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"I just thought, 'I really want to go and lounge around on some sofas and do absolutely nothing and drop some funny lines.'" ROSAMUND PIKE on playing ELSPETH CATTON in SALTBURN (2023)
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the category is: upper-middle class gremlins obsessed with status and power who end up with the inheritance of the wealthy family they’re obsessed with because no one perceived them as a threat (unlike the families in question they know how to work)
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All You Got | Part 13
Part 13: Strangers
Plot: Daryl Dixon hadn’t known much beyond anger and loneliness his whole life, until he found family at the end of the world. Everything he grew to care about was ripped away the day the prison fell; so when he recognized you, an enforcer of his loss, hiding in that cabin, he almost pulled the trigger. But after you end up saving his life, he couldn’t find the indifference to leave you for dead, even if you’d been on the Governor’s side. (Mid-Late Season 4)
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Paring: Eventual Daryl Dixon x Reader Word Count: 3.8k Warnings: typical twd content. claimers: a warning in of itself. references to attempted sexual assault. lots of gore and blood. A/N: hi again! excited to be posting this part :) its been a long time coming... happy reading!
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A low fire flickered just past the trees. Maybe fifty feet away. 
“You think it's those men?” 
“Could be.” Daryl shook his head. “Could be anyone.” 
Despite walking all day and most of the night, you hadn’t been able to escape the threat of people. Even if that fire on the road hadn't been set by those men— and from the lack of cruel laughing and bruising punches, you figured it wasn't— it still meant people. Strangers. Bodies of unknown, with all the potential to be as twisted and cunning as the Governor, or as kind and loyal as Daryl. 
The small fire crackled. 
“What do we do?” 
“Can’t take a good look without riskin’ them seein’ us.” 
You bit your lip. Maybe you shouldn't have stopped moving, after all. 
There was a bush ahead. The branches looked loose enough that you could peak an eye through and take a better look at the strange fire and the stranger people. In a bush that small, it would be a tight fit, but you could do it. 
Your eyes flickered back to Daryl and those broad shoulders. He definitely couldn’t. 
So without another thought, and maybe not much choice, you crouched down. “Wait here.” 
You'd managed to move about a foot when his hand inevitably caught your wrist, and his rough voice hissed your name in warning. 
“Just trust me,” you mumbled, almost as quiet as the soft cricketing of the night air. It all seemed to drown out at the sight of that sharp caution in his eyes; blue darkened by the night and the weight of the world that rested on his shoulders. You blinked, and then your free hand was wrapped around his, the pad of your thumb brushing along his rough skin. “I don’t want them to find us, either.” 
The tension melted away like slow dripping wax; the look in his eye softened, his grip relaxed. 
You could guess that weight on his shoulders hadn’t quite lifted, not when those people were still so close and so unknown. But once his hand loosened enough for you to pull back, there was a patch of cold along your wrist where he'd held you tight. Where you'd felt the heat of adrenaline coursing through his veins, warming his skin. Daryl tried to swallow his concern as you finally slipped away and into the bush. 
You kept your head as low as possible. Crouched down and moving slow, like a wolf sneaking on its prey, though you weren't feeling quite predator-like. Not when you still had that swinging ball of anxiety slamming back and forth between your heart, lungs, and ribs. You thought of the gun at your hip. Four bullets left— no, three. You'd used one yesterday. Shit. 
The branches were thin and dry. If you pushed them too far, they'd snap in half. Some leaves rustled off the bush as you snuck your way inside. You kept your hands close, only drawing down that last branch an inch so you could peek past. The flames of the fire were the brightest thing around, even if you could tell it’d been made in a way to keep it as small and unsuspecting as possible. But smoke still drifted away in long strands, floating through the night, invading the forest air. The fire cracked, now and then, as a shadowy figure sat beside it. His head was hanging down, a lock of curly brown hair falling across his forehead as he chewed at something in his hands. A bone, maybe. 
Boots clicked along the pavement as a woman approached from the beaten-up blue truck to the right. She walked toward the fire with a languid stride. You could only see her silhouette backdropped across a glow of orange light. Her hair fell down her back in thick, black strands and something long and thin stick crossed over her back. 
You waited a moment or two, but the pair of them never gave a glimpse of their faces, and no one else seemed to be around. Still, the two strangers on the road didn’t seem to be a part of that group you came across earlier; you doubted that men like those would let a woman tag along. 
Finally free from the dying bush, you snuck back to Daryl. 
“There’s a woman,” you whispered when you got close enough. “It's not them.” 
“Just her?” 
"No, there was a man, too." You shook your head. "Maybe more in the truck." 
"You get a good look at 'em? They got guns?" 
"I couldn't see their faces. The man had a gun, and she had something on her back. It could have been a—" 
There was a laugh, then. 
A familiar one. 
Then another, and another, and they all overlapped until you could almost see that blue truck again, trunk open and all your supplies thrown around. Fear slammed back into your chest. You could’ve sworn you were back at that tree, pressed between Daryl and the rough bark, skin smoking with that fiery panic that caught right where your heart was supposed to be. 
“We gotta go.” Daryl's voice cut through the yells and fear like a dull blade. His tone was hard. Almost as stern as you remembered it from all those weeks ago. 
You nodded slowly. Smoke tinged the air you inhaled and your thoughts wandered back to those people. That woman... Unsuspecting. 
Daryl grabbed your wrist and brought you to a stand. But the forest floor had turned into quicksand, and you couldn't move yet.
“Those people on the road—” 
His jaw locked. 
“’S too late for ‘em.” His narrowed eyes flashed toward the road. That usual shade of blue was now dark and threatening as the laughter only grew louder. 
They were already there. 
He tried to move forward, to drag you out of that quicksand pit of empathy that might finally suffocate you, after all, but you didn't budge. You couldn't. 
“You heard what they’ll do to ya,” Daryl growled as if you needed a better reason to go with him. 
Instead you twisted out of his grasp. “They’ll do the same thing to them.” 
Of course, he knew that. There was a string wrapped around his pounding heart, pulling tighter and tighter because those people on the road didn’t deserve what was coming for them. No one did. But then there was you. With those big eyes, wide and glistening with fear even beyond that stubborn glow, and he hated it. Hated that he could recognize it so easily. He never wanted to see your features twisted in pain again. If those men got you— if a walker got you— if anything happened… 
"We— we have to help," you rasped out, even if instinctive fear seemed to be winning over your empathy as the seconds ticked by. Perhaps you could hear what he was thinking. The possibilities that ran through his mind and made his jaw lock he thought he might break a tooth. "We can try." 
His grip was back at your wrist, but this time it felt deeper. As if his fingers were melting into your skin, the thump of his heartbeat drowning into your own. 
“It ain’t worth losin’ you.” 
It was silent. Tension rising into the air like the strands of smoke lifting off that small, almost forgotten fire. It started as a soft wisp of burning wood, until your brain seemed to process what he'd said. Those words surrounded you, filling your lungs with that bittersweet burn, deeper and deeper with every slow, conscious breath you pulled in. 
You swallowed. It seemed to soothe the tension, an inch. 
Now wasn’t the time.
You opened your mouth to spill another retort because you’d changed these last few months, had become the type of person who would stand up for what they thought, scared or not. But before you could say a word, another ripped through the air. A guttural yell. 
“Carl!”  
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After months of your blood-stained hands digging their way through Daryl’s tough-as-steel exterior, praying for a moment to prove yourself worthwhile of all the chances he'd given you, it was here. They were here. His people. 
Carl was in the grimy hands of one of those men with the bellowing laughs. Joe— the leader— had his gun to the back of Rick’s head. The woman you’d seen on the road, you didn’t remember her name, but you knew there was a gun on her too. There had to be. 
And Daryl went to them, leaving you in the bushes with his last words still ringing in your ears.
“Listen to me. If shit goes south… I don’t give a fuck what happens to me, you run, y’hear?” 
“Daryl—” 
“You run.” 
Your hands shook like those dead leaves on the bush, heart pounding so loud you could barely hear the click of your gun’s magazine releasing. You counted the bullets, even if you already knew how many were there. 
You hadn’t even realized you grabbed his hand. Not until his eyes flickered between it and you. 
You whispered... maybe whimpered, “I can’t just—” 
Two in the magazine. One in the chamber. Three bullets for five men— that you knew of. 
The skinny one was missing. Len. Maybe he’d finally been beaten to hell, himself. Maybe they'd left him behind. 
“I can’t do this knowin’ that those assholes might find ya.” 
Your eyes shimmered with a concern he was still getting used to receiving. He blinked, then squeezed your hand back. 
“You run,” he repeated. 
Daryl moved through the shadows of the forest like he’d been doing it his whole life— and God did it feel like that, the stretch of time filled with more yelling and pleading and laughing while he moved closer to the spot where the forest broke open. 
What the hell he was planning on doing when he got to the road’s edge, you had no idea. The mere thought made your heart squeeze tighter than Daryl had your hand. 
A shadow moved behind him. 
You gasped. Raised your gun as if it wouldn’t be the stupidest thing in the world to fire it at only a glimpse of a figure. A waste of bullets on shadows. What was likely nothing more than a lone walker, wandering with nothing but the road’s sounds to lead its path. And with all those cruel men so close, they'd come running at the shot’s echo. But just as you were about to rush out, knife in hand with nothing more than a hope that you could make it on time, the shadow raised a bow of its own. 
Not a walker. 
Your fingers fell off his. 
The softest of whispers, “Just come back.” 
Sometime between sneaking up on Daryl and when they finally broke from the tree line, Len had taken the crossbow from him, slinging his compound bow across his back. The crossbow was easier to aim at Daryl’s head while they walked onto the road.
“Found another one’a them!” 
Quiet. For a moment. 
Daryl and Rick's eyes met for the first time in months. They both had weapons aimed to the back of their heads. 
From that angle, you couldn't see Daryl's face. Only the shift in his shoulders, dropping barely an inch as he stilled. A slight wobble in his stance. Across the road, recognition sunk into Rick’s features, but they never quite found the relief you hoped to see when this day came. Of course, you had always imagined it under vastly different circumstances. Finding them on the road. Maybe at Terminus. Not in the dark of night, surrounded by men who wanted to kill— and worse. 
“Fool thought he could sneak up on us,” Len chuckled. 
He only let Daryl pause for a second before he grew bored and kicked at the back of his leg, and Daryl crumbled like a straw-man released from its post. His knees scratched along the cold concrete, palms flat for the second it took for him to regain his senses. To get that breath back in his lungs after the gut-punching sight of his friend's faces, the ones he dreamt about night after night. 
“Hey!” The one with a gun on the woman— what was her name again?— yelled, “Those arrows look familiar to you?” 
Len looked down to see the same green shoots on the crossbow’s bolts as his own compound's— the ones he'd stolen from the car earlier that day.
“Holy shit,” Len exhaled. “That was your car, wasn’t it?” 
Joe laughed, a hearty, full-lung chuckle, “Shit! And here I was thinking of turning in for the night on New Year's fuckin’ Eve!” 
“Settle a bet for us, why don’t ya? You were traveling with a woman, right?” 
Even with all the trees between you, you could see Daryl’s jaw clench. It only spurred Len on further. 
“Mhm. I bet that bitch is out there, too. Hiding in the bushes, like a little rabbit?” He knelt as if to take a closer look at Daryl’s quickly retreating composure. The vein popping in his forehead, the red tint to his cheeks. “I love me some rabbit. ‘M real good at huntin’ ‘em down.” 
Daryl’s heart was pounding hard, face flush with the anger racing through his veins like bad moonshine, turning him blind to the reasonable course of action. Keep his head down, wait for his chance... But how the hell could he do that when the road was burning hot underneath his palms? When he could see red— the red of your blood— pooling below? 
Then Len leant in even closer, and then all he could think about was rot; the smell reeking from the yellow of his teeth when he grinned, the black tar that soaked his soul. The way he wished he could see the dead rip into the bastard. 
“Think I can make ‘er squeal?” 
Daryl jumped up. He landed a punch right on Len’s nose. There was nothing quite like the smooth relief that pumped through his veins when he felt bone crack underneath. 
Len fell back. Blood coated his mouth and chin, shining in the moonlight like a damn spotlight, begging for another hit. But for all that asshole’s undeserved cockiness, he still had the numbers to back him up; another one grabbed the back of Daryl’s vest, pulled him away from a stumbling Len, and threw a bruising punch of his own. Before you could even aim your gun, Daryl was back on the ground and kicked in the gut as a third man joined in. 
“Kill ‘im! Fuckin’ idiot.” Len snarled, throwing a punch after he was done cradling his face. Daryl was dragged by the men and tossed on top of the car's hood like a doll. Fists slammed into his sides, his back, his face. Any punch he threw back was quickly met with two more. 
“Listen, it was me, it was just me,” Rick yelled out, his voice a rumble of pleading and hopelessness. He shook his head, his son pressed against that big man with the sickening grin on one side, and Daryl taking fist after fist to the jaw, eye, stomach, and shoulder on the other.  
“Oh, don’t worry. We can settle this, we’re reasonable men.” 
Your finger twitched along the trigger. From the depths of your memory, a word echoed. 
Liar. 
Joe continued, “First, we’re gonna beat your friend to death. Then, we’ll have the girl, then the boy. Then I’m gonna shoot you and we’ll be square!” 
The gun felt lighter. Those three bullets suddenly etched with the names of these men— Joe, Len, that fucker with the knife on Carl. 
“Let him go,” Rick shuttered out. The rumbling anger in him began to leak like a dam about to burst. Somehow, those three words huffed into the night air, even with a gun at the back of his neck, still managed to sound like a threat. 
And they were. 
You flinched when Rick threw his head back to collide with Joe’s face. The first shot rang out as he stumbled, clutching his face with one hand and letting his smoking gun fall with the other. Time slowed, but Rick was even slower, blinking and shaking his head as the ringing must've trapped in his ear. A bloody Len looked over with Daryl's bow in hand once again as Joe coughed, blood leaking down his face, too. In the time it took for him to stand straight again, Rick had managed to get up and punch him. 
Joe punched back harder. 
Rick fell to the ground like a bag of bricks. 
“I got him. Go find your rabbit, Len.” A groan left both of them as Joe forcefully kicked his boot into Rick's gut. “Oh, it’s gonna be so much worse now.” 
There was no doubt about it. Joe’s words echoed into the dark night, muddled with the sounds of whimpers, groans, skin rubbing against concrete. This was headed as far south as it could, tunneling straight to hell from the sounds of it, and a heavy shadow wrapped its slimy, inescapable arms around you. 
“Come on, already. Get up. Let's see what ya got," Joe taunted as he circled Rick, who couldn't seem to find his balance. 
With the back of his hand, Len wiped his bloody chin before he turned toward the forest line. A look in his eye even darker and slimier than that shadow. 
