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as someone with bpd why is it so hard to get over past relationships, especially ones with ex fp’s. i still have dreams about my ex’s and think about them all the time and it makes me wanna die

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Happiness? I don’t know her

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*slaps brain* this bad boy can fit so much trauma in it

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man you caught me at an unusually stable time im so sorry lol i really am a crazy girl i promise ive just had my shit together for a couple weeks but seriously this is not normal for me i am so embarrassed you caught me like this haha im usually in crisis i swear

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religious trauma things

you are always being watched by an unknown entity

sinful sinful dirty worthless

everything is Your Fault

youre never allowed to question anything ever and doing so is being paranoid, apparently

Your Body Is So Gross Ew Ew Do Not Show It To Anyone Ever

*hear mention of religion* Haha Yes I Am Ok With This. Not Panicking At All haha

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Lindsay C. Gibson, Adult Children of Emotionally Immature Parents

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daily reminder that you are not your past. and when i say it, i mean that you are not the bad things you did when you were not okay if today you can see you were wrong and wouldn’t do it again. you are not what you suffered in your past. you are not equal to the person who made you suffer. you are not the negative things you remember from your past.

you are here right now. you exist. and you are amazing for doing it.

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something ever happen and you feel your brain literally short circuiting

like your brain starts contradicting “this thing is irrational but i’m so upset” and you just sit because you cannot get anything to function correctly

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not to toot me own horn but the fact that i didn’t kill myself in the 2010s? big dick energy idk how i pulled that one off

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I really just ignore phone calls. Like leave a message. I don’t check those either but like

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it must be nice to experience casual boredom instead of a sudden soul-crushing restless empty void

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Follow me or else