miawills

[miawills]

My time as a member of Sux has come to an end.

In March of 2012, I was introduced to an roleplay that had barely begun and honestly fell head over heels in love with the individual characters and the overall feel and plot of everything. After auditioning for Kiby, I was accepted into the roleplay as Madison Williams, and played her for around two to three weeks before the end of the school year took over and I left in order to focus on the real world and all of it’s responsibilities. The following July, I came back as Michelle, and later took up Gwen once she was released. I’m pretty sure some of you remember everything afterwards, so I won’t bother going through all of that.

Needless to say, the excited feelings I had for Sux those first months have now faded out. It’s nothing anyone in specifics did, but just the overall feel of what I had entered has drastically changed for me personally. I’m not going to call anyone out on anything, because while I’m normally a bluntly honest person in normality, saying things like that online would only cause unnecessary drama and I don’t want to leave other people to deal with the aftermath of it. So, instead I’m just going to come out and say that I don’t feel at home with Sux anymore. I really did have fun with the time I spent here, between ships, brotps, and occ friendships, but there’s really nothing I can do to change how I feel like now. Logging on and posting feels like a chore and responsibility rather than someone I look forward to every day. My characters have faded into irrelevancy and no matter what I do it feels like I can’t pull them out without starting major drama, and to do that would honestly fuck up everyone else’s plots and I can’t ever do that to you guys.

I have an indescribable amount of respect and love for you guys as both people and roleplayers. You have never failed to amaze me with your plots and ability to make every character as unique and amazing as possible and I’ll probably continue to be in awe of you if I ever happen to roleplay with any of you again. All of you showed me what it’s like to be a part of a large group but still feel like I know each and everyone of you personally. The good memories of Sux will always outweigh the bad when it comes down to it, without any doubt.  There are a hell of a lot of people I owe thanks to, whether it was simply talking to me and cheering me up without even knowing it or helping create my characters while forming some of the best friendships I’ve ever had, and I’ll probably end up finishing off this post with little notes to some of y’all because you’re the fucking bombdiggity and I love you.

But anyways, there are several different reasons why I’m leaving, the main one being that I simply cannot keep up with the about of activity I need in order to be apart of Sux. I’m not going to ask to go on hiatus until I can come back, because that wouldn’t be fair to anyone as I don’t want to string out plots or delay anything, and so it’s best for everyone that I leave now before it simply gets worse. I'm not too sure about what's going to happen to Mia, Elise, and Gwen, as I still have to talk to Helena about closures and everything like that. Even if it’s going to hurt to leave, it’s something I really don’t want to put off any longer.

I love you guys.

See you later, alligators.

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I would write goodbyes for Aly, Melli, Ali, and Macie, but they already know how much I love them so I’ll stick with the rest of you hooligans.

Cat: The one person who will ever get away with making puns out of my names, aside from me. I love you so fucking much it’s not even funny and you’re honestly one of my best friends. Every single one of your characters have been portrayed flawlessly and your skills are fucking awesome, okay? So don’t let anyone ever tell you otherwise. Or I’ll kick their ass(es). I’ve loved every single brotp we’ve had together since I met you and they’ll continue to be epic even after they’re no longer active because you’re just that special. Never forget how awesome you are. Ever.

Angela: You’re, like, super fucking flawless and I don’t even know what to write right now because of it. Having you as Peyton was the best thing that ever happened to Mia since I picked her up again and I couldn’t have asked for a better rp partner or a more amazing friend. Even if you killed me at least, like, twice a week because that’s what you do and I’ll always hate you a little bit for it. Hopefully we’ll get to rp with each other eventually because you’re amazing, okay. #ot4pain

Mika (Chloe): You came back and even though you’re not Gwen’s Chloe anymore I still love you and your little perfect bundles of perfection that are your characters. We started out as Vivienne and Cassie, and everything after that was honestly stunning and wonderful because we became friends. Even if our characters haven’t interacted anymore, you’ll always be one half of my freshie/frenchy bby brotp and I couldn’t imagine anyone else as a more perfect player for them than you, you lovely love. (Shut up, I’m not good with words.) I’m gonna miss you more than you know, and hopefully we won’t drift apart or anything because that would seriously suck.