If you had thought about it first, you would have stayed still. But staggering backward felt more like instinct than thought, something you hadn’t realized you were doing until a branch snapped under your foot. 
A tense second hung in the air between you and this man, wondering if he could pinpoint the small crack amongst all the muffled cries and painful groans. 
He smiled a sickening grin. 
A chill down your back as your breath caught in your throat. His eyes narrowed in on the section of woods Daryl left you in, eyeing between the branches like you really were a little rabbit, and he was fucking starving. 
Run. He’d told you to run and here you were, frozen with uncertainty. Where would you run? How could you live with yourself, leaving them for dead? What if you shot and missed, three times? What if—
"You leave him be!" Rick yelled when Carl cried out. 
Finally, Joe caught Rick. He laughed, "The hell are you gonna do now, sport?" 
A new scream. Not from Carl or Rick. But before you could tell from whom, it had morphed into gurgling and choking, instead. 
Then Rick spat. 
Len turned around, and without those predator eyes on you anymore, you saw it. The way Joe's body turned limp, his hand grasping Rick's collar the last thing to give out before he fell to the ground. A mess of blood spurted out of his neck until the red skulls on his shirt melted into the red that poured down his body. 
From his mouth to his chest, Rick was covered in the same colour. 
It took a moment for everyone to realize what had happened. That Rick had bit Joe’s throat out like a fucking walker. An air of shocked silence lingered until a few gasps made their way around the road. By the time Len began to raise Daryl's crossbow in Rick's direction, a choice had been made, and you stepped from behind the bush. 
Gun raised.
Len's head snapped forward with the impact of the bullet. He crumbled to the ground faster than Joe, crossbow buried underneath his limp limbs. The woman used the second air of shock to grab the gun pointed at her head, twisted it to the man holding it, and fired. He fell, too. 
You stepped out of the tree line. Smoking gun and narrowed eyes exposed under the moonlight. Their eyes snapped to you, unsure only for a second before you shot the men at Daryl's side. One in the head, the other in the throat. He fell back, grabbing at his leaking neck until Daryl threw him down and stomped on his windpipe to finish the job. 
One man was left. He'd put a knife to Carl's throat amid everything, grabbed the boy to his chest and promised he'd kill him if you did anything. The woman had already aimed her gun at him, and you knew yours was empty by now, but neither stopped you from aiming yours, too. 
"Put them down!" He yelled, eyes snapping between the pair of you. The knife inched closer to Carl's neck. "I'll do it!" 
Rick stood up. Joe's knife was in his hand as he stalked toward the man and his son with nothing more than a growl. 
"He's mine." 
The man's eyes widened. "S— Stay back! Please—" 
Rick drove the knife into his chest. Once. Twice. Then dragged it up and down and you should have looked away. He was snarling like a wild animal, staring that man— that monster— right in the eye. Unleashing every drop of that boiling rage inside of him. You knew it was because of what he tried to do to his son, but something in you almost felt as sharp as that knife, stabbing over and over. And maybe that was why you couldn't look away, because the hot gun in your hand suddenly felt so light. 
Empty. 
Maybe you should have saved a bullet in case Rick tried to gut you next, for what you had done to his son, to his family. 
Just as those dark thoughts wrapped around your mind, familiar fingers did the same at your wrist. You blinked, finally tearing your eyes off of all the blood and guts only to notice that you hadn’t dropped your gun, that you were now aiming it at Rick’s head. He’d given up on his assault, dropping the mess of that dead monster to the ground with nothing more than a heavy thump. Now he was facing you, eyes narrowed and unreadable under the moonlight as Daryl's hand lowered your gun. 
The second you turned to him, you let it fall to the ground, lost in the red splattered across his face, the cut above his eyebrow, the puffiness of his right eye. 
Red, red, red. 
Something squeezed your hand. His fingers were still wrapped around you. 
You blinked, and the red cleared a bit. Enough that even in the dark of night, you could still see the shimmering blue of care, of concern, of Daryl. 
Daryl. 
Bruised but alive. Touching your skin. Drawing you back with every thump of your heartbeat.
And just like the gun, you let go of the fear, too.
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normanplusdaryl · 7 months
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What abt “No rush part 2”? Asking for a friend.
This is definitely not Ari btw.
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ur friend needs god 🙏
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All You Got | Part 12
Part 12: What's Left
Plot: Daryl Dixon hadn’t known much beyond anger and loneliness his whole life, until he found family at the end of the world. Everything he grew to care about was ripped away the day the prison fell; so when he recognized you, an enforcer of his loss, hiding in that cabin, he almost pulled the trigger. But after you end up saving his life, he couldn’t find the indifference to leave you for dead, even if you’d been on the Governor’s side. (Mid-Late Season 4)
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Paring: Eventual Daryl Dixon x Reader Word Count: 3.5k Warnings: typical twd content. references to sexual assault, nothing ridiculously explicit in my opinion but just a heads up. A/N: me? on time for a posting? impossible... enjoy ;)
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Daryl insisted on traveling through the tree line rather than the road. That bandage had unsettled him— who knew who left it? The last time you’d seen people, it’d meant a week of bed rest, a bullet through the shoulder, and that broken look in your eye. 
He wasn’t eager to repeat any of it. 
But then there was you. You who couldn’t seem to stop chirping about how it could be good to find this new group— even if neither of you had any idea who the hell they were. How the gas you found would prove useful after all— even if the road was still long and dangerous. Hope seemed to infect you, filling every breath you took with an air of naivety that only made the hairs on the back of his neck raise— even if you had that pretty smile to tempt him, otherwise. 
“It might not even be there anymore.” 
He didn’t mean to be an asshole. Sometimes it just snuck up on him like an old habit. Thankfully, you mostly seemed to understand that, nowadays. 
Mostly. 
You rolled your eyes, voice a hitch higher. 
“They were broadcasting just a couple of months ago and they have signs all over the state,” you snapped. “It might be gone but it could very well still be standing, and if it is, then that’s what we need.” 
Put in his place, he shut his mouth for a moment. 
Those signs. Something about them was bugging him. It was like putting out a damn welcome mat for any Governor-type asshole this world still had slithering around. If Terminus was still around after all, and they let you both in, he’d be the first to rip them down. 
“Jus’ don’t wanna see ya broken up if it doesn’t work out.” 
His tone was softer. Concerned. 
You sighed and turned his way. 
“I know, and you’re right. It’s just… it’s nice to have a lead, again. It’s been hard not having somewhere to go, you know? Just wandering around, without an end.” 
Daryl nodded. “Guess it’s fittin’ then.” 
“How so?” 
“That’s what it means: Terminus. Endpoint.” 
“Well that sounds ominous,” you laughed. “I guess it could have a good meaning though. The end of running, hiding. All of that.” 
Daryl gave a half-hearted smile. His lips slightly curled with the only twinge of hope he had left in his chest. 
“Maybe.” 
The car couldn’t have been much further by that point. The road was littered with familiar cracks, from the glimpses of it you could see past the thicket of trees. Maybe it was time to put some concrete under your feet instead of cold earth. 
But just as you were about to say just as much to Daryl, the quiet air broke. 
“Bullshit!” 
The yell pierced the thin veil of safety that silence had wrapped around you. Daryl’s head snapped up first, hunter’s instincts and all that, but you were merely a fraction of a second behind. Within the next second, he had yanked you back behind a tree, palm pressed flat against your sternum as your back slammed against the rough bark. You bit your lip, trapping the gasp of pain as he glared around the side. He was close enough that you could watch the flick of his wide eyes, bouncing left then right then left again as he watched the road, waiting for the moment the group of men would notice that rustle in the bushes and head your way. As those blue slits of anticipation calculated your odds, you could practically hear the swear he only dared to mouth. Maybe he could hear the sound of your heart pounding against your ribs— he could definitely feel it. 
He was close— so were they— how many bullets did you have left? 
A squeeze of your shirt brought you back, snapping your eyes into focus as Daryl spoke to you through nothing but a look. Stay silent. You silently nodded as your hand wrapped around the cool handle of your gun at your hip. 
“The hell you idiots hollering about?” 
“Len’s a goddamn liar, tha’s what!” 
“I told ya, it's already claimed.” 
“Bullshit,” the man growled this time, voice so thick you could practically hear the way he clenched his teeth. “You didn’t claim nothin’!” 
You gingerly wrapped your fingers around his wrist, pulling his hand from your chest. He let it fall off silently, sparing you a glance as you checked your gun’s clip, then peeked around the bend of the trunk, too. Daryl held his crossbow only an inch from his eye, ready to fire around the tree’s cover at any second. The bush separating you from them— whoever the hell they were— was thin enough that if the men looked your way, and the light was right, they might’ve seen you. But as it was, the pair of you were as silent as you were still, and there was nothing to draw their attention your way.
You could see the men move around the car like a pack of vultures. The two arguing rounded the front with both their chests puffed out. The way they were going, it seemed as if they might solve themselves before they became a real problem. 
The one who was a proclaimed liar— Len— was tall, with outgrown brown hair and a thick beard that made his already long face look even thinner. That stained hoodie, half-zipped, hung off him. He was cockier than he deserved to be; the other man looked considerably more threatening, even if he stood a few inches shorter under his blue beanie. 
Appearances could be deceiving, though, and they proved to be when the shorter man finally snapped his fist forward and Len dodged it easily. He was thin but fast, and knew how to throw a punch as well as he could dodge one. It didn’t take long for the other man to end up on the ground, his stomach kicked twice while the others stood by idly. As if nothing was happening. Their indifference to violence was not necessarily shocking— but weren’t they supposed to be a group? They were traveling together, scouting together, but they didn’t care much about one another. 
No. These men weren’t family. They were just a group of survivors, cruel and scarred alike. Certainly not the type of men you wanted to find on the side of the road. 
But the car… 
“Should we wait them out?” You whispered. 
Daryl’s eyes never moved off them, and his jaw was clenched. Tighter than you ever remembered it before. 
“Dunno yet.” 
“Joe!”
The grey-haired one stepped forward. He had on a black button-down with red skulls embroidered and a commanding way about his voice when he finally yelled, 
“Will you two idiots stop already?”
The men listened. The beating stopped and Len laughed at the crumpled mess of a man on the concrete, even as the blood leaked out of him. He only managed to catch his footing with help from the car’s trunk. 
“Well, I’ll be damned,” Joe chuckled from in front of the wide-open trunk. 
“Wha’ is it?” Len asked, barely sparing the man he’d just beaten a glance before he was strolling to the others. 
“Found something else to fight over.” 
He threw a brightly coloured box to Len and your heart skipped a beat. 
Tampons. 
“This car belongs to a woman.” 
A sickening grin broke across his face. 
All their faces. 
The yellow of their teeth— the ones still left— was almost visible from here, and you didn’t need to look anymore to know that their eyes had all darkened. These men stank of cruelty and seemed to take joy in handing it out to each other. You didn’t expect they would spare a random woman of that, either. The chorus of sickening words that followed proved such: promises of first turns and declarations of the ‘lonely’ months since they last found someone to attack. 
The fear bundled in your chest. Tightening its little knot around your stomach, your lungs, reaching higher and higher until every muscle in your body felt acutely taut. A stinging mix of bile and a breath you couldn’t seem to catch burnt a hole right in the middle of your throat. 
Your finger twitched along the trigger. 
They couldn’t find you— you couldn’t let them get you. 
You didn’t realize when you’d looked toward Daryl, but a part of you knew it was only a matter of time. Whenever dread took root inside of you and seemed to burn your hope away from the inside out, he was there to calm the fire with those icy blue eyes. They were narrow now. Fierce and terrifying at first glance, but he held onto your stare firmly. And for once, you could read his mind as he so casually did yours. 
They won’t get you. 
You took a breath. It was admittedly raspy, a hitch too loud for your liking, so you made a point to be smoother the next time. 
“Think it's the same one?” 
“I hope so. Hope she got that piece of shit with her, too.” 
Your stomach dropped. 
Did they mean Daryl? 
“No. Whoever’s been shackin’ up in this van has been here longer than they’ve been house hoppin’.” Joe kissed his teeth in disappointment. “It ain’t them.” 
The knot in your stomach loosened a bit, but it was still a heavyweight; they might not have been tracking you and Daryl— not yet, at least— but they were tracking others, and you doubted they had good intentions once they found them. 
“So we stayin’ or not?” 
Another interrupted, “How do we know she’s even comin’ back?” 
“There's enough food in ‘ere to last a few days, at least. She’s either comin’ back or she’s already dead.” 
A shadow loomed closer, bigger and bigger until there was a rustle in the bushes. 
You and Daryl moved back behind the tree, without much time to go anywhere else. Bark digging into your back again, Daryl’s hands pressed around your body like a cage. You tried to find comfort in the idea of his arms surrounding you, instead of that suffocating feeling that was climbing up your chest. 
A belt buckle clinked. Then the thump of pants dropped to the ground. 
“She better be hot!” 
That thin man again. Len. 
“Waiting out here like a bunch’a assholes… better be worth it,” he grumbled, more to himself than anyone else. 
You heard it, of course. So did Daryl. 
The cage slipped away, and whatever comfort it brought did, too; one of his hands dropped to his hip, steady fingers unbuckled his knife’s sheath and wrapped around the handle. You glanced up to his face, where his eyes had narrowed into slits. It was a familiar look, one you’d seen before his bolt sliced into a squirrel or a rabbit. The look of a hunter, closing in on its prey. 
Anger swarmed him. Pupils blown so wide you couldn’t see that ring of blue anymore. He was going to kill him. Take his knife and stick it in him as many times as he needed until Len stopped squealing like the nasty pig he was. Right here, right now. 
And you wanted him to. 
But, then there was reason. 
It always snuck in, eventually. 
With a shaky— perhaps unsure— hand, you caught his wrist. Wrapped your fingers around him as softly as you could and held his hand still. Kept that knife in its sheath, kept the two of you hidden and safe. 
Daryl’s eyes locked onto yours, still steaming from all that anger boiling up. It took him a moment, but eventually your gentle touch swarmed his rage. Smothered the fire. 
He got the point.  
Not now. 
Oblivious, Len sighed.
You held your breath. Closed your eyes. 
Anything to get away, until you actually could. 
— 
The minute Len went back to the road, you and Daryl made a run for it. The gas canister and all your hopes of a quick trip up to Terminus were abandoned at the trunk of that tree. 
They hadn’t heard you get away. 
However, that little fact didn’t do much to soothe the worry in your chest. A heavy ball, swinging back and forth, slamming into your heart, your lungs, your ribs. It made you nauseous. Made your head ring like a damn church bell with every pulse of your blood. 
Dead leaves crunched under your bloodstained boots. Daryl’s too. The ground was cold and hard. Unforgiving. 
Chances were, it would be your bed for the night. 
You glanced up at the sky, already a dusty navy blue. Free of clouds, free of sun. The moon was round, just at the cusp of being a full circle of white light. 
