and time again. " mind your language " she says through gritted teeth. " you leave us with no other option here. obviously you cannot be trusted with any freedom " her hand swipes across the room, designating the bottles behind picked up by kreacher. " perhaps detention is how you'll learn "
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𝐚𝐬𝐤 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐞 : 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒄𝒆𝒍𝒍𝒂𝒏𝒆𝒐𝒖𝒔 𝒒𝒖𝒐𝒕𝒆𝒔
‘ i’ll find you again , wherever we end up next . ’
‘ the enormity of my desire disgusts me . ’
‘ please , one more kiss in the kitchen before we turn the lights off . ’
‘ i’ve been lost but i’m here now . you’re the only person who has ever been able to find me . ’
‘ almost dead yesterday , maybe dead tomorrow , but alive , gloriously alive , today . ’
‘ you are not broken . ’
‘ you can love and be loved , despite what may feel like the eternally brutal nature of the world . ’
‘ i did violence to my own heart . ’
‘ will i be forgiven for the sins i did not commit , but created ? ’
‘ i would never kiss anyone who doesn’t burn me like the sun . ’
‘ i would rather break the world than lose you . ’
‘ i think you and i have known each other in a few lifetimes . ’
‘ i didn’t know . i had no idea how greedy my heart really was . ’
‘ is that why the idea of losing you torments me so much ? ’
‘ how long have i been without you ? ’
‘ am i foolish for wanting this ? it will end in flames . it always does . ’
‘ sorry about the blood in your mouth . i wish it was mine . ’
‘ if i love you , is that a fact or a weapon ? ’
‘ tell me how all this , and love too , will ruin us . ’
‘ and you realize the one person in the world who loves you isn’t the one you thought it would be . ’
‘ it cannot be a mistake to have cared . it cannot be an error to have tried . it cannot be incorrect to have loved . ’
‘ finally , i plead guilty of adoring you . ’
‘ a child weaned on poison considers harm a comfort . ’
‘ without realizing , i find it in myself that i cannot stop thinking about you . ’
‘ tomorrow , when i wake up , i promise , i will be better . ’
‘ someone has to leave first . this is a very old story . there is no other version of this story . ’
‘ when i imagine myself , i am always leaving . i couldn’t draw my own face if god asked . ’
‘ do we simply stare at what’s horrible and forgive it ? ’
‘ i wanted to let go of the pain even though it was the last thing that felt alive from you . ’
‘ have i endured loneliness with grace ? ’
‘ i’ll be your slaughterhouse , your killing floor , your morgue and final resting , walking around with this bullet inside me ‘cause i couldn’t make you love me and i am tired of pulling your teeth . ’
‘ and then my soul saw you and kind of went , ‘ oh , there you are . i’ve been looking for you . ’ ’
‘ sometimes it feels like someone else is wearing my body . ’
‘ i spent my life arguing how i mattered until it didn’t matter . ’
‘ who knew my haven would be my coffin ? ’
‘ dead is the safest i’ve ever been . ’
‘ i’ve never been so alive . ’
‘ you know what i was gonna tell you before , but didn’t have the nerve ? you got your name written all over me . i got my name written on you , too . ’
‘ you already are something . you always were . and you still have time to be . ’
‘ you know me by heart . it infuriates me that you know me by heart . ’
‘ why am i waiting for you ? hungering and thirsting for you in every cranny of my soul and even in my ribs ? ’
‘ you came with a handful of pain and a smile which broke the ground under my feet as the earthquake does when two people meet . ’
‘ the only good thing is that i’m getting used to suffering . ’
‘ the return to time was not my choice . ’
‘ we are built to live inside each other . this means we are built to ruin . ’
‘ time does not bring relief ; you all have lied . ’
‘ time does not know how to keep our hopes safe . ’
‘ you needed me so much that you had to end me . ’
‘ there are days where i am morbidly in love with you , and this is one of those days . ’
‘ i know no end to desiring you . ’
‘ i fear that i am both too much yet not enough . ’
‘ yes , yes , yes , i do like you . i am afraid to say the stronger word . ’
‘ a heart’s a heavy burden . ’
‘ life , as i see it , is all about farewells rather than reunions . ’
‘ heaven is real and you only had two minutes to prove it to me . ’
‘ it was already love . ’