Annie: Fucking majestic unicorn. I love your characters and even if we never really did get to know each other that well or interact with our characters as much as I would’ve liked to, you’re one of the only people I remember from when I was at Sux originally. Keep on being a badass motherfucker, bro. You’re awesome and Sebastian will always be the king gay of every gay character ever. (That was a terrible pun and I regret absolutely nothing)

Helena: Jassie. That’s it. That’s your note. (Lies) Okay tbh you’re the best admin of any rp I’ve ever been in because you’re awesome and honestly badass. I loved getting to rp with you when I did, even if it started World War Freshman, but all of the love I feel for Sux is all because of you. Thank you for giving me a family and a place where I could really be myself.

Gabi & Amy: You two get a joint note because you ruined me with McPerfect and you both suck so fucking much. But, for some weird as shit unknown reason, I still love you both. We didn’t interact a lot, but when we did there were rainbows and sparkles in the air and everything was perfect, even if that one time with Trevor and Elise ended with injuries and Piper and Delilah never really got anywhere. I’ve known the both of you for over a year and I can honestly say that you guys are two of the nicest people I’ve talked to at sux. So thank you for making me smile even if you didn’t know it.

Sara: The beginning of my dramatic plots at Sux started with Kira and Gwen, and even now as we were involved with Mia and Kira (Always Kira with me isn’t it?) I’ve never stopped enjoying getting to rp with you even after almost a year and a half. I’m sorry we didn’t get to finish what we started, but hopefully Kira will get a happy ending after all because everyone deserves a little happiness. (;

Mika (Blaise): Beautiful. Flawless. Angelic. I don’t even know how to describe you. I’ve always known you as Blaise and Ashlynn, so you will always be them to me regardless. That’s just how it’s going to work okay. Even after the brief brotp that was Ashlynn and Gwen, and the even shorter time as the Halls, I’m going to regret not rping with you more when I had the chance because tbh I was intimidated by you for quite a while. I’m gonna miss you so much and I hope someday we’ll be able to talk to each other again.

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[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: Sleeping schedule mishaps aren't that bad. Just gives us more time together at night when you get back.

Dave: I've never been out West. I'd really like to go with you.

Mia: You're just so optimistic aren't you. And what exactly would we do with this extra time?

Mia: Next time I go, I'll bring you. Even if it's just for a weekend. My other grandma still wants to meet you, though.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: I mean, you don't /have/ to come home early if it's really that big of a deal. Homecoming isn't /that/ important. You and I can just do something together, just the two of us.

Dave: Shit, I didn't realize you were that far away. That makes me miss you even more.

Mia: It's not a big deal, it just means an even more fucked up sleep schedule 'cause of time changes.

Mia: Yep. Olympia, Washington. Next time we come up, I'll bring you. It's nice this time of year.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: Tell them you have an important date and you must come back in time or else you'll end up breaking my heart and you care about me too much to do that.

Dave: Why not? I think it'd be kinda cool to meet your extended family...

Mia: I'll see what I can do. Even if it means having to do shit to pay them back for the early flight or whatever.

Mia: While that would be cool, I would really rather not have you drive over 2,000 miles.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text: Mamma Mia

Jill: John is leaving tomorrow and I promised him forever ago that I'd smoke with him.

Jill: so it was a sad high. he ate my fries, too.

Jill: Aw, man. I know you will.

Mia: I hope you know this means we're getting high together once I get back. I wanna know what you're like when you're all weird n shit.

Mia: I'll even promise not to touch your food.

Mia: You two are okay, right?

#text: jill

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: Do not take your time, okay?

Dave: I miss you too, babydoll.

Dave: If you aren't here soon, I'll drive to wherever you are and bring you back myself.

Mia: I promise I won't.

Mia: I'll talk to my parents in the morning and see if I can go back early.

Mia: For the love of me and my sanity, do not drive up here. Seriously.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text: Mamma Mia

Jill: I'm sorry. I'm high. I shouldn't have said that.

Jill: meh it's just homecoming. it's not prom.

Mia: Oh my god Jillian

Mia: Still gonna do it. I don't give a fuck.

#text: jill

[miawills]

Text: Mamma Mia

Jill: I do have the bigger dick. Oops, sorry Dave.

Jill: We would look hot together, wouldn't we?

Jill: oh cool. I hope you can make it. Parker, too.

Mia: That is one thing I never needed to read. Ever.

Mia: Oh, totally.

Mia: Like I said, I'm gonna try, but I make no promises. But if Parker doesn't show up I'm dragging him out of the pool by his ear.