The earth would be your bed if you ever stopped walking. 
It’d been since the car. Since the men who beat each other over a simple misunderstanding, but rallied together at the thought of an unsuspecting woman. 
You. 
“Daryl.” 
He turned on his heel. Faster than you expected. 
Eventually, your feet had stopped listening to the pursuit forward. A protest from stiff and tired muscles, standing still instead of following him through the weave of the forest. You weren’t sure why. Exhaustion hadn’t stopped you much before. 
You’d probably be dead if it had. 
“I, um—” 
You shook your head. At that moment, there seemed to be a lot you weren’t sure about. 
“Can we just hold up a minute?” 
“We should keep moving.” 
“We’ve been walking all day. All night.” 
“We gotta,” he huffed. 
“They didn’t see us leave. You covered our tracks.” 
You stepped closer to him, a soft, reasonable whisper into the dark air. 
“They’re not following us.” 
“We don’t know tha’.” 
“Daryl.” 
Your eyes did most of the pleading. 
He bit his lip, then nodded softly. 
The closest tree was as good as any. With a heavy sigh, you fell against it, and for the first time since those nightmares, you closed your eyes. Just for a second. The bark was uncomfortable, digging into the shoulder that had already been bruised under a similarly rough tree. But it’d been either that or being caught. 
Daryl was still standing. Pacing the small path back and forth like he could feel something coming closer. Watching you. He tried to watch it, too, but he never could seem to catch it. Or maybe there wasn’t actually anything out there.
From that angle, he seemed to be standing almost as tall as the trees. He was certainly as stiff as them when you called out again. 
“You can sit.” 
A glance your way. It felt tense, made your throat squeeze just a bit tighter. But eventually, he found something in your expression that seemed to stabilize the irregularity of his heart, pounding out of his chest. 
He sighed, then gave in. 
Winter’s breath slipped past your lips, a cloud of mist. It was dark tonight; there was barely enough silver moonlight to see past the second ring of trees surrounding you, but you were focused on Daryl anyway. His tree. The way he fell against it, rigid shoulders and bouncing eyes that always seemed to see better than yours when it came to the forest. 
Exhaustion had dulled your senses, no doubt about it. But you could still feel the goosebumps rise. Could feel the shiver run down your spine. It was as cold as it was dark, like every night before this one, though it’d been a long time since you’d had to curl up against a tree instead of a backseat or squeaky mattress.  
When he peeled off his jacket, your brow furrowed. His mouth was still shut, from what the shadows spared, but then there was a tumbling ball of darkness coming toward you until denim landed in your lap. Your heart dropped. It wasn’t an aching pain, this time. Not a bad one, at least. A low thump of memory coursing through your veins, thinking back to all the times he’d spared an inch of comfort just for you. 
You bundled the jacket in your hands, then with your last burst of energy, pushed yourself back up and practically crawled over to his tree, instead. His jacket was always thrown overtop a couple of flannels and still loose, so it was big enough to wrap around you, and then him. 
Him who stared at you like you’d grown a second head. 
“This okay?” You asked, a touch too late. 
Still, he nodded. Eyes falling off your sweet expression to find that cold earth underneath him. 
“’S better than a fire.” 
Another meaning slipped into his head— maybe the one he really meant. His voice picked up to clarify, “The smoke, I meant.” 
“I figured you’d say no.” You spared a small smile. “But it’s still too cold.” 
Daryl looked out to the forest again. Maybe he could see something out there, or maybe staring out into darkness was better than acknowledging how close you were. You shuffled next to him, trying to give him space without compromising the jacket’s cover, but damn, he was so warm. So close already.
Did another inch make any difference? 
“You burn like a damn furnace, anyway.” 
You took in a deep breath. Every thump of his nervous heart beating waves of heat toward you, melting away that frost that seemed to line your insides some days. 
“So do you.” 
He scoffed. 
It grew quiet, again. 
Breaths in and out. Daryl even seemed to relax. His shoulder became softer and softer under your cheek— only God knew when it landed there. The comfort should have lulled you to sleep, but there was still something lingering at the back of your throat, waiting for the chance to slip your lips. 
“You wanted to kill that guy.” 
It wasn’t a question. It wasn’t really an accusation, either. 
“I woulda.” His voice vibrated into you, that deep, threatening rumble of a man. “If he’d seen us.” 
But you’d seen that look in his eye. Knew the urge ran deeper than that.
Daryl seemed to notice you picking him apart, piece by piece like a damn puzzle, and his gaze slipped away. Lost in the breeze of tall trees and low bushes, where he prayed nothing would jump from. 
Still. 
There was something about the way you watched him as if you could see past the mask he spent years piecing together. For his father, for his brother, for anyone else who dared to spend more than an hour by his side. It wasn’t enough. Not for you. 
And for once in his life, he didn’t seem to mind. 
He sighed, “Shoulda put a bolt in him, anyway.” 
“If you did, they would be hunting us down right now.” 
You were right.
Of course, you were right. It didn't make his regret ache any less. He sighed, again, and let his head rest against the tree trunk. Pressed to his side, you could hear the slow inhale of his breath, rattling past his dry throat and into those smoke-stained lungs. The thump of his heart seemed stronger than any of it, though. A soothing pulse, more even as the seconds ticked by.
Yours had evened out, too.
“I’m okay, you know.” 
His head turned. A soft rustle compared to the low night breeze. It didn’t matter that your gaze had slipped off him, a moment or two ago. You could feel his stare lock onto the curve of your face. The flutter of your eyelashes as you blinked away that shimmer in your eye— the bad kind. Shift down to the way your shoulders slowly relaxed. Reaffirming those little words; wrapping a warm blanket around his heart. Making that crossbow in his hands feel as light as the way your arm brushed up against his.
He cleared his throat. You could feel his breath on your cheek. 
“Ya— Y’know, I’d die before I’d let…” 
His voice was raspy, dying off even before he lost the words entirely. It wasn’t anything you needed to hear, anyway. Not when the shine in his eyes was pointed down at you.
No more anger, not anymore. 
Something darker than the night sky. Unreadable. 
You nodded. 
There was still that inkling of dread in your chest, stomping on top of your hope like a bratty child, but he seemed to make the pound of your heart slow. Seemed to make you feel safe even if you were anything but. 
“I know.” 
The words were a bare whisper. A delicate hush that came out as softly as the way your eyes felt slipping down his face. His lips were parted with slow breaths slipping past, like those thoughts that snuck into your mind, wondering what he might do if you leant closer. Touched him in a new way. 
A breeze ran past you. Cold air biting your skin and a tinge of smoke. 
The pair of you stilled. Pulled apart. The thought was caught in the smokey wind, carried away. 
There was a fire nearby. 
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A/N: shit is about to get real y'all.
if you’re reading this, thank you! I hope you enjoyed this chapter. please feel free to leave feedback, it helps so much and I love to read it. have a lovely day <3
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Ok, so, idk if anyone remembers this fic cause its been SO LONG since it was posted, but I'm almost done with part 2!!
I hope I can post it next week! Until then now!
And if youre craving more angst and better quality fics dont forget to check on @weretheones
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Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader
Era: Season 9
Word count: 2.5k
Plot: Daryl comes home after many years to face the consequences of his actions.
Warnings: ANGST, pure ANGST!
A/N: I've been wanting to write this shared idea I had with @finalgirlrick for a while now, I hope I can break your heart (affectionate).
@weretheones I couldnt done it without u, like always! Ily <3
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Daryl was in pain and he knew it.
He tried to ignore the pang running through the wound for several days but the burning sensation wouldn't cave in and the medical herbs were not being really helpful. 
Deep down he knew he needed help but somehow the idea of coming back to Alexandria stung more than the freshly cut on his face. 
The river flowed quiet and calm, leaving barely any trace of the storm that crashed hard the day before. With one knee on the ground, Daryl watched the water following the trail while contemplating his options. 
It’s been so long since he visited Alexandria. 
When he decided to follow the river in hopes to find Rick’s body he never thought it would take so long, until days, weeks and months passed by.  But he couldn't stop, the promise he made to Michonne drove his body incessantly. 
He would never admit it, but there were moments when a small part of his heart hoped the reason why he couldn't find a trace was because his brother was alive.
After many years, that hope slowly started to fade away. Every day became harsher, colder, more dangerous. Sometimes he just survived for instinct, not because he really wanted to.
Days like this were tougher, he could deal with some injury across his face but he wasn't sure how devastating it would be for him to come back home and face everything he left behind to pursue something he wasn't successfully accomplishing. 
He never let his mind ramble too much about what was going on back in Alexandria, he knew if he thought about it too much he wouldn't be able to resist dropping everything to go home, to Michonne, to Judith and RJ, to you.
The first years you visited him constantly, bringing food, blankets, fresh clothes or even weapons, anything that could help him out in the woods, trying to be close to him.
Still, that meant you were exposing yourself to the dangers of the path along the river. 
He knew you were capable of handling yourself out in the open but Daryl couldn't bear the thought of you being in danger trying to find him. This was his task and no one should suffer with him the consequences of his decision, especially you.
“It’s been years, Daryl, you need to take at least a break, come back home, we can think of a new strategy, maybe this time I could come with you and…”
“Just stop” Daryl spoke in a growl without letting you finish. —“Ya shouldn't be here”.
You sighed, you knew you were pushing some dangerous buttons but after so many times of the same conversation over and over, you needed to make sure he heard you.
“I understand Daryl, I really do, but we need you too, I need you.” you begged.
Daryl’s gaze was glued to the ground, paralyzed with the fear of catching your eyes, he knew if he looked at you nothing would stop him from finally hearing your pleas.
“I talked to Michonne, you know? and she isn't expecting you to fulfill the promise, she just wants you back home, we all do” you continued.
Usually, you could read him like a book but right now, you couldn't point out what was going through his mind.
“I… I…  dont think Rick would’ve wanted to see you like this either, Daryl”.
Daryl’s head snapped towards you. His face carried a trace of anger and sadness. 
“I’m never gonna stop looking” he finally said, his tone of voice lower than usual  — “This stops now, I never asked ya to be here”
The feeling of a thousand needles pinching through your body washed you over. You blinked twice, as fast as you could, trying to swipe away the tears that were forming in the corners of your eyes.
It took two long deep breaths for you to finally be able to speak.
“What does that mean Daryl?” you said almost in a whisper, afraid of an answer you already knew. 
Hell, you knew it from the moment that bridge exploded, your legs ran towards Daryl so fast to the sound of the dynamite invading the forest, by the time you got there the flames started to fade away, giving space to dark a fume that took over the sky. 
Your eyes searched everywhere for Daryl until you spotted him a few miles away, crossbow in hand. You yelled his name, twice, and when he finally turned to you, you knew, you could see it in his eyes, devastation consuming his body. Nothing would ever be the same from that moment but you loved him enough to fight and delay the inevitable for years, clinging to a hope that now was slipping right between your fingers.
Daryl took a step back, breaking your thoughts. He paced back and forward trying to gather the courage to speak.
“It means ya need to move on like I did” Daryl’s voice echoed in the silence of the quiet woods.
Daryl closed his eyes to the memory and sighed, that was the last time he saw you.
The way your face contorted with pain when he pronounced those words haunted his dreams almost every night. He knew he hurt you, and he regretted it everyday for the last couple of years.
Sometimes, he wondered if you could forgive him, maybe if he came back home and explained to you he never meant that, you’d take him into your arms like all those nights in the tiny basement of your house in Alexandria. 
His skin was burning, but inside his veins felt loaded with ice, making him shiver.
That wasn't a good sign. The fever was rising fast, shit, there wasn't another option, he needed to go now before he was too weak to make the ride. 
-
The guards of the guard tower recognized him immediately, the sound of the angry motor was something hard to ignore. “It's Daryl, let him in!” someone yelled from the inside.
Daryl drove through the gates giving them a thankful nod. Alexandria was different from the last time he was there, the community was thriving under Michonne’s leadership, they were not taking any new members for a long time now but still it felt bigger than usual. 
 “I thought I heard a bike” Aaron approached as soon as the doors closed behind him, extending his arms to give him a big hug.
“It’s been a while” Daryl squeezed his friend’s arm in response.
“It shouldn't be, this is your home too” Aaron gave him a sympathetic smile.
Home He might be back to the place he once called home but he knew the meaning of the term was gone the day he lost you.
“Jesus Daryl, that looks infected” Aaron broke the silence pointing to Daryl’s cut across his face.
“S’ not that bad” Daryl said as he shrugged.
Aaron’s expression changed as soon as he understood the reason behind his sudden visit, tension slowly invading his features.
“Daryl, I think we should talk before you go to the infirmary” Aaron’s tone of voice became serious. “Look, you probably don't know this but…”
“Daddy!” The sudden scream of a child interrupted the conversation. Both men followed the direction of the sound, finding a little girl walking towards them, pouting with fresh tears along her cheeks. 
“What happened sweetheart, are you okay?” Aaron took the little girl in his arms, swiping away the tiny drops. “I’m sorry, let me take her home so we can talk” he frowned — “Don't move, I’ll be back in a minute”.
Daryl nodded watching his friend leave, confused by his words and sudden change of demeanor.
Once the residents spotted him he felt exposed. People greeted him with surprise, some of them came forward to ask him how he was doing while others just stared, clearly unaware of who he was.
Anxiety took the best of him, the chances of running into you were high the longer he stayed there, he thought it was for the best if he could sneak in, get his antibiotics and leave before you notice. 
He owed you at least that.
The small white house came into his sight, pots full of flowers carefully placed following the road to the stairs. His heart raced when he recognized which kind they were: tulips, your favorite ones.
The curtains on the window were open, leaning on the corner outside the door he peeked inside in hopes to see Siddiq there, but what he saw made him freeze, feeling every inch of his skin electrified. 
You were there.
Time didn't seem to pass by you cause he could’ve sworn you looked the same as the last time he saw you, except the pony tail you used to wear everyday was gone, and your hair looked shorter. He smiled recalling how many times you complained about being too long for the damn summer. 
God, he missed you. 
Daryl endured a lot of things down the river, but being away from you was the hardest one.
After your discussion in the woods, he made himself a promise. To make it through, he could never allow himself to think of you. Not because he didn't want to but because he was certain he wouldn't survive if he did it. 
All the feelings he captured inside him all these years were coming out in waves, leaving him in a daze. He wanted to leave, this wasn't what he was planning on, but Daryl felt hypnotized. He drank you in, memorizing for one last time every corner of your beautiful face. 
Siddiq’s frame appeared next to yours, whispering something in your ear that made you chuckle. The scene had a hint of intimacy hidden in the way you both looked at eachother. 
And then, Siddiq’s hands took your waist, pulling you closer to him, until the distance between your bodies disappeared. He placed one kiss on your forehead followed by another one on your lips and you smiled at the action.
