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Just once, it’s be nice to be someone’s first choice

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Why is it that when I need people the most, my instinct is to pull away and isolate myself?

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What if some people are just destined to be sad and alone

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Don’t rely on anyone, they only let you down. If you only trust yourself then no one gets to hurt you

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I can’t do this anymore. I’m done.

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I wish someone would just kill me already so I don’t have to do it myself

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I need a counsellor or a bullet to the head, either will do the trick

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I have no idea how to get past this. I’m dead inside and I just want it all to stop

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Just let me fucking die already

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wait people really are just walking around and waking up with no pain in the morning??? huh???? wdym you have days with no pain i dont even have minutes

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this blog may contain sensitive content (its me im sensitive)

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I will need at least three weeks to prepare, then cancel last minute anyway because I don’t want to

does anyone else require an advance notice of at least three (3) working days to physically and mentally prepare for any and all forms of social activity or is it just me

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I want to start this out by saying I fully support pride month and am in full support if the LGBTQ+ community. Please understand that.

But every time I think about pride month and the community that is said to be ‘accepting of all’ and ‘welcoming’ I’m reminded about the time I first started to even tentatively enter it as someone who is questioning my asexuality.

When I first heard what asexual meant I felt like it described me, but it took a long time before I started to feel comfortable with the idea that I may not follow the ‘norm’. But after a long time of battling inside myself to decide whether I wanted to tell anyone about the way I felt, I decided what could the harm be in saying it anonymously online? No one could make fun of me for it or even know it was me?

So I did. I saw a post online that actually made me feel like I would be accepted by the LGBTQ+ community and I reblogged saying how I felt. It took mere minutes for me to have dozens of replies telling me how I wasn’t welcome, or that asexuality wasn’t a real part of lgbt. I replied saying how upsetting this was and was told I wasn’t included and to ‘not let the door hit me on the way out’.

Since this I have been truly hurt by the community that is always shown to be accepting of everyone, and kind to others. My first and only experience so far with the community as someone trying to embrace this part of me has been truly awful and has left me feeling truly upset every time I think about it.

I honestly don’t know what I’m trying to achieve by this post, but I felt I wanted to share it. I feel like the only one who has been fully rejected by a wonderful community and it makes me wonder how I can expect to be accepted as my true self if people behave like this.

I truly feel heartbroken whenever I think about this.

#asexual #lgbtq+ #rejection #I feel like I’m alone

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Feeling so tired, depressed, and lonely. Life sure does suck for me

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Can you draw a tiny lizard dragon that secretly hoards pennies?

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Hi, my doctor diagnosed me with fibromyalgia and I was wondering if you have any tips or advice for finding a support group, things that help with pain and extreme fatigue, or just resources in general? I really don't know where to start to be honest.

Hi, friend! Welcome to the party, lol. Lemme see if I can find you some helpful advice.

Book Recs (I found all of these at my local library. If your library doesn't have them, you can always request that they get a copy! Or you can buy them yourself if you're able.):

The Mayo Clinic Guide to Fibromyalgia

The Fibro Manual by Ginevra Liptan

Surviving and Thriving with an Invisible Chronic Illness by Ilana Jacqueline

How To Be Sick by Toni Bernhard

Stuff that Helps:

Heating pad - sometimes the only thing that saves me from hours of literal agony

Shower chair - just got one myself and it has changed my life

a really good pillow - seems silly, maybe? But I got a super nice side-sleeper pillow that's made of some sort of memory foam that cradles my head just right and it has made a world of difference, especially on days when I'm bed-bound. Best $90 I ever spent.

Gentle (very, very gentle) yoga to stretch out tight muscles and limber up stiff joints. There are some fibro-specific practices on youtube and the ones I've tried have been quite nice. Also just gentle stretches in general can help.

Sit. Everywhere. Making dinner? Get a stool. Chatting with someone? Find a chair. Sit on the floor if you have to. Heck, lie on the floor if you have to. Does it look silly? Probably. But I am so far past giving a shit and frankly once you are it makes your life a lot easier.

Find 2-3 easy meals that you can make even on bad days, and keep the supplies for them on hand always. Also, separating leftovers into single serving sizes and storing them in microwaveable containers makes feeding yourself easier.

If you think a mobility aid would improve your quality of life, get a mobility aid and try not to worry about what anyone else thinks. If it helps you, then it helps you. There is no "you have to be this sick to deserve help" threshold.

Not all sleep advice works for everyone. Take what you need and leave what you don't.

Hopefully some of this helps you? Tbh, I'm still figuring it out myself. But we can figure it out together!

Speaking of which, I'm not sure what to tell you regarding support groups, because that's an avenue I've never pursued, myself. Tumblr is sort of my support group! I'm sure there are plenty out there, either online or in person, and I'd say the main thing is finding people that you mesh well with, who have similar health goals and communicate in a way that's helpful to you. If you feel good around them, and that you're all building each other up, then you're golden! And if not, you can always try again.

(But also, dear followers, if any of you have additional advice or know of an online support group that might be my new friend's jam, please chime in!)