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Had a terrible terrible headache last night, i had to take two meds! The day ended good but I hate more biscuits than what I planned.

Stay strong!!!

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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The best feeling ever is feeling fuckin cold.

I. HAVE. CONTROL.

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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Selfharmed the first night, what the fuck?!

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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About to leave for the clinic. Must lose 4 kg in a month!! Wish me luck, I need it!!!

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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Im doing good, but even like this its not ok. I miss my friend so much.

I three days im going to the clinic center. There i will starve for sure... Last time i went there i lost weight.

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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You called me lazy without knowing I was busy trying to keep myself alive

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At this time everything is upside down and I dont know what to do...

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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Broke the first fast at 20 hours, I was dead. Why am i such a disgusting failure????

Here the hard part starts. Gonna stsy strong!

Near 20 hours of fasting. And for me its a lot!!

[oldundercontrol]

Here the hard part starts. Gonna stsy strong!

Near 20 hours of fasting. And for me its a lot!!

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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Im into a 20 hours fasting.

Actually the last time I ate was yesterday night at 10 and now here its 13am so im into an easy fast from about 15 hours. Ill manage to do a slow walk or nothing I dont know.

Stay strong!

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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I think that is a like a proof test. I feel alone, my mind is upside-down, I cant think about something that I immediately start suffering so I stop all the emotions and I eat. Or I badly sh, or I have a crisis. In two months Im going to a clinic center for my disease and it is the same center where I have been immediately after I quit drugs. That place is a paradise for me and I hope to find myself, just a bit is enough. I had an argument with a loved friend and I feel so shitty rn.

I wake up thinking that im going to have control over food and i end up binging.

I hope i will control food better when ill be at the clinic, i wont have food around me.

Also, my mom is making me suffer. I would like it wasnt her to make me suffer but it is what it is.

I dont trust my therapist anymore. So much time so much time went wrong.

Thanks God I have my Penny, my little cat and in some days I'll take a little abandoned black dog. Cant wait.

PET THERAPY WORKS!

Stay strong everybody. We had today, we have tomorrow.

#analog #anamia #anarecja #getting skiny #4na #only pr0 for myself #skinnnny #model thin

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“The only way out of the labyrinth of suffering is to forgive.”

— John Green

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“Some steps need to be taken alone. It’s the only way to really figure out where you need to go and who you need to be.”

— Mandy Hale