Oh
That's why Aaron wanted to talk to him first.
Daryl’s breathing hitched. No, no, no.
Siddiq looked different from the last time Daryl saw him, older, more mature and he could’ve sworn even taller.
He looked like the happiest man on earth. Daryl couldn't blame him, once he felt like that too.
He took your hand giving it one last kiss before waving goodbye, Daryl’s eyes were glued to the action, feeling a strange sense of relief once he left the room.
He didn't know how long he stood there in front of the door but he couldn't move, it felt like the strength from the earth was nailing him to the wooden deck, immobilizing his body.  Everything hurt, if the fever didn't kill him this certainly would.
Immerse in his thoughts he missed the sound of your steps approaching the door, you opened it before he could make a move.
“Da.. Daryl?!” your eyes widened at him. — “What are you doing here?!”
The shock of having you suddenly so close left him flabbergasted, he remained silent feeling the lump on his throat getting bigger, words couldn't physically come out of his mouth.
Your eyes scanned him, you knew Daryl and the only reason he would come back was if he was dangerously injured.
His skin looked pale, and the bags under his eyes were starting to have a purple look but what really concerned you, was the swollen massive cut across his right eye.
You brought your hand towards his forehead, he was burning.
“Oh my god! Come in, come in." — " We need to take care of that, it’s already infected” you rushed him in as fast as you could.
Daryl nodded, still unable to talk.
Sitting on the stretcher Daryl watched your trained hands hurriedly clean up his wound, the smell of your sweet perfume captivated his nostrils every time you leaned over to apply some ointment. He hummed inwardly with delight, even as you were trying to be really careful to not hurt him further, he couldn't feel a thing, his mind was consumed in the sensation of your delicate touch.
“Here, you need to take one in the morning before eating, make sure to have something in your stomach, please” you softly said while giving him a bottle of pills.
“Ya sure don't need this?” guilt pang him, he was strong, two pills would do the trick, he didn't need more.
“Don't fight me, please?, I know what I’m doing” you scolded him tittling your head.
“Yeah, I know” Daryl’s voice came out almost in a whisper.
The tension in the air was palpable, filled with a thousand emotions. There was so much history between the two of you, even if you weren't together now, both of you knew you would always love and care for each other to the end.
Your heart was pounding so hard you were afraid you’d faint right there. You knew you would see Daryl again, sure, but not like this, not after Siddiq just left. 
It took a long time before you could feel like yourself again, days and sleepless nights wondering for years why you weren't enough. Sometimes you would go outside the gates of Alexandria determined to search for him and talk, beg for him to take you back, to love you again. But his words rang loud in your head whenever you approached near the river “It means ya need to move on like I did”.
“M’ sorry” Daryl broke the cruel silence. “I didn't knew”
You closed your eyes, facing the window, unable to look at his face. It was crazy how deep down the feelings you had for him still burned like fire, hearing the sound of his voice made your heart race, attempting to jump out of your chest.
“Are ya happy?” Daryl continued, standing from the stretcher walking over to you. — “I need to know”.
You were happy indeed. Siddiq brought something different in you, a version you enjoyed. His love was calm, easy, steady, exactly what you needed after so much time alone feeling pity for yourself. A breath of fresh air for your drowning soul. 
Sure, it wasn't the fervent passionate love you felt for Daryl, but it was enough to make you happy.
“I am” you simply answered. “And I hope you found the peace you were looking for”.
Daryl nodded, trying to keep himself together. He was truly glad you were happy but the sorrow he felt knowing he wasn't the reason behind overwhelmed him. 
He couldn't blame you. You fought hard for many years to be close to him but the grief blinded him until it was too late. He told you to move on, so you did. It wasn't that hard to understand.
“Thank ya for the medicine and everythin’, angel.” he managed to answer.
Your head buzzed at those words, it took all of your strength to not run into his arms.
“Daryl, I…” you mumbled, hugging yourself afraid of falling apart into pieces. 
Wishing he was a better man, Daryl walked towards the door crushed by the reality he was facing. He raised his eyes to yours for one last time.
“My heart will always belong to ya.” Daryl pronounced before crossing the frame of the front door, landing every word right inside your aching heart.
You watched him leave wondering if you were making a mistake, but fully aware that right now, there was nothing you could do.
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normanplusdaryl · 7 months
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WAKE UP BABES WERE THE ONES IS BACKK BACK BACK BACK AGAIN!!
"The fabric of his shirt hung off the side of his body. Enough room that he knew you’d be able to sneak underneath and change his bandage without bother while keeping the rest of his torso hidden. 
As if you hadn’t already seen more than enough of his tanned skin to keep you up at night with unsolicited thoughts of every kind.
Heartbreak.
Desire. "
SHE WANTS HIM SO BAD, I'M SICK AND DROOLING TOO READER!!
"The bold-blocked words SANCTUARY FOR ALL, COMMUNITY FOR ALL, THOSE WHO ARRIVE SURVIVE were painted in a similarly rusty-coloured red. Underneath the banner was a sign, wrapped in plastic but the lines of a map were as clear as a summer day. Blue, red, and green all lead to a black star in the centre-left labelled TERMINUS. "
I'm so scared for whats going to happen, pls the description of the board are so on point I can literally picture it on my mind.
"He’d had enough of those soul-crushing losses. Enough fill for an entire life, and then some. He wasn’t sure if he could risk that again. Not when you were just about everything he had left. "
SKHDAHFAHFUAHUQWNVS, HE CARES FOR HER!! HE CARES FOR HER SO MUCH HE IS AFRAID TO LOSING HER AND OFC IM LOSING MY MIND!! HELP HELP!
I'm so glad youre back! this story lives rent free on my mind.
I looooooooooooooooooved this chapter so much, the way they both had grown in to eachother, how much they care and even if Daryl isnt the type of guy who would speak a lot he has his love language which its in actions, so the way he care for her teaching her how to track, being proud, etc its just UGHH SO GOOD.
I need more, I'm sorry I'm needy but this is just GOLD.
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All You Got | Part 11
Part 11: New Trails
Plot: Daryl Dixon hadn’t known much beyond anger and loneliness his whole life, until he found family at the end of the world. Everything he grew to care about was ripped away the day the prison fell; so when he recognized you, an enforcer of his loss, hiding in that cabin, he almost pulled the trigger. But after you end up saving his life, he couldn’t find the indifference to leave you for dead, even if you’d been on the Governor’s side. (Mid-Late Season 4)
Series Masterlist | AO3 Version
Paring: Eventual Daryl Dixon x Reader Word Count: 5k Warnings: typical twd content. mentions of death. A/N: hey remember me? pls say yes :D
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A day later, you raided the closest town. 
A new multitool, granola bars, some tampons. It wasn’t much, but at least you had the car when the night turned cold. 
And Daryl. 
Those hints of vulnerability hidden behind a surly mask hadn't disappeared yet. And best of all, he could look you in the eye again. Even if you still couldn’t always quite tell what he was thinking, the reaffirming glance of familiar blue laced with a type of gentleness you’d never noticed before— not even in those quiet moments: when he was patching you up, when he was sick with fever— warmed you up better than any sputtering car heater could. 
He’d never forget the prison. The sight of those metal fences shadowing your face. But there was a trail where your feet had landed these past weeks, littered with moments that could convince even a man as stubborn and heartbroken as Daryl that it was the right choice to stick by your side, the shadow of prison fences and all. Somehow, somewhere along the way from that dingy cabin to the car you shared, you’d made it okay. 
So things were okay, too. For a while. 
But the days went on. 
On and on and on…
Limp leaves of brown and red flew in the air around spinning tires. Ahead was a horizon of cracked pavement lit by the thin light of sunset and the beam of headlights. Except for the speeding car, the road was empty. Nothing to see but amber skies. 
Then those slipped away. The sun dipped behind tall trees, and it was only those headlights and the cold moonlight. No walkers. Not even an abandoned car. Just an empty road, no matter how many miles you traveled. 
“Where are we going?” 
For the first time in months, there was an air of hopelessness caught in your lungs. It infected your voice, wrapping around the words like rotten tendrils of ivy. 
Daryl’s grip on the steering wheel tightened. White knuckles. 
He shook his head. 
“I dunno.” 
The bus had nearly dashed all your hopes, but there was still that stubborn bit of you holding onto the far-fetched idea that something was still out there to find. To protect. Though the road had become so long over the days, the idea smaller and smaller as north, west, south, and east blended, and slowly you were disorientated. No more paths to follow. No more maps to trace. 
You could feel your grip slipping, right as the first flakes of snow fell. 
— 
Eventually, he taught you how to hunt. 
The tracks were the softest thing you’d seen in a week, not since Daryl had smiled at you by that river. Thin ovals imprinted in the dirt under a scatter of leaves that you brushed a hand across, gently. 
“Deer, right?” You looked up at Daryl. “How fresh are they?” 
He just shrugged. “Wha’ ya asking me for?” 
You crouched closer to the tracks. They were relatively deep, the edges cut into recognizable prints. With the back of your knuckle, you pressed into the dirt beside them. It gave away underneath, marking an even sharper and deeper print. The earth was soft this morning, warmed by the pleasantly bright sun despite the first fall of snow a couple of days ago. 
The sinking prints could only have been made that day. After sunrise. 
“They’re fresh,” you concluded. “Maybe an hour or two?” 
Daryl smirked, and you soon had one to match it. 
A deer would be more than enough meat for the two of you. The last time you’d had a catch like that, it’d been in the thick of last winter. Taking a deep breath in, you swore you could still smell the stew steaming from your bowl. It was enough to give your step an extra bounce. To give some fuel to that dwindling hope in your chest. 
Things weren’t always bad, even if it felt like everything was slipping through your fingers lately. 
And then an hour later, you were standing over a dead walker and a dead deer, all chewed up. 
— 
Still no home. No direction. 
The air was damp. An almost suffocating musk that infected every inch of the abandoned motel room. From the tacky wallpaper to the mismatching purple curtains, this place screamed road-trip stop. A little strip of a dozen rooms at the edge of an unnamed town dedicated for only those passing through. 
It seemed fitting to spend the night, then. 
“You can’t seriously like those things.” 
Daryl’s eyes found yours, even in the dim candlelight. 
“Love ‘em.” He threw another pig’s foot into his mouth and you cringed. 
“Ew.” 
“More for me, then.” 
That was just fine with you. 
You rolled your eyes and took another bite of canned corn. It was too sweet and a bit metallic from its years in a can, but at least it wasn’t a foot. 
The pair of you had your backs resting against your claimed, and ironically empty, single beds. After a week of sleeping in that car, taking turns curling into the backseat, it was a treat to have a real mattress to sleep on. Even if it was cheap and full of squeaky springs that dug into your spine. 
But somehow here you were, on the floor instead, sharing a late and unexpected meal against dusty, floral bed sheets. 
Daryl insisted on holding watch most nights. A simple thing that always seemed to lull you to sleep faster knowing that he was there, he was watching. You stopped doubting if he would keep you safe a while ago. He always did, after all. But tonight, it’d been your turn to do the same for him, to wait for each of those heavy breaths to come and the gentle flutter of his eyes as he fell deeper and deeper into sleep. 
That walker had almost got him. 
Really almost got him. If you hadn’t fired a bullet when you did, you would have spent the night digging a grave. All for some gas to fill a car you still had no idea where to drive. It was always just the next town, the next house, the next store, the next—
He let you throw your arms around him after the last of the dead had fallen, even if his muscles turned to stone when you did. And he listened after you told him to rest first. Perhaps the memory of that loose, unbridled fear in your eyes had turned him to putty in your hands, for the time being. 
It was only a couple of hours before sunrise when he woke up. He asked you to rest, too. Whatever you still could get. 
The last thing you wanted was to sleep, to give in to your heavy eyelids and fall away from the world. Not when you could still smell the walker’s rot, could still hear Daryl’s heavy grunts. The crack of that bullet breaking through that monster’s skull. No. No, you wanted to be here. With him. 
But you were putty in his hands, as always. 
It'd barely been halfway through his turn on guard when an old nightmare slipped its way into your subconscious. A morbid twist of Daryl’s neck ripping underneath that walker’s teeth into the sky high flames you’d never forget from the early days. As you began to toss, the squeaking of your mattress pulled him away from the window. His chest ached to hear the mumble of your fragile voice around incoherent pleads, and then that name— the same name over and over. 
He woke you up. 
The haunting touch of the dead, cold and cruel, slipped away with the curl of his warm, merciful fingers squeezing around your shoulder. It’d taken more than a few seconds to realize his features weren’t twisted in terror and pain, like all those other faces that you could barely remember anymore had been. Then there was the drumming beat of your heart as you sat up and clung onto him, for the second time that day. 
After you let go of him, he sat back on your bed, quiet and rigid as a statue. Back to his usual, touch-adverse self. 
So you sat there, listening to your breathing slow and the whistle of the night’s air sneaking past that cracked window. 
“I’m sorry,” you finally mumbled, brushing your messy hair away from your face. 
The stream of moonlight that slipped through the break in the curtains reached across your face. He followed the movement of your hand, heard the rumble of your voice, thick with sleep, and seemed to warm back up. 
Slowly. 
He swallowed. “Nothin’ to be sorry ‘bout.” 
You nodded, fear shifting into numbness. 
“You alright?” 
The moonlight fell on him too, highlighting the concern that laced his eyes. 
“Mhm,” you hummed. 
It was about the most you could muster out; you could still feel the ruthless grasp of dead fingers around your neck. 
It wasn’t convincing, of course. That look on his face didn’t let up. 
“I’m okay,” you reiterated with a deep breath. 
His eyes flickered over you one last time before he finally conceded. 
“Alright.” 
Daryl shifted back again, looking down to the bed. The sheets were thrown back. Your legs curled up to your chest. He had this burning thought— one that had been simmering for a while now, that made him freeze up with fear of his own. Would it help to brush that one loose strand of hair behind your ear? The one you missed? Maybe then you’d hold him again. That seemed to make you feel better, somehow. All he knew was it made him feel warm and—
He stood up, somewhat abruptly. 
“I still got a couple hours, if ya wanna…“ 
“No,” you blurted. “No, I’m not— I’m not tired anymore.” 
He nodded and offered an alternative. No prying and no more nightmares. Just distractions. 
That was how the pair of you ended up on the floor. Daryl eating pig's feet from a jar and you playing up your disgust, because the reality was, you’d eaten far worse than pig’s feet in the last few years. 
“Some fresh game, diet soda, pig’s feet,” Daryl smirked as he wiped his hands clean. “You’d have yourself a white trash brunch.” 
“A delicacy,” you teased. 
“More fillin’ than your corn.” 
You rolled your eyes. 
“Whatever. I’ll stick to my corn, thanks.” 
“Your loss.” Daryl took another bite. “Merle ‘n I used to fight over these.” 
