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amarillo, texas.

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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fuuuck my stupid gay tail all the ideal dogs point at laugh at my dumb faggy tail

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so many hozier fans are like the opposite of swifties. instead of finding a drowning hazard in their cup from the water cooler they're looking at a warning for naval mines and thinking the ocean looks so romantic here

#joyousposting

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sorry guys empire now isn’t about a relationship it’s about irish reunification. yeah sorry you had to find out like this but he and gerry adams appeared at the foot of my bed last night and told me. they both had tiocfaidh ár lá t-shirts on and showed me their matching i-heart-michael-collins tramp stamps ☹️yeah kneecap were on the drums in the background and mary lou’s feature got cut in editing. sorry to have to break it to you

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People kinda portray charlevin like the bumps in their relationship go away after tmua and I Know that's not true. look into your hearts. theyre sweet and genuinely love each other and they argue allll the time

#and only parts of it are bumps i think theyre both guys who argue about things for enrichment #debate club except its over what lamp to buy and with your husband #joyousposting

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this like a renaissance painting to me

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My one friend group can't stop saying, "See you in hell!" in a cheerful voice instead of, "Talk to you later!" and my other friend group can't stop calling things "penis" instead of "cool" or "good", so I just unironically uttered the phrase, "Sounds penis, see you in hell," as I got off the phone.

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The Lovers of Valdaro/ Dinosaurs, Laura Gilpin/ Broomistega and Thrinaxodon

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I might start watching dungeon meshi for the sole motivation of monster girl boobs

#joyousposting

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#dungeon meshi

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refreshed youtube before i could get a screenshot of the suggested filter things on the top of the home page being "Welcome to Night Vale" "Bird feeder" and "Stardew Valley" all next to each other

#I should start a new sdv game but i wanna play it differently than how i did the first time particularly marry someone else #and the problem with that is that I would have to not become Harvey delirious the moment i see him #joyousposting

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