‘ everyone desires love but also finds it impossible to believe that they deserve it . ’
‘ i’ll love you until i forget how to . ’
‘ i’ll love you until i forget how to and then i’ll fall like my knees aren’t already bruised from doing it and i’ll remember why you’re worth the ache . ’
‘ of course i’ll hurt you . of course you’ll hurt me . of course we’ll hurt each other . but this is the very condition of existence . ’
‘ nothing makes me sadder and nothing makes me happier than you . ’
‘ i love you and i do not want to love you , it is too much and too difficult . ’
‘ grief is just love with no place to go . ’
‘ i felt my life with both my hands to see if it was there . ’
‘ you do this , you do . you take the things you love and you tear them apart . ’
‘ i hope it’s love . i’m trying really hard to make it love . ’
‘ if you touch me again i might burn up in the cold air . ’
‘ i asked you not to leave several times . ’
‘ i’ve only adored you lifetimes ago and here we are . it’s nice to see you again . ’
‘ all time ever does is pass and all i ever do is remember . ’
‘ i feel as though we were never strangers , you and i , not even for a moment . ’
‘ i’d choose you ; in a hundred different lifetimes , in a hundred worlds , in any version of reality , i’d find you and i’d choose you . ’
‘ nothing about this is soft but we pretend . ’
‘ maybe you and i are just a dream . ’
‘ i know you loved me too , you knew me , and it gladdens my heart . ’
‘ i promise i shall never give up and that i’ll die yelling and laughing . ’
‘ i don’t do anything with my life except romanticize and decay with indecision . ’
‘ the world was made so that we could find each other in it . ’
‘ you don’t meet the people you love ,�� you recognize them . ’
‘ i think you and i have known each other a few lifetimes . ’
‘ this body knows fear like a front porch knows welcome – it is always coming home . ’
‘ i miss you more than i remember you . ’
‘ if i could have done it all again , i would have loved you better . but i could not have loved you more . ’
‘ we could have been happy . i know that , and it is perhaps the hardest thing to know . ’
‘ you want a better story . who wouldn’t ? ’
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andromeda — prioriincantatem
@mctherdearest said : ❛ you betrayed me . ❜
“I didn’t.” Andromeda’s voice is strained as she looks at her aunt. Her resolve had been so strong when she’d gotten into the argument with Druella, she’d felt a rush of satisfaction when she’d burned her own face off the family tapestry. Good, she’d thought. I don’t belong here. And she’d left.
She’d left in a rush that day, but she’s back now, when she knows that her parents and sisters aren’t home. Grimmauld Place feels less daunting now, like less of a prison and more of a ghost. She’d packed her things from her room, and when she’d turned to leave, Walburga was there. She puts her suitcase down.
“I had no choice,” she says. “I know what Bella’s been saying. It’s not true.” She knows Bellatrix’s hatred for Ted. She knows that word has gotten back to the family that Andromeda had gone to the Tonks’ house to stay there after leaving. But Ted’s her friend, nothing more. It hurts to think that her family believes she’s truly that shallow. “This doesn’t have to be the end, Aunt Walburga. I don’t want to lose you.”
she's heard of the argument as soon as it ended. weak druella ! she's let her own daughter dishonour their name by running off with a mudblood, and she couldn't even burn her from the tapestry herself ; andromeda did it. in that she recognises the free-spirited girl she loved, but who chose the wrong side.
knowing she'd left in a rush, she knew she was bound to come back sooner or later to pick up her belongings. it's all a matter of waiting ; one afternoon she hears someone rummaging through andromeda's bedroom, and she knows her niece has finally comes back. she goes to confront her, and won't be her weak-willed sister-in-law.
" which part isn't true, then ? " her lips are pinched, her stare cold as ice. " you didn't run off with a mudblood ? you didn't abandon your family and burn yourself off the tapestry ? tell me, andromeda ? " at her sides her hands open and close, tensed. " you do not want to lose me ? you little fool " she slaps her hard across the face. " you don't even belong to this family anymore. you're nothing to me, blood traitor. "
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