You huffed a laugh, “Seriously?” 
“Mhm. He was a sneaky bastard. Used to wait till I looked away, then swipe ‘em off my plate.” 
“Like a dog?” 
He chuckled, “Wouldn't be the first time someone called him tha’.” 
“Oh? He didn’t get along well with the ladies?” 
“Merle thought he did. Don’t think no one else agreed.” 
You gave him a small laugh. Though, truth be told, the talk of brothers, no matter how joking, was starting to weigh on your chest. It always boiled back down to him, and you couldn’t think about him right now— not if you wanted your eyes to stay dry and your heart to beat that steady rhythm in your chest. 
So you backtracked.
“You ate a lot of white trash brunches?”
“Didn't have much else.” 
“Didn’t cook?” 
“Didn’t know how. Didn’t have no one to teach me, neither. Not unless ya count over a fire.” 
Every meal you’d had in the last two years had been cooked over a fire.
“It counts,” you said. 
“Did you cook?” 
“Mhm. Loved it,” you sighed. “I was pretty good, too.” 
“Better than canned soup?” 
“Much better.” 
“My mom used to cook. Can’t remember it much, though.” 
He had a timid look in his eye, and you held your breath. Ready to share your sympathies— which felt all too frequent, these days. 
“She died when I was a kid. ‘Round the same age as Carl.” 
“Who’s Carl?” 
It was Daryl’s turn to hold his breath. 
“He, uh,” he cleared his throat. Shifted in his spot. That mention hadn’t been intentional, it seemed. A slip in memory— that you were new to him. You’d never lived at the prison, never known the people he did. That the only thing the two of you shared, beyond the old stories you shared during quiet nights, were the last two months. 
“He’s Rick’s kid.” 
He had another look. One that made the air smell like rushing waters and moss.
You felt the words bubble up your throat before you even knew what they were.
“The one I—?“ 
“Yeah.” He nodded.
The one you saved.
“Sounded like it.” 
You took a deep breath of that musty motel room air.
“We didn’t have many kids who knew how to use a shotgun. Never mind kill a man.” 
“Carl did?” 
“He had to. Growing up on the road. The first time we fought the Governor.” 
“Poor kid.” 
“He’s tough.” 
“Still. I can’t imagine growing up like this.” 
Daryl’s eyes fell to his fingers, fiddling with his thumb. Your heart squeezed when his shoulders, as broad and strong as they were, seemed to curl in on themselves. Before you could even register your concern for whatever was running through his head, another question tumbled out of you. 
“You think it might be easier?” 
He shrugged. “Ya jus’ get used to it. Shit being ugly.” 
“I guess,” you mumbled. 
But hearing those words, that thick drawl of his tired voice, made something sting inside of you like salt rubbed into a wound. From the small bits he shared, Daryl’s upbringing never sounded easy, or particularly loving. A brother who neglected him most of his life, a mother who died when he was just a boy, and a father he’d never mention. Even if his life had prepared him to survive this sick and twisted world, it didn’t seem fair. 
“It still doesn’t make it right.” 
Daryl didn’t say much after that. You didn’t want to offend him— you hoped you didn’t. Maybe that comment made it obvious you’d been thinking about his past and his family… Those scars. No matter how hard you tried to forget them, to ignore the intrusive thoughts of how they might’ve come to be, the sight was ingrained in your memory. 
So much for lightening the mood. 
It was silent. Long enough for your words to sink into the stale air, and for the both of you to finish your snacks. The empty cans sat on the dusty nightstand to your left and your head rested against the back of the mattress. Your eyes almost closed, too. 
But with that dark silence came those haunting memories again. Flashes of that nightmare. The desperation trapped in dying screams. Fire and blood. 
You stood up. Back turned to the quick look Daryl threw your way, you dug through that bag you packed full after raiding the town’s general store. It was almost bare, save the three walkers you took out, but you managed to find the last of the canned food that now sat on the floor, empty, and a stray sterile pad, kicked underneath one of the vacant shelves. 
“Should change your bandage.” 
“Alright,” he agreed, moving to sit on the edge of his bed. 
It took everything in him to keep his eyes off that pensive expression of yours. Features twisted in contemplation, and a hint of horror, maybe. You tried to hide it from him. In a way, he hid too, concerning himself with only the buttons of his flannel and the leather vest peeling off his back instead of that festering question he couldn’t seem to stop asking. Are you okay? It sat in his heart like a shard of glass, digging deeper and deeper the harder he tried to pry it away— to ignore the urge. 
The fabric of his shirt hung off the side of his body. Enough room that he knew you’d be able to sneak underneath and change his bandage without bother while keeping the rest of his torso hidden. 
As if you hadn’t already seen more than enough of his tanned skin to keep you up at night with unsolicited thoughts of every kind.
Heartbreak.
Desire. 
The bed squeaked as you sat down behind him, feet hanging off the edge as you turned to see the exit wound. You tugged the old bandage off. It was hard to tell what it looked like with nothing but that thin peak of moonlight and the low flicker of candlelight, but with the pass of your fingertips around the wound, you could tell his skin was flat again. No inflammation, no discolouration save that hint of a healing bruise. There was a fresh layer of white tissue where the bullet had passed out of him, which was the best sign of all. You ripped open the sterile pad you found and taped half over the same spot.
Then you moved to the front to do it all over again. Doing your absolute best to keep your focus on the wound and not his watchful eyes, following you as softly as that candlelight danced across his skin. 
“How’s it lookin', doc?” 
As much as he was trying to distract himself from that heavy look on your face, barely relieved with his stupid quip that you spared the slightest smile for, his curiosity was getting the better of him. Weaving in like the roots of a weed. It still felt foreign to concern himself so attentively with someone without that cursed last name of his; Merle was all he gave a shit about before, and even then, his brother usually rejected that care. Called him a pussy for giving a damn. Then they ended up at the quarry, and it turned out he wasn’t entirely heartless once another Dixon wasn’t around to taunt him. 
“Good. I don’t think you’ll need this for much longer.” 
Truth was, Daryl didn’t give a damn about his shoulder right now. Not when your eyes were hazed like they’d been when he woke you up. 
“How do you feel?” You asked. 
It took him a second to remember you meant to be tending to him, right now. Not the other way around.
“Fine.”
He rolled his shoulder as if to prove it. 
“How ‘bout you?” 
Your eyes stilled, for a moment, then snuck back up to his. As if he’d just caught you red-handed. Another hum hadn’t even the chance to slip past your lips, but you could already tell he thought you were full of it. A slight narrow of blue, flickering over the way you'd been biting your lip and your heavy eyes. He gave you a chance to brush it off again, if you wanted.
Somehow that made your resolve crumble away. Knowing that he saw past it all, but he'd never force you to bare it to him, either. But then those walls you put up years ago were ground down to sand, running through your fingers. 
“I don’t have them often. Not anymore.” 
“You said a name,” Daryl mumbled. “Alex.” 
Pouring free. 
You gave a soft nod. Hoped that ringing in your ears would go away as fast as it came on. 
“My brother.” 
Just like that, his eyes were starting to burn you again, so you looked at your hands. In your lap, where you sat on your knees, just next to him. Close enough to wrap his shoulder. Close enough that you could see his own hands resting on his thighs, fingers just brushing against the frayed edges of his torn jeans. 
You picked at the strands of your own, right beside that numb spot on your thigh where a scar was forming.
“I don’t remember it much, but I think it was from the start. When we were at Westwood.” 
“Wha’s that?” 
“It was a middle school just outside of Atlanta. Some army had set up a base there until they could find a way to move us all to Fort Benning.” 
There was a brief moment when his eyes widened. He had a curious stare that forced you to look up before a flash of green sleeping bags and the silver packaging of MRE rations pulled you back into the memory. 
“There weren’t a lot of us. Under a dozen soldiers. Few of us from the city. Most of the kids ran off with their parents— if they showed up.” 
It hit harder than the Governor had stabbed you, right then, that you’d forgotten their faces. Their voices. Their names. Memories shadowed with ghosts who you couldn’t even tell apart anymore… The smell of burning flesh lingered better than their smiles. 
“It went bad quickly.” 
He didn’t ask how. Didn’t need to really, the end was all the same. One day it was gone, and so were they, and the road became your path again. 
“You ever made it to Fort Benning?” 
The edges of his voice had dulled, filed down until the words were nothing but a feather passing along your cheek, beckoning your attention his way instead. Sometimes you wondered how he knew you were picking up the shovel, ready to dig your way into a pit of fear and regret, before the handle ever touched your hand.
You took in a breath. “Yeah. It was nothing but ash, though.” 
“We were headed there. Back at the start.” 
“Fort Benning?” 
“Mhm.” 
“What happened?” 
“Got held up on Hershel’s farm, instead. Rick ran into some guys one day— bad guys. They told him it fell. Badly.” 
Another flash of the dead. 
“It did.” 
You looked back down. 
“Did those bad guys take the farm?” 
“Nah. We left ‘fore they found us. Herd ran us out. Spent the whole winter on the road after tha’, runnin’ from place to place…” 
Ever so slightly, Daryl stiffened. You knew what that meant. 
Until the prison. 
“What was the farm like?” You asked. 
There was a pleading tone to your voice, twirling up the edges of your words in a way that reminded him of the girl who couldn’t stop asking if he’d stay or leave, who would limp behind him after he silently scolded himself for helping you so much. Back when he didn’t care if your leg hurt or not, or at least, was better at pretending so. 
“We weren’t there long.” He shrugged nonchalantly as if there wasn’t a string as taut as his crossbow squeezing around his heart. “Maybe a month. But, it was the nicest place we’d been. Had trees, big old ones. Runnin' water. Fields’a crops and a couple’a horses.” He added that last one even if Nelly had thrown him so hard he wasn’t eager to ride another horse again. “But we were always fighting each other. No one knew what the hell they were doin’.” 
Your brow raised. “Not even you?” 
“Thought I did.” He shook his head. “I tried.” 
A breeze snuck through the cracked window, flickering the flames around you. He took a breath. 
“Still am.” 
“Me too.” 
The shadows cast across your face were softer now. The sun rose on the opposite side of the motel, but he could still see that hope shimmer in your pretty smile. A softer, dusty blue lit up the sky with ribbons of amber dancing across; orange reflecting onto the colour of your eyes he knew so well. Tracing the edge of your curled lips, the curve of your cheekbones. Your hair was getting long, now loose from the toss and turn of sleep. He didn’t see it down often, but it framed your face just as kindly as the light did. 
You took in a deep breath. It sounded less strained than before.
“We should head back to the car.” 
Daryl nodded. 
Then you smirked, and just like that, the charm that made his chest fill with warmth was back. 
“It stinks like pig’s feet in here.” 
The wind danced around you, a whirlwind of fallen leaves and that light dusting of snow, sparking like sugar in the sun. The sky was the same as it’d been the last few days. Pale grey clouds with pockets of blue peeking through. The sun’s harshest rays were always hidden away in the name of winter. 
You spared a glance to Daryl who walked by your side, if not slightly behind. Hunter's eyes roamed over the edges of the railroad you passed through, ignoring that crunch of gravel under your feet while he waited for the snap of a branch or the squeak of a nearby rabbit. Crossbow in hand, bolt loaded like always. The sight of him trailing your steps almost made the cold air bite less. 
That hopeless air in you felt lighter than you remembered, too.
Almost fading.
The car wasn’t far, now. Maybe twenty more minutes. The rumble of empty stomachs had sent you behind the motel instead of through the town you looted yesterday, where the train tracks cut through the forest, hoping to find some breakfast before you finally filled the empty gas tank and started on the road, again. 
Ahead, a rust-coloured train car sat on the second track. A few doodles of white and black spray paint coated the sides, but half of them were covered by a hanging banner, beige and held up by four strings. The bold-blocked words SANCTUARY FOR ALL, COMMUNITY FOR ALL, THOSE WHO ARRIVE SURVIVE were painted in a similarly rusty-coloured red. Underneath the banner was a sign, wrapped in plastic but the lines of a map were as clear as a summer day. Blue, red, and green all lead to a black star in the centre-left labelled TERMINUS. 
The pair of you shared a look, your eyebrows drawn together in a mixture of confusion and shock and his eyes narrowed into slits. Inspecting the poster for any kind of warning, any threat, as if a walker was about to jump from behind it. 
“They were broadcastin’ this,” Daryl muttered, after a long and tense moment. 
Your eyes widened. “When?” 
“Before the prison,” he said, sparing you another uncomfortable look before he continued to stare at the carefully wrapped sign. “We heard it on the radio when we were lookin’ for those meds. Couldn’t make it out then, but this is it: ‘those who arrive, survive’.” 
The wind tickled your skin, goosebumps rising and bangs fluttering across your face as you lingered by that sign. In the breeze, a long strap of white fabric caught around your boot, pulled from underneath the train car. You bent down to grab it, brow furrowed at the sight of a used strip of gauze. 
Your heart skipped a beat. 
“Someone was just here.” 
The crossbow was held tighter then, as if he could be any more on edge. 
“How do you know?” He asked through a clenched jaw. 
“The blood.” It looked like Daryl’s had when you changed his bandages every couple of hours instead of days. “It’s fresh.” 
Your eyes snapped to the map again— how big it was. It covered most of the state, by the looks of it. You could roughly pinpoint the prison in the upper left corner and could imagine lines of your own where you’d travelled these months. Between pharmacies and cabins and random sides of the road. 
And whoever had left this bandage… they’d seen it, too. 
“Daryl, look at how far these go.” Your hand traced the lines of railroads, sprawling across Georgia. “This can’t be the only sign. There’s the prison,” you pointed out, “If they have signs across all these tracks then… your people could’ve seen this.” 
Slowly, your hand fell back to your side. The look in your eye was like the sun breaking out from behind the clouds; a glimpse of that brightness he missed so fondly. Sparked by the glimmering hope in your eye, Daryl could feel a flicker of warmth catch in his chest again, and the realization of what you meant sunk in.
“If any of them saw this map, would they go?”
He hadn’t even known he was nodding along until that slight curl of your lip lifted. 
“Maybe we don't need to find them, just this place.” 
Daryl chewed his lip. The lines on the map curved their way through Georgia like vines, crawling through the north, east, west, and south like the ivy he saw across every abandoned building. Who was to say this place was even there anymore? Putting signs up like that, broadcasting their whereabouts for anyone to hear. It sounded more like a last-chance pipe dream than Fort Benning, and he’d already heard how that played out. 
He’d had enough of those soul-crushing losses. Enough fill for an entire life, and then some. He wasn’t sure if he could risk that again. Not when you were just about everything he had left. 
“I dunno. ’S far.” 
“This is our best lead— our only lead.” 
He shook his head. “We dunno ‘em. Dunno if it’s even real.” 
“You didn’t know me.” 
