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“All of a sudden two decades have passed and you still have not kissed anyone with tongue, or kissed anyone at all for that matter, or had a 3 AM conversation with someone who would rather look into your eyes for ten minutes straight than talk. You have never worn a lover’s sweater or “forgotten” it at home in your bedroom just so you would have an excuse to see them again. You have never even stood face-to-face with someone who makes your hands shake so hard it feels like they’re both having a separate anxiety attack. This causes you much guilt and self-blame and sadness but above all, an overwhelming curiosity. Are you really that ugly, that unwanted, that uninteresting, that boring, that no one, absolutely no one, has ever looked at you like the only thing on earth? The answer is no. The better answer is that someone out there, somewhere in the world, is “wondering what it’s like to meet someone like you,” and they have two decades worth of love stored in their veins like a shoot-‘em-up drug, and they’re just about ready to inject it into someone else’s bloodstream. All you have to do is roll up your sleeves and wait for it to happen. At times you felt so lonely you could stand at the edge of a cliff with nothing beneath you but air and grass and a long, long way down, and you’d still feel emptier than that canyon itself. Maybe you even danced with yourself alone in your room a few times, arms outstretched around a ghost, pretending someone else’s hands were on your waist, someone else’s eyes boring into yours. Or maybe you fell temporarily in love with strangers on public transportation, fell in love with anybody who so much as accidentally brushed your hand on the way past. For you, falling in love with dozens of people a day was a coping mechanism for not having anyone to love you in return. But people are not eggs and falling in love with a dozen of them does not mean your shell will remain uncracked. One day you’re going to hit the point where you’re so desperate for human contact that you’re going to snap in half and all your love will bleed out like egg yolk. But someone out there is eating a bowl of Ramen noodles right now, or putting on slippers, or settling into bed. They are doing all the normal things that you’ve done in your own life. They are just like you. They have cellulite and extra fat in all the wrong places and goals and fears and doubts and bad handwriting. The truth is that they are just like you, and being just like you, they’re looking for a lover too. They’re what you might call a soulmate. They think they’re all alone in feeling the way they do, but you’re really both two halves of a whole. And one day you’ll meet them, bump into them on the street, and your two halves will be put together, and you’ll make one.”

— Writings For Winter - For Twenty Year-Olds who have never been loved  (via beepboopboopbeep)

#i am legit crying rn #i want someone to laugh and joke with #someone to bake with #to read dumb cheesy poems to #someone to belong to and to call home #i am 25 and it feels like everytime i have the chance to #i ruin it through my own failure as a human being

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This is what Jesus saw

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the government. 

#don't you see #your bowels #your intestines #your anus #its all controlled by Big Poop

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This just made me shed a tear. They want the breakfast menu I am so sensitive

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primates being dangerous and unethical pets is just what the lamestream media wants you to believe! also, unrelated, but a marmoset ripped off a chunk of my ear,

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#its haunted nature is a selling point (i will die young)

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i run around like a fraggle

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Have you guys seen the golden cow its pretty cool. probably even cooler than God

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<|:) wizard

<\:) the cooler wizard

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Without fuss, a mutual unfollows another mutual. I sense it instantly. A coldness envelops. The pact has been forsaken, the community unravels piece by piece

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when ur nonbinary and u feel The Gender™ sneaking up on u

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did you guys know that if you put a candle wall and a magic-circle flooring together with the lights off... this happens

#YO YOU CAN GET A MAHIC CIRCLE IN THIS #THIS CHANGES EVERYTHING

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La vida siempre te puede sorprender, aunque tengas 79 años