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You can give up

And it all goes away

Down the drain

Called nothing

When that discredits every step

When that hits restart on all your progress

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I’m literally an alive

living

“Human”

Person

I bleed

I turn to concrete

Heart beat,

Blood heat

Imperfect

Dorkish, wack o, goon

What else am I suppose to do?

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You’re an edger who likes to play blame

A detective who just wants to know everything

You have the power to dictate

True life goal

Invade any uncertainty

Eliminate anything that can be seen as a problem to solve

You don’t want to think

Only direct

Such a stream of consciousness

Requiring no thought

Only instinct

I am naturally neutral

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I need more

Now I need more

Thought my immaturity was desperation

This is internal frustration

A bomb of repression

To keep me from shriveling up

I’ve got to see taste or feel

Something

Or I’m going to

Become a great prune.

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Everyone’s eyes see

Inwardly

We all know the truth

No matter how delusional

We can set our priorities

Feelings to follow

Taken actions,

Intention is everything

And absentminded(ignorance)

Or we wouldn’t have remorse

Wouldn’t know true romance

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Crazy (cool)

spin too fast around me, try to trap me,

Force me to play by your rules

And you’ll get dizzy

You already know I bite

Adrenaline running out

You think you go deeper than “crazy”

Can you commit

I’m beautiful & cool

Bashful & centered

Cream is one of my favorite words

I’m a freak

You Tried

to test? Me

With no intention

Of ever even

dreaming

About

Keeping

me??

<\3

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I’ve realized my power

Im not in anybody’s web

Not an ant but a whole colony

a free agent

Working for myself

Countless others animal lives

It’s a miracle I’m still standing

How almost

Complete

All the time

Emptied

All the time

Completely

Almost

Out

Too

Often

To

Count

Tired

Exhausted

Nothinged

I am

Because

Everyone is afraid

Unless they’re happy

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There’s so much I don’t know

I find that adventurous.

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Love seeing what I’ll do

When you think I don’t know you’re watching

I’m watching you

Unless you think otherwise

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If you can’t see I’m the top choice

You’re going to miss me

Maybe for the rest of your life

Because no one has the time to wait

Not you

Or anybody

Except, maybe, me..

Because I’m,

Like

*twirls X*

Like

Really

Really

Patient.

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..💔🖤💔..

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I need to find my voice again

I need to write with meaning

Or to make my own fun

Dream again

Believe

In me

Everything I want to be

Even if you refuse to see(feel) me

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Unfamiliar heaven