There you were, with raised brows and that look in your eye that somehow reminded him of the forest’s comforts— soft brown fur of nimble squirrels jumping from branch to branch, the bright blue sky breaking through even the thickest trees, green surrounding him like a blanket. 
“And really, where else do we have to go?” 
A forest he’d spend his whole life exploring. 
Eventually, he gave in. A habit he seemed to be picking up when it came to you. 
“Guess it’s worth a try.” 
And there was that smile again, blooming with new hope. 
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A/N: omg hi. I took a long and unplanned hiatus. I won't get into it too much but to recap, in case you care/are curious: I went to nyc for the dead city premiere and had a blast, graduated university, started weightlifting (kinda replaced my twd obsession LOL), got really into GOT, and am now back because for some reason daryl dixon being in paris (????) got me going once more. anyway. im excited to continue this series again!! even if it took every cell in my body to finish this chapter LOL. kinda hate it kinda love it. idk. WHATEVERRRR.
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TWD: Daryl Dixon s1e1 L'ame Perdue part 2
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NORMAN REEDUS in THE WALKING DEAD: DARYL DIXON 1.02 "Alouette"
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Oh, this fic got me back to my Daryl era 🥹
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“Aw, hell,” Daryl drawled, dropping his bag on the floor. “What’s this?”
You and Dog were cuddled up in the bed, snuggled under Daryl’s blankets.
“I leave for one day and ya’ve already replaced me?” he drawled, the corners of his eyes crinkling in a smile as he paced over to the edge of the bed.
You sunk your fingers into Dog’s thick fur and smiled up at Daryl. “Please. You’re absolutely irreplaceable. Dog was just keeping your spot warm while you were out.”
“Yeah, sure… Alrigh’ ya mangy mutt. Off!” Dog let out a soft boof. “Nah! I said off! She ain’t yers, she’s mine!” he argued with the Malinois, causing you to giggle at the exchange. “Dog! Get down! Now! Off!” With another bark and unhappy backtalk growl, Dog finally leapt off the bed and went to lay on the rug. Daryl looked at the spot where he’d been. “Keepin’ my spot warm… and full of dog hair, huh?” He ran a hand over the sheets next to you. “Sand? Dammit. Bed’s filthy,” Daryl said, shooting you a look.
You gave him a sheepish smile. “Oops. I may have taken him to swim in the river. I didn’t realize he brought the beach home.”
Daryl laughed, a deep, gruff, hearty noise that you loved more than life. “Yer worse than he is,” he drawled, leaning toward you to capture your lips in a kiss, his fingers floating to clasp your face and then rest gently along the curve of your neck. “Are ya filthy too?” he asked, a mischievous glint in his blue eyes.
You grinned and bit your bottom lip. “I might be. What of it?”
“Better take ya to get cleaned up righ’ now then. C'mon. Shower time,” he said, starting to wrap his arms around your waist and tug you toward the edge of the bed.
You laughed with delight as Daryl descended on you and then yelled with surprise as Dog launched himself back onto the bed, hopping back and forth over you and Daryl, barking and bouncing on the bed, clearly needing to be involved. “Dog! Enough!” Daryl yelled at him through his own laughter, thrusting an arm out as the Malinois playfully charged toward him. “Dog! Quiet! Jesus Christ! Off!”
“He doesn’t like how you’re manhandling me,” you laughed.
“Get down,” Daryl barked back at Dog, grabbing his collar and gently tugging him off the bed again. “Manhandlin’ ya? I’ll manhandle ya…” His lips descended on your neck and you were more than happy to have them and his hands back on you.
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B&W on set 🖤🏹🤍
#Norman #TWD #Daryllove #onset #family #candid #bts #blackandwhite #love #gorgeous
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No stop because I was just thinking about Aaron coming back from a run (I love him in sportswear ugh) and reader finding him attractive when he's all sweaty and panting and he's like "this?? You like this??"
It's the forearms all over again
a sight for sore eyes
thank you for giving me the excuse to write about this 🤭 minors dni cw; suggestive content, allusions to sex
"you're not serious."
your words caused aaron to stop, halfway to the bathroom with the intention to shower.
he had just returned from his morning run, while you had opted to sleep in. sunlight was streaming into bedroom, the window was opened just a crack. and although a slight breeze would occasionally trail in, you could feel the humidity sticking in the air, which aaron was a clear example of.
your eyes immediately scanned his form, taking notice of the sweaty cowlicks stuck to his forehead, the small pants leaving his mouth, and his attire of athletic wear. his sport shirt was absolutely clinging to his skin and enhancing all of his glory underneath- you could easily see his toned abdomen behind the thin fabric. not to mention, veins were nearly bulging from his forearms. you could already feel a flutter at your core as heat immediately pooled within you, the humidity not to blame.
while he was always irresistible, the sight of his exertion was a whole new level. not to mention, it gave you the welcomed reminder of all the times the two of you were tangled in the sheets together in pure ecstasy.
"what?" aaron breathed out, quirking an eyebrow in confusion. he was still in the midst of catching his breath, his chest heaving up and down.
"what?" you mocked teasingly, as if it should've been obvious. you stretched from your laying position in bed, sitting up on your elbows afterwards, only heightening your current view of him. "you."
"me?"
"yes, you." you let out a heavy sigh, the sides of your mouth tipping up into a smirk as your eyes continued to rake over him. "do you know what you do to me?" your voice came out in a whine.
"really?" amusement was clear in his tone, but he couldn't help but mirror your smirk as well. his hand gestured to the sweat coating him. "you're into this?"
"insanely into this." you scrambled out of bed, eager to get your hands on him. "can't even explain how much."
your fingertips wandered along his torso, allowing you to feel his tight muscles and racing heartbeat. at your touch, aaron's breath hitched in this throat, and you didn't hesitate to press your lips right below his ear.
speaking against his skin and backing him slowly towards the bathroom, you mumbled. "and i intend to take full advantage of it."
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Thank you so much for this amazing reblog 😭😭 I kinda lost my willing to write this couple of weeks but this made me want to go back and type, type, type!!
People like you made this fandom still alive, thank you again.
Muah 🤍
Since you've been gone.
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Pairing: Daryl Dixon x Reader
Era: Season 9
Word count: 2.5k
Plot: Daryl comes home after many years to face the consequences of his actions.
Warnings: ANGST, pure ANGST!
A/N: I've been wanting to write this shared idea I had with @finalgirlrick for a while now, I hope I can break your heart (affectionate).
@weretheones I couldnt done it without u, like always! Ily <3
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Daryl was in pain and he knew it.
He tried to ignore the pang running through the wound for several days but the burning sensation wouldn't cave in and the medical herbs were not being really helpful. 
Deep down he knew he needed help but somehow the idea of coming back to Alexandria stung more than the freshly cut on his face. 
The river flowed quiet and calm, leaving barely any trace of the storm that crashed hard the day before. With one knee on the ground, Daryl watched the water following the trail while contemplating his options. 
It’s been so long since he visited Alexandria. 
When he decided to follow the river in hopes to find Rick’s body he never thought it would take so long, until days, weeks and months passed by. 
But he couldn't stop, the promise he made to Michonne drove his body incessantly. 
He would never admit it, but there were moments when a small part of his heart hoped the reason why he couldn't find a trace was because his brother was alive.
After many years, that hope slowly started to fade away. Every day became harsher, colder, more dangerous. Sometimes he just survived for instinct, not because he really wanted to.
Days like this were tougher, he could deal with some injury across his face but he wasn't sure how devastating it would be for him to come back home and face everything he left behind to pursue something he wasn't successfully accomplishing. 
He never let his mind ramble too much about what was going on back in Alexandria, he knew if he thought about it too much he wouldn't be able to resist dropping everything to go home, to Michonne, to Judith and RJ, to you.
The first years you visited him constantly, bringing food, blankets, fresh clothes or even weapons, anything that could help him out in the woods, trying to be close to him.
Still, that meant you were exposing yourself to the dangers of the path along the river. 
He knew you were capable of handling yourself out in the open but Daryl couldn't bear the thought of you being in danger trying to find him.
This was his task and no one should suffer with him the consequences of his decision, especially you.
“It’s been years, Daryl, you need to take at least a break, come back home, we can think of a new strategy, maybe this time I could come with you and…”
“Just stop” Daryl spoke in a growl without letting you finish. —“Ya shouldn't be here”.
You sighed, you knew you were pushing some dangerous buttons but after so many times of the same conversation over and over, you needed to make sure he heard you.
“I understand Daryl, I really do, but we need you too, I need you.” you begged.
Daryl’s gaze was glued to the ground, paralyzed with the fear of catching your eyes, he knew if he looked at you nothing would stop him from finally hearing your pleas.
“I talked to Michonne, you know? and she isn't expecting you to fulfill the promise, she just wants you back home, we all do” you continued.
Usually, you could read him like a book but right now, you couldn't point out what was going through his mind.
“I… I…  dont think Rick would’ve wanted to see you like this either, Daryl”.
Daryl’s head snapped towards you. His face carried a trace of anger and sadness. 
“I’m never gonna stop looking” he finally said, his tone of voice lower than usual  — “This stops now, I never asked ya to be here”
The feeling of a thousand needles pinching through your body washed you over. You blinked twice, as fast as you could, trying to swipe away the tears that were forming in the corners of your eyes.
It took two long deep breaths for you to finally be able to speak.
“What does that mean Daryl?” you said almost in a whisper, afraid of an answer you already knew. 
Hell, you knew it from the moment that bridge exploded, your legs ran towards Daryl so fast to the sound of the dynamite invading the forest, by the time you got there the flames started to fade away, giving space to dark a fume that took over the sky. 
Your eyes searched everywhere for Daryl until you spotted him a few miles away, crossbow in hand. You yelled his name, twice, and when he finally turned to you, you knew, you could see it in his eyes, devastation consuming his body. Nothing would ever be the same from that moment but you loved him enough to fight and delay the inevitable for years, clinging to a hope that now was slipping right between your fingers.
Daryl took a step back, breaking your thoughts. He paced back and forward trying to gather the courage to speak.
“It means ya need to move on like I did” Daryl’s voice echoed in the silence of the quiet woods.
Daryl closed his eyes to the memory and sighed, that was the last time he saw you.
The way your face contorted with pain when he pronounced those words haunted his dreams almost every night. He knew he hurt you, and he regretted it everyday for the last couple of years.
Sometimes, he wondered if you could forgive him, maybe if he came back home and explained to you he never meant that, you’d take him into your arms like all those nights in the tiny basement of your house in Alexandria. 
His skin was burning, but inside his veins felt loaded with ice, making him shiver.
That wasn't a good sign. The fever was rising fast, shit, there wasn't another option, he needed to go now before he was too weak to make the ride. 
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The guards of the guard tower recognized him immediately, the sound of the angry motor was something hard to ignore. “It's Daryl, let him in!” someone yelled from the inside.
Daryl drove through the gates giving them a thankful nod. Alexandria was different from the last time he was there, the community was thriving under Michonne’s leadership, they were not taking any new members for a long time now but still it felt bigger than usual. 
 “I thought I heard a bike” Aaron approached as soon as the doors closed behind him, extending his arms to give him a big hug.
“It’s been a while” Daryl squeezed his friend’s arm in response.
“It shouldn't be, this is your home too” Aaron gave him a sympathetic smile.
Home He might be back to the place he once called home but he knew the meaning of the term was gone the day he lost you.
“Jesus Daryl, that looks infected” Aaron broke the silence pointing to Daryl’s cut across his face.
“S’ not that bad” Daryl said as he shrugged.
Aaron’s expression changed as soon as he understood the reason behind his sudden visit, tension slowly invading his features.
“Daryl, I think we should talk before you go to the infirmary” Aaron’s tone of voice became serious. “Look, you probably don't know this but…”
“Daddy!” The sudden scream of a child interrupted the conversation. Both men followed the direction of the sound, finding a little girl walking towards them, pouting with fresh tears along her cheeks. 
“What happened sweetheart, are you okay?” Aaron took the little girl in his arms, swiping away the tiny drops. “I’m sorry, let me take her home so we can talk” he frowned — “Don't move, I’ll be back in a minute”.
Daryl nodded watching his friend leave, confused by his words and sudden change of demeanor.
Once the residents spotted him he felt exposed. People greeted him with surprise, some of them came forward to ask him how he was doing while others just stared, clearly unaware of who he was.
Anxiety took the best of him, the chances of running into you were high the longer he stayed there, he thought it was for the best if he could sneak in, get his antibiotics and leave before you notice. 
He owed you at least that.
The small white house came into his sight, pots full of flowers carefully placed following the road to the stairs. His heart raced when he recognized which kind they were: tulips, your favorite ones.
The curtains on the window were open, leaning on the corner outside the door he peeked inside in hopes to see Siddiq there, but what he saw made him freeze, feeling every inch of his skin electrified. 
You were there.
Time didn't seem to pass by you cause he could’ve sworn you looked the same as the last time he saw you, except the pony tail you used to wear everyday was gone, and your hair looked shorter. He smiled recalling how many times you complained about being too long for the damn summer. 
God, he missed you. 
Daryl endured a lot of things down the river, but being away from you was the hardest one.
After your discussion in the woods, he made himself a promise. To make it through, he could never allow himself to think of you. Not because he didn't want to but because he was certain he wouldn't survive if he did it. 
All the feelings he captured inside him all these years were coming out in waves, leaving him in a daze. He wanted to leave, this wasn't what he was planning on, but Daryl felt hypnotized. He drank you in, memorizing for one last time every corner of your beautiful face. 
Siddiq’s frame appeared next to yours, whispering something in your ear that made you chuckle. The scene had a hint of intimacy hidden in the way you both looked at eachother. 
But then, Siddiq’s hands took your waist, pulling you closer to him, until the distance between your bodies disappeared. He placed one kiss on your forehead followed by another one on your lips and you smiled at the action.
Oh
That's why Aaron wanted to talk to him first.
Daryl’s breathing hitched. No, no, no.
Siddiq looked different from the last time Daryl saw him, older, more mature and he could’ve sworn even taller.
He looked like the happiest man on earth. Daryl couldn't blame him, once he felt like that too.
He took your hand giving it one last kiss before waving goodbye, Daryl’s eyes were glued to the action, feeling a strange sense of relief once he left the room.
He didn't know how long he stood there in front of the door but he couldn't move, it felt like the strength from the earth was nailing him to the wooden deck, immobilizing his body. 
Everything hurt, if the fever didn't kill him this certainly would.
Immerse in his thoughts he missed the sound of your steps approaching the door, you opened it before he could make a move.
“Da.. Daryl?!” your eyes widened at him. — “What are you doing here?!”
The shock of having you suddenly so close left him flabbergasted, he remained silent feeling the lump on his throat got bigger, words couldn't physically come out of his mouth.
Your eyes scanned him, you knew Daryl and the only reason he would come back was if he was dangerously injured.