#text: jill

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: I was gonna say make me but you really can't.

Dave: I'd rather tell you in person.

Dave: Oh... well shit. Hopefully you come back sooner rather than later.

Mia: I'll be back as soon as I can, okay?

Mia: I miss you. So fucking much.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text: Mamma Mia

Jill: are you going to be home for the dance? Do I need to find you a dress?

Jill: Dave wants us to go to dinner before if you and Parker are going.

Jill: and me to third wheel if he doesn't but I'm not a crotchblocker.

Jill: I'd ride solo like Jassssson Deruuuuulo.

Mia: I'm going to try to, yes.

Mia: Advance warning that I'm making no promises but I will try super fucking hard to somehow get back in time.

Mia: Who says you aren't my date and Dave's the third wheel?

Mia: I personally think we'd look hot together.

Mia: And don't worry about a dress, I'll get one here.

#text: jill

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: Remind me to hide all the lighters and matches whenever you're around.

Dave: Mhm... sure.

Dave: I'm sure there's tons of other embarrassing things you'll found out about me sooner or later.

Dave: I was just about to go into detail and now I feel awkward as fuck. Oh my god. Is it normal to think of you that way? Of course it's normal, you're my girlfriend. It'd be weird if I didn't think of you that way.

Dave: You're cute when you blush though. When do you think you'll be back?

Mia: Pft. Like that'd stop me.

Mia: Shut up.

Mia: Oh, I can only hope. You already know enough embarrassing things about me.

Mia: Feel free to continue with the details, but just keep in mind that I'm never going to take my name seriously ever again.

Mia: No I'm really not. Uh, sometime between Thursday and next Sunday, depending on how long she needs us here.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: Well, if setting things on fire helps whoever was dumped, then go for it.

Dave: It'd only work if it was something I was ashamed of, darling.

Dave: But I like Amelia... it's kinda hot... it makes me think of pretty wild shit.

Dave: Oh god, forget that last part.

Dave: Good, definitely good. I'd rather do this in person. So which family member's house are you at? Is it your grandma again, the one that... oh did she poke fun at you for blushing while texting me? Is it her or another family member's home?

Mia: It doesn't, I'm just a secret pyromaniac.

Mia: That was a joke, by the way.

Mia: Goddammit you couldn't let me just have that, could you?

Mia: The next time someone calls me Amelia it's gonna end up being awkward as fuck and it's all your fault.

Mia: Oh okay. Good. I can work with good things. But you might have to wait on doing anything in person for a little bit, though. And my grandma's. Different one, though. But she's totally laughing at me right now for blushing, so fuck you very much.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Dave: omg I thought you were breaking up with me when I first started reading this. But idek, like with Luke, I bought him food and stuff. When it's me, I just want to be alone. But I typically throw things around my room or cry.

Dave: Yes, I am a man and I do cry.

Dave: I miss you to, Amelia. I'm doin' okay, just wondering when you'll be back since I have very important things to discuss with you. How have you been?

Mia: That would've been a pretty weird and fucked up way to break up with you. But damn, okay. I was hoping you'd say that the best way to get over something is to set something on fire, ie I'm not good with feelings. So I'll stick with food and beer for now. And thanks.

Mia: Forever using that as blackmail purposes.

Mia: Nope. No Amelia. Absolutely not. I have been called Amelia all weekend and I swear to god I'll start calling you David and won't stop. Ever. There will be no more Dave.

Mia: Good very important things, or bad important things? I've been bored as shit, if that counts as an acceptable answer. But other than that, eh. Life's good right now.

#text: dave

[miawills]

Text → Merrick

Mia: What are girls supposed to do when a guy gets his heart broken? As far as comfort wise. Because my brother is now crying and I have no idea what the fuck to do that doesn't involve violence. Or stupid shit.

Mia: Also hi hello I miss you how are you

#text: dave #here have this

[miawills]

If I end up dealing with two hungover assholes when they get home, I'm going wake them up at six am and kick em in the nuts

#ooc

[miawills]

Text → Dawson

Jill: Amelia

Jill: Cameron

Jill: Thompson

Jill: Williams

Jill: am I wrong?

Mia: How the

Mia: What the fuck

#text: jill

[miawills]

Text → Dawson

Jill: they'll be too warm

Jill: I totally do.

Mia: Too bad. Take it like a man.

Mia: You do not.

#text: jill