His skin looked pale, and the bags under his eyes were starting to have a purple look but what really concerned you, was the swollen massive cut across his right eye.
You brought your hand towards his forehead, he was burning.
“Oh my god! Come in, come in." — " We need to take care of that, it’s already infected” you rushed him in as fast as you could.
Daryl nodded, still unable to talk.
Sitting on the stretcher Daryl watched your trained hands hurriedly clean up his wound, the smell of your sweet perfume captivated his nostrils every time you leaned over to apply some ointment. He hummed inwardly with delight, even as you were trying to be really careful to not hurt him further, he couldn't feel a thing, his mind was consumed in the sensation of your delicate touch.
“Here, you need to take one in the morning before eating, make sure to have something in your stomach, please” you softly said while giving him a bottle of pills.
“Ya sure don't need this?” guilt pang him, he was strong, two pills would do the trick, he didn't need more.
“Don't fight me, please?, I know what I’m doing” you scolded him tittling your head.
“Yeah, I know” Daryl’s voice came out almost in a whisper.
The tension in the air was palpable, filled with a thousand emotions. There was so much history between the two of you, even if you weren't together now, both of you knew you would always love and care for each other to the end.
Your heart was pounding so hard you were afraid you’d faint right there. You knew you would see Daryl again, sure, but not like this, not after Siddiq just left. 
It took a long time before you could feel like yourself again, days and sleepless nights wondering for years why you weren't enough. Sometimes you would go outside the gates of Alexandria determined to search for him and talk, beg for him to take you back, to love you again. But his words rang loud in your head whenever you approached near the river “It means ya need to move on like I did”.
“M’ sorry” Daryl broke the cruel silence. “I didn't knew”
You closed your eyes, facing the window, unable to look at his face. It was crazy how deep down the feelings you had for him still burned like fire, hearing the sound of his voice made your heart race, attempting to jump out of your chest.
“Are ya happy?” Daryl continued, standing from the stretcher walking over to you. — “I need to know”.
You were happy indeed. Siddiq brought something different in you, a version you enjoyed. His love was calm, easy, steady, exactly what you needed after so much time alone feeling pity for yourself. A breath of fresh air for your drowning soul. 
Sure, it wasn't the fervent passionate love you felt for Daryl, but it was enough to make you happy.
“I am” you simply answered. “And I hope you found the peace you were looking for”.
Daryl nodded, trying to keep himself together. He was truly glad you were happy but the sorrow he felt knowing he wasn't the reason behind overwhelmed him. 
He couldn't blame you. You fought hard for many years to be close to him but the grief blinded him until it was too late. He told you to move on, so you did. It wasn't that hard to understand.
“Thank ya for the medicine and everythin’, angel.” he managed to answer.
Your head buzzed at those words, it took all of your strength to not run into his arms.
“Daryl, I…” you mumbled, hugging yourself afraid of falling apart into pieces. 
Wishing he was a better man, Daryl walked towards the door crushed by the reality he was facing. He raised his eyes to yours for one last time.
“My heart will always belong to ya.” Daryl pronounced before crossing the frame of the front door, landing every word right inside your aching heart.
You watched him leave wondering if you were making a mistake, but fully aware that right now, there was nothing you could do.
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normanplusdaryl · 1 year
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Always brothers ❤️🏹❤️
#Norman #TWD #Darylove #Rickyl #brothers #always #missthem #iddieforyou #love #family
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normanplusdaryl · 1 year
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THIS SOUNDS LIKE A GREAT REQUEST SMH
Hiii Abbi!!
I was wondering if you could write a Criminal Minds x Twd crossover fic, something between Daryl x Spencer Reid x Aaron Hotchner x reader?
This is definitely not Ari. 🤍
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No Ari.
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"The back of your palm landed against his forehead. Hot. Then dropped to his chest, just below his collarbones. Your hand laid flat against that black cotton, stretched over the broad expanse of his chest, and felt that same burning underneath. Daryl hadn’t flinched, he seemed to give up that impulse when the fever took control, but his eyes did flicker down to your touch. "
OH MY GOD, this chapter was so good, they been fighting and running around for so long they needed a break to heal and bond a little more.
I loved how vulnerable Daryl was during his fever episode and was willing to be more open about the past and showing reader how much he cares for her to the point he was willing to sacrifice himself if the herd came in.
AND READER FINALLY PLACING HIS BANGS BEHIND HIS EAR?!!??!?!! EXCUSE ME IM SHAKING AND KICKING AND THROWING UP!!!
CANT WAIT FOR NEXT CHAPTER IM SO FUCKIN EXCITED!!! Pls read this series, its fuckin amazing
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All You Got | Part 7
Part 7: Burning Out
Plot: Daryl Dixon hadn’t known much beyond anger and loneliness his whole life, until he found family at the end of the world. Everything he grew to care about was ripped away the day the prison fell; so when he recognized you, an enforcer of his loss, hiding in that cabin, he almost pulled the trigger. But after you end up saving his life, he couldn’t find the indifference to leave you for dead, even if you’d been on the Governor’s side. (Mid-Late Season 4) 
Series Masterlist | AO3 Version
Paring: Eventual Daryl Dixon x Reader Word Count: 5k Warnings: description of injury, infection, and other typical twd content. mentions of death. A/N: oh hi <3 im happy to be back with a new part for you guys. definitely needed that break. I had my last class of university this week and I've just been a bundle of feelings lately. thank you for being so patient and for all the lovely comments lately :) mwah! enjoy
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These last few years, the fight had been constant— to find shelter, to defend a friend, to get your next meal. Each day was like a knife at your throat, leaving you to wonder when the blade would finally pierce and bleed you dry. 
It was an oddly empty feeling when there was nothing left to do. A gnawing in your gut, like you'd been doing to the raw skin of your thumb the last half hour, as if there was an answer you were forgetting. 
You ran through the list for the ninth time. The last of that antibiotic cream. Dressings coated in a layer of honey— Daryl taught you that one. A damp cloth over his forehead. As much ibuprofen as you could give him. You’d done it all. Now there was nothing left to do but wait for the fever to break. 
It was miserable. 
The room was dark, lit by a single candle. Sometimes it flickered with your occasional sigh. Otherwise, it cast a gentle glow across the small bedroom. You sat in a cushioned chair by the door, five feet from Daryl’s bedside. It had been in the living room until you dragged it in here yesterday, falling into the same routine as you did now. Chin resting in your palm and a lazy stare at the sick man ahead. 
It’d gotten bad since that first day. Infection came— of course, it did— and without much more than that antibiotic cream and the rest of the drugs you'd used for your leg, Daryl was forced to fight through it. That meant long, feverish nights like this one. 
Waiting. 
“Ya jus’ gonna stare at me all night?” 
You sat up. His eyes were narrowed into a slit, but open. With only the low flicker of the candle beside you, they almost looked black. 
“You’re awake.” 
“Guess so,” Daryl mumbled. “Hot as hell in ‘ere.” 
He was already stripped of his vest, that flannel he wore on cold nights, and his boots. Yesterday, in one of his steadier moments, you’d dug a simple black t-shirt from the dresser and made him change. It took him a couple of minutes, his shoulder still stiff and swollen with infection. It gave you time to wash his usual sleeveless button-down as best as you could, though a litter of blood stains still dried across the fabric. 
As you stepped closer, flickering candle in hand, you could see the damp mark of sweat around his collar, but if anything, the room was cool. 
“Your fever’s getting worse.” 
You grabbed the cloth from his forehead. It was tepid on the edges, warm where it rested against his skin. Puffy eyes met yours, scanning your serious expression. He’d been asleep for hours. You’d only managed to get a few with that anxious pit in your stomach waking you up, over and over. 
“Feel like shit.” He adjusted his spot, sitting up against the pile of pillows behind him with a low groan. You passed him his bottle of water and placed it back after he’d had a few sips. 
“How long I been sleepin’?” 
“Most of the night.” You sat by his legs. The bed was bare of its thick blanket; you’d torn it off him when his skin started to burn. The top sheet was thin enough that you let him keep it when the chills hit. He kicked it down when the first hot flash came. “You woke up a couple of times.” 
“Don’t remember tha’.” 
“I figured. You’ve been pretty out of it.”
Daryl nodded, eyes as tired as they’d looked at sunset. Yours must’ve been similarly drained. 
“Ya got any sleep yet?” 
“A bit,” you said. “I’m fine.” 
“Ya don’t look fine.” 
You gave him a playful, lopsided grin. “You sure know how to make a girl feel special.” 
Daryl huffed, eyes falling to his lap. But your tease had done what it meant: to distract away from the bloom of purple that was, no doubt, forming under your eyes. Those sickening worries about Daryl’s health were already suffocating. You didn’t need the weight of your well-being piled on top. 
“You hungry?” 
He hummed yes. That was a good sign, you thought, before drifting out of the room. 
Dawn was still a few hours away. You walked the dark halls of the house you’d come to know, and a few minutes later, that same candlelight welcomed you back into the bedroom Daryl stayed in. You had a bowl of steaming chicken soup and a half-eaten package of crackers in hand. It was a good thing you’d gone for the bag, after all. If you hadn’t, it would’ve been just another thing to worry about.
His appetite was low, but better than it’d been the last couple of days. There were still three crackers he hadn’t touched and a quarter of soup left, but he seemed adamant about having the rest later. Food was often in such short supply that he wouldn’t dare waste a bite. 
“Thanks,” he muttered. 
You placed his bowl of leftover soup and the half-eaten package of crackers on the dresser you’d raided for cloth, towel, anything that could be boiled sterile and made into a bandage when that roll of gauze finally ran out after his second dressing change. 
Back at his side, you gave him a small smile. “Still feel like shit?” 
He chewed his lip. “Shoulder’s throbbin’ somethin’ awful. Head too.” 
There was a small bump in his hairline left from that day. He hadn’t caught a concussion, but the fever had been giving him a wicked headache. 
“There’s another hour until you can take the next round of painkillers.” You dipped the cloth back into a small bowl of water. Rubbing your thumb along the inches that had become warm, you waited for the fabric to cool. Droplets trickled down as you rang it out, causing ripples to catch in the faint light. It was the only noise in the air, save Daryl’s slow, heavy breaths. 
Until you turned and he caught that dispirited expression across your face. It must’ve been particularly obvious; the candlelight barely reached your face at this angle. As you stepped closer, the glow curtained you in delicate gold. An easy warmth that looked quite special painted across your gentle features, even if they were hinted with regret. 
The closer you got, the harder his head pounded. No, his heart. Which seemed to echo in his head. 
His eyes shifted away when you found that spot next to him again. 
“Should save ‘em anyway.” 
“No. This is what they’re meant for.” 
He huffed as you placed the cloth on his head. As your fingers inched closer to his skin, he blinked rapidly. It wasn’t quite a flinch, but you felt the resistance all the same.
“Still. Might need ‘em later.” 
“You need them now,” you challenged. “We’ll have time to find more when you’re better.” 
When. 
“Guess you’re the boss.” 
You scoffed. If anything was in charge, it was that fever. 
“Is there anything you can think of that could help? Another pillow or…” You shook your head, not even sure what else you could offer. 
He rolled his good shoulder back, biting back a groan as he found a comfortable spot against the bed. “‘M alright.” He nodded, even sparing you the smallest curl of his mouth. 
You gave him a bittersweet smile back, fighting the urge to brush his bangs behind his pinkened ear. His cheeks were flushed too, even if he seemed to be retreating back into the warm bed. Perhaps the hot flash was nearing its end. 
“You should drink some more. It’ll help.” You handed him the water again. 
He took small sips. 
It wasn’t until a few minutes later when a distant thump came from the other side of the house, and Daryl didn’t jump up, that you realized just how out of it he was. Thick in the fog of fever and pain, his senses were dull. On the contrary, the twitching in your muscles had started hours ago, a cruel mix of exhaustion and restlessness. It made you more jumpy than sharp, but demanded your attention for every small creak in the house the same. 
Your shoulders tensed, and your head snapped to the side. 
Daryl noticed that. 
“Wha’?” He grumbled. 
A gun sat on the small table next to your chair, next to the book you couldn't read well enough under only candlelight. You stood up and grabbed it, weighing the heavy handle in your palm. You made a mental note to keep your twitching finger off the trigger. 
“Stay put. I’m serious,” you told Daryl with a quick stern glance and closed the bedroom door behind you. 
The wooden floors whined even under the slowest, steadiest steps you could manage. The hallway was thin, drywall stained with cigarette smoke. There were two doors ahead, one on the right leading to a small linen closet and one on the left that passed into the kitchen. Quietly, you made your way to the general area where the noise had come from, near the kitchen, while raising the gun Ross gave you. The exit to the back porch was there and, fuck, what if someone had snuck in? What if they had a gun and cruel intentions and what if you had to— 
Deep breath. 
You hovered in the same spot for a second longer, waiting for the drum of your heart to slow. It wasn’t much, but at least you were able to open your eyes without that dizzy fog suffocating you again. 
It was only a few more steps to the kitchen’s doorway. With your back to the wall, you reached the hallway’s end and peeked around the corner. 
Good thing you only peeked. 
A figure caught under the moonlight. It shuffled past the small window, looking out to the side of the house. Shadows cascaded onto the cheap tile floors. Two— three— four walkers stumbled past the wrap-around porch. It reminded you of that first night after the prison fell. How Daryl stood watch all night with nothing but his bow as a herd of the dead moved through the street, surrounding the house he'd dragged you into. All night, you sat on that couch, nursing your hurt leg, watching the dance of their shadows along the walls, and avoiding Daryl’s abrasive stare. Waiting for the moment they finally knocked down the door and took you into their cold fingers first. 
This herd didn’t seem as big. Maybe a few dozen. You could only guess from the noise of bodies thumping carelessly into the house’s siding. 
Carelessly— that was good. It meant they hadn’t realized you were here yet. Best keep it that way. 
Delicately, you snuck back to the small bedroom. The thick curtains were already drawn, and that single candle was soft enough that you weren’t inclined to race back and blow it out. 
You opened the door again, and, well, should’ve guessed Daryl would’ve been out of bed, knife in hand and about to open the door himself. The gun slipped into the holster at your belt, and your eyes sought out his. They were uneasy, red-rimmed with dilated pupils.  
“It’s just a group of walkers passing by,” you said in a hushed whisper. “Get back in bed.” 
“How many?” 
“Maybe a couple dozen.” You gently pushed him back toward the bed, twisting the knife out of his grip as you did so. “They didn’t see me, so we can just wait it out.” 
“Ya can’t take ‘em all on.” 
“That’s why we're gonna stay here and be quiet.” 
“You should go.” 
You blinked. 
“What?” 
“If those assholes get in ‘ere, you run,” he said. His voice was hoarse and his accent thicker. “Don’t worry ‘bout me.”
Your brows furrowed. Your whisper was soft, even if pitched with confusion, “Daryl, they don’t know we’re here. They’re not coming in.” 
There was a fog in that usual bright blue. It wasn’t from the dim lighting, either. He was dazed. 
The back of your palm landed against his forehead. Hot. Then dropped to his chest, just below his collarbones. Your hand laid flat against that black cotton, stretched over the broad expanse of his chest, and felt that same burning underneath. Daryl hadn’t flinched, he seemed to give up that impulse when the fever took control, but his eyes did flicker down to your touch. 
You shook your head. “You’re burning up. You don’t know what you’re saying.” Your hand hadn’t fallen off him yet, a lingering touch as the rhythm of his heart became a soft pulse underneath your palm. Gently pressing him back toward the bed, you hushed, “Lie back down. Relax. We’ll be fine.” 
He listened. Whatever that outburst had been about seemed to slip away with the cushion of an old mattress underneath him. It felt like a new weight lifted off your shoulders; you weren’t sure if you could sit through a lecture about how you should leave him for dead. After all he’d done, all you’d done, that just wasn’t an option. 
You sat beside him again. “Here.” You held a pill in the same palm that’d landed on his chest. 
“Thought it was too early?” 
“One more isn’t gonna kill you.” 
The fever could.
He glanced down at the small blue capsule. “How many left?” 
You almost laughed. Feverish, incoherent, and still stubborn. 
“Enough. You need them.” 
If you told him there were only three more pills in that bottle, he’d refuse. You held your tongue and he tossed them into his mouth. Swallowed, leaned back, and groaned. 
“Water?” 
“Elderberries,” he muttered. Your brow furrowed, and he gave you a weak shrug. “Hershel used ‘em for the fever, ‘fore we got back.” 
Hershel. 
You remembered that name. Of course, you did. The Governor had called it out right before he used him as a bargaining chip. Hershel, the man with the long white hair. He’d kneeled in front of that fence, tan shirt damp with sweat and hands tied behind his back. Even tried to reason with the Governor. It was his neck that poured blood, him that inched his way around the cars you were hiding behind when the bullets started flying. 
Until the Governor cornered him. Chopped into his neck three times before his head finally rolled across the bloody grass. 
The memory made your skin pale, your breathing pause. 
A second later, when your vision focused again, Daryl’s eyes were closed. His chest raised and fell with deep breaths, his heavy exhales tickling your clammy skin. 
After you’d had a moment to regain your composure, you asked, “‘Got back’?” 
You weren’t following his train of thought. It seemed to go beyond the weeks the two of you had shared, reaching into his time spent at the prison. That part of his life had been mostly out of bounds for you. Blocked from the casual conversation you sometimes fell into. 
The fever seemed to tear those boundaries down.
“The vet college. We had to— to get the meds for the sick ones,” he muttered under his breath. 
The cloth sitting on his forehead had fallen onto the bed, presumably when he’d gotten up to follow you. Your boundaries seemed to slip away, too; you finally brushed away the damp mess of bangs on his forehead, tucking a few strands behind his ear. 
There was a part of Daryl that never seemed to let up. It went deeper than stubbornness. He was strong, innately, even when his body was failing him. You knew it took a lot out of him to try and follow you out, and had probably brought on some kind of dizzy spell that was making him spill his guts now. 
“Elderberries,” you repeated. “I think I remember. If you make tea, they can help bring down a fever.” 
“Mhm.” 
“Smart man,” you said under your breath. 
He still caught it. Fever and all. 
“He was.” Daryl nodded slowly. His eyes seemed to glaze over again. “He was a good man.” 
A lump caught in your throat, stealing your voice. That old feeling of guilt sunk into you again. 
“I’m sorry,” you whispered. “He didn’t deserve it. None of you did.” 
“Should’a kept lookin’.” 
It was overdue, you thought. Daryl didn’t seem the patient type, not when it came to his own body, at least. Give him a long hunt, he’d be fine. A wound that kept him bedbound? He was itching for something— anything— to do. The worrisome fact that his family was still out there couldn’t have helped. 
You sighed, “We will—” 
“For the Governor.” 
Oh.
“Maybe if I wouldn’a gave up…” 
He sunk deeper into the pillow, mouth moving as incoherent whispers slipped past. 
It dawned on you that Daryl was perhaps his most vulnerable right now. Maybe even more so than when you first cleaned his back. In this moment, that surly, reserved man slipped away to leave someone who… who seemed lost. Guilty, like you. His words left you confused, filling in the gaps in his story, his regrets. 
He’d been looking for the Governor. If you had to guess, which you did, you’d assume after he killed Merle. Daryl had issues with his brother, no doubt, but he’d proved time and time again to be fiercely loyal. To his brother, his people, even you. Why he’d give that up, you couldn’t say. But Daryl didn’t seem irrational, or disinterested. There had to have been a reason— something— to pull him back. 
There was an undeniable part of you that ached to hear more, to let him bare himself to you in ways he hadn’t dared before. Curiosity could prove to be a dangerous thing. The trust between the two of you was fresh. Delicate. Leading him on with questions or letting him ramble in the midst of a daze, could rip it to shreds. 
You refolded, then placed the cloth back on his forehead. 
“Elderberries,” you whispered again. “I’ll look in the morning.” 
The walkers outside were still too close. 
It was quiet for a while. Daryl drifted off to sleep quickly and the dead passed thirty minutes after. You curled in the chair again, chin perched in your palm, leaning over the armrest. There was still that gnawing feeling in your gut. Still that worry that you could be doing more— should be. 
But exhaustion had dulled caution when the dead passed that half hour ago. Your blinks slowed, moments of darkness stretching into seconds, then minutes, and it became nearly impossible to keep your eyes open. 
The last thing you saw was a thin ray of early morning light, slipping between a gap in the curtains. Barely noticeable, until it had landed across Daryl’s face.
It seemed as good a sign as any, you thought, before drifting to sleep.
— 
The fever broke the night of the herd. Cups of elderberry tea helped subdue the few symptoms that lingered, and the stream of puss from his wound seemed to reach an end, after all. Four more days passed by and with them, the constant stress and anxiety that plagued you those late nights. 
A few more hours of sleep under your belt and life had become calm. Idle, even. 
The wind was lazy, its soft huff could barely rustle the fallen leaves. Hues of red, yellow, and anything in between scattered the woods, stretching into the backyard. A sharp crunch under your boot. There was a bite to the air, but the new berries you found had lasted through the weather’s turn. 
All those chilly mornings and early sunsets were not in vain; autumn was here, and winter was nearing, too. Though the cottage had been good enough while Daryl healed, it wasn’t suited to become a permanent stay. Certainly not a home. The surrounding trees were too dense, the walls too thin, and it didn’t matter how many strings of cans you set as alarms since the herd passed that night, you couldn’t sleep without one eye open. 
Even if it hadn’t been for his people still being out there, you’d have to leave. 
With the small bag in one hand, you pulled the first alarm string above your head. It chimed in the wind until it steadied again. It was an effective system; Daryl was opening the back door before you even had a chance to break through the tree line. 
You passed into the backyard with a smile. 
“Hey,” you said.
“Hey. Find anythin’?” 
“Just some berries.” 
The morning’s sun had drifted away within the last ten or so minutes. It wasn’t much of a shock to find the sky had darkened with heavy-looking clouds. 
“We should go in, looks like it's gonna rain,” you said, sliding between his frame and the door. 
It didn’t take long to place those buckets around the porch, just past its cover. A couple of empty, uncapped water bottles sat next to them. It didn’t take long for the rain to start, either. 
Inside, the small table in the kitchen was homemade. Shoddy work, but it could balance the few candles you’d found in the basement when night came. You picked the berries clean of their stems while Daryl confirmed the findings of your foraging were, in fact, edible.
Maybe at the start, when your brother had found that survivalist book, you would’ve been able to tell. But that got lost a mere month after he found it. Since then, you’d only stuck with the basics. What you knew was safe, without a doubt. That meant you spent a lot of time scavenging abandoned buildings instead of the woods. 
Daryl, on the other hand, seemed to know the forest better than anyone. You could assume from that deep accent and the fact that he never cringed at mud on his skin that he wasn’t a city kid. No, he probably grew up in the sticks. The middle of nowhere. In this world, that kind of experience was invaluable. You’d spent many hungry nights, staring at a bush of unrecognizable berries, wondering what could’ve been if you’d had it, too. 
By the time the two of you were done, a damp cold settled along the walls. The rain had been pouring down for some time. It wasn’t as harsh as it had started, but the cool, moist air was sinking in. The temperature of the usually feverish sun dropped, hidden behind grey clouds. 
Daryl started a fire with that wood you’d found a couple of days ago. The pile was dwindling faster than expected; the nights had been cold. The short flames reached up to the bottom of a pot you’d positioned. You poured some rainwater inside, then tossed in a couple rags to sterilize, and waited for it to reach a boil. 
By the time Daryl heard those bubbles begin to break the surface, you had wandered back to that back door, standing with the heat of the fire to your back and the cool breeze brushing across your face. 
You heard his steps approach behind you. 
“I like the rain.” 
Daryl stood at your side, quiet. 
“I always loved that smell, too.” You inhaled a deep breath, staring beyond the porch. “Do you remember what that’s called?” 
“Nah.” Daryl shook his head. “Jus’ called it rain.” 
You grinned. “Well, regardless. I always liked it.”
He watched the rain come down. It soaked the fallen leaves and dampened the soil. The breeze was slow, weaving its way through dripping trees. The roof was a weak material, something cheap and old, and echoed a low patter of rain. It made everything feel softer. Muted. 
“Me too.” 
You glanced over your shoulder, that grin slipping into a tender smile, kind and sweet. Daryl met your look, felt that bloom of familiarity in his chest, and gestured you to come back in. The cold would become bitter again and inside was warm, so you followed. 
He sat by the fire, arms wrapped around bent knees. He’d peeled off his vest, then his flannel, and finally pulled down the left sleeve of his shirt. Just like the first day you checked his wound. You sat behind him, a small pillow under your knees and the freshly boiled rags sitting in a clean bowl to your left. 
That little routine the two of you had fallen into— you’d come back to Daryl, who’d help deal with whatever you scavenged that morning, before you cleaned his wound, then ate— came easy. He’d gotten less tense every time you had to face his bare shoulder again. Which was frequent, unfortunately, since the exit wound had proved more troublesome than the smaller entrance. 
That heavy pit in your gut at the thought of those scars and their cruelty hadn’t alleviated much though. 
“How’s it feeling today?” 
“Better.” 
You nodded and unwrapped the bandage. The fever had been the height of that infection that hit him a few days ago. During the worst of it, his wound had swelled and reddened, leaking a trail of puss that reminded you why you could have never been a nurse like your brother. Today, the swelling was gone and the redness cleared. It was improving.
“It looks better, too.” 
“About time,” Daryl huffed. 
On the other hand, his attitude hadn’t improved. 
You sighed, “It’s only been a couple of days.” 
“’S been a week.” 
“You were shot.” You passed the rag along the few dried bits of puss, careful to leave the growing scab undisturbed. “It takes a while to heal from that.” 
“We don’t got a while.”
“I know.” Your jaw tightened.
Daryl was becoming more agitated with his rest as the days dragged on. Cabin fever, maybe. It must’ve been especially bothersome for a man like him, someone who seemed to feel more comfortable in the woods than four walls and a roof, to be trapped here. Especially when neither of you had forgotten the whole point of running house to house in the first place— finding his friends. 
“But we agreed. You need to let this heal as long as it can before we leave.” 
“Trail could’a gone cold by now.” 
Even with your eyes on the back of his neck, drifting down the outgrown strands of dark brown hair reaching to the cuff of his shirt, you could almost see him chewing his lip. It turned out that Daryl’s unease had become mixed up with yours some time ago. By now you could feel that stiffness in his muscles, as if it was in you, too. 
“It could’ve.” You dropped the last strip of clean cloth back into the bowl. “It could be fine, too.”
Daryl glanced back at you over his shoulder. It made you freeze— he hadn’t offered any attention other than the small talk you shared while you patched him up. Not until now, when those narrow blue eyes burned into you, demanding your attention. 
It was almost instinctual, that warm smile you offered. Still, you were sure he could notice that somber look in your eye. The one that remembered the fear and urgency you felt while in pursuit of your brother— before it ended the way it did. 
He seemed to notice every hint of emotion that slipped past your grip. 
“Dwelling on it won’t help us find them any faster,” you said. 
You glanced over his expression, almost leisurely in your inspection. His lips were parted slightly, jaw slack. Though he wasn’t angry, there was a heaviness in the pretty blue of his eyes. Lately, you were realizing that might be permanent. 
While it was sweet, your smile didn’t do much to soothe his urgency or frustration. He turned back. 
“I can’t keep doin’ nothin’.” 
You swallowed, bandaging a clean strip of cloth around his shoulder as the tone shifted. 
“Four days ago you could barely get out of bed.” you firmly stated. “And two days ago, you could barely lift your bow.” 
“‘M fine now,” he snapped. 
“You’re still healing.” 
“Yeah, well, I don’t care.” 
The cloth reached its end and you paused. Going in circles with him was exhausting. It made your stomach flutter with anxiety, too. This routine the two of you had fallen into, something idle and restful, was comfortable. He was comfortable. 
Maybe even a friend. 
“Well, I do,” you replied. “I guess I like you too much to risk you getting hurt worse.” 
Daryl glanced at you from the corner of his eye. Subtle enough that you almost hadn’t noticed. 
“Thought we didn’t have to like each other,” he retorted in a lighter tone from his previous. 
“It makes things a lot easier, don’t you think?” You smirked. “And if you can’t aim that bow, you’re kinda stuck with me anyway.” 
You, like anyone else nowadays, knew what it was like to lose a friend. You certainly didn’t want to lose Daryl— whatever it was you had with him— from perhaps a curse of your own overprotectiveness. It was hard to let someone go back into that dangerous world after you learned how bright their blood ran, but this thing you two shared was fragile. Trusting. If Daryl said he was ready, you had to be willing to give him a chance. 
So, with a cautionary glance at his new bandage, you gave in an inch. 
“One more day.”
His mouth opened, but you snapped before he could, “It's bad enough we’re leaving while you’re still hurt. I’m not doing it in the middle of a storm, either.” 
The rest of the day Daryl was still tense. Emotionally, at least. He practiced picking up his crossbow, balancing the weight in his hands. You packed both bags, boiled and bottled all the water you could carry, and hoped this was the right thing to do. The rain didn’t let up until long past sunset. 
When morning finally came and the sun broke through grey clouds, you followed through on your word. Backpacks stuffed full, your boots landed across that empty road and the two of you finally left that little house for good.
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A/N: slower part, but I think they need that right now. it can't all be fighting and running and shooting and blah blah. I love these little interactions between them as they grow closer <3 I hope u do too!
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