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I learned about maladaptive daydreaming a long time ago. I made this blog around middle school or high school to find a community and people who understand. Its been completely welcoming, funny, sad, and everything that i needed when my madd was out of control.

It felt like the same day every day, going to school, making weird faces and almost whispering to myself the whole time while daydreaming, and going home. As soon as i was home, i would pace around and stim, and i would daydream for hours on end. I thought i hid it well, until my family would constantly mock me for “pacing in my room all the time”.

I remember pacing around so fast that i would constantly hit my legs or twist them the wrong way. I always had bruises on my ankles and leg pain because of it. I remember stimming with my hands too, especially the painful ones. At one point it was lightly slapping my hands, and when i got too into the daydream I would accidentally slap myself so hard i was snapped back to reality. Another one was rubbing my knuckles together, i remember doing them two different ways. Again, i would get too excited and my hands would be in a lot of pain.

And i would daydream so often that it became an important aspect of me, something that i felt like i needed to do, something that i couldn’t resist or stop. If i couldnt daydream, if i was interrupted, or if i was too frustrated, it was basically the end of the world. It was controlling me. It affected my grades in school, my friendships, and my relationship with my family.

Now im in my second year of university. Im not really sure when, but it got a lot better. When I catch myself daydreaming and pacing, and its easier to stop myself and move on to something else. I dont even stim with my hands anymore, and i never pace enough to cause any pains in my legs.

I still daydream an unusual amount for a normal person, and i still show signs of madd, but it kind of hit me that it’s not the same. Im doing well in school, and its easier to hang out with my friends and my family. I dont really lock myself in my room to daydream, and I dont daydream and whisper to myself as often when i’m in public. Somehow, i got better?

Im not sure if its because i’m older, or if its because i’ve had more responsibilities on me, or something else, but it made me emotional to think that things genuinely got better, and things aren’t the way they used to be. I’m not suffering like I once did. And the best part is, I feel like i can still daydream in a way that’s not hurting me or others around me.

I don’t know if anyone will actually read this, but I hope you’ve gotten better too. I hope that madd won’t rip your life away from you anymore. I hope that you’ll be able to get rid of these awful habits, or at least minimize them. I hope that you can still daydream and keep your para’s in a healthy way.

♥️♥️♥️

#god what do i even tag this as #is it written well? no. but also its almost 4 am #my post #madd #maladaptive daydreaming

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I’m sure this has been discussed more than a million times but TikTok learning about maladaptive daydream has probably been the worst thing ever. So many people are confusing it just for “daydreams before bed” or “me winning a fake argument in the shower” and it makes me want to explode. Somebody said they would rate it 10/10 as a coping mechanism??? U MEAN THE DISORDER??

it makes me wanna cry and throw up knowing that I probably won’t ever be taken seriously about this if I ever try to tell anyone

#A WONDERFUL THING??? #STOP THIS MADNESS

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TikTokers when they read the proposed MaDD diagnostic criteria and learn it has to impair their life in some form or fashion and isn’t just about fantasizing about things in their free time

#AAAAAAAA AAA AA AAAAA #madd

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when youre daydreaming about being comforted by one of your paras and then you come out of the daydream and there is no one there for you irl. lord

#madd

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I’m sure this has been discussed more than a million times but TikTok learning about maladaptive daydream has probably been the worst thing ever. So many people are confusing it just for “daydreams before bed” or “me winning a fake argument in the shower” and it makes me want to explode. Somebody said they would rate it 10/10 as a coping mechanism??? U MEAN THE DISORDER??

it makes me wanna cry and throw up knowing that I probably won’t ever be taken seriously about this if I ever try to tell anyone

#bitch came back from the dead just to cry and scream and throw up #madd #maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #my post #actuallymadd #maddnegative

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I just realized something... It doesn't matter if someone out there is reading your mind (even if you're having sexual/violent daydreams) because what are they gonna do???? Out you? Tell someone about it? That would require them to not only tell people that they're a mind reader but also have to say out loud whatever it was you were thinking. So like who cares if someone is reading your mind while you're having weird daydreams, in fact make them even weirder, make sure that mind reader is terrified to repeat anything from your mind out loud

#oh my god youre absolutely right….. #years of me thinking of this and u really solved my paranoia huh #madd

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Can a person self-diagnose MDD?

Maladaptive daydreaming disorder isn’t an official disorder (yet?) so it’s not possible to get it diagnosed professionally 🏃‍♂️ so yeah everyone who claims to have it is self diagnosed so far but I think it’s definitely good to do some good research if you’re questioning!!

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What do you daydream the most about?

Hii!! Usually just whatever I’m currently obsessed with LMAOO but lately it’s been these paras that I’ve been wanting to make a story with!!

#CATRA PFPS AYEEE AYHH

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So I found out that the thing I've been indulging for literally as long as I've been forming memories is called immersive daydreaming (the more serious version of which is called maladaptive daydreaming disorder or MADD) and now I've been obsessively stalking communities for it and collecting their memes for the past few days lol

If any of this strikes a chord with you, you might be an immersive daydreamer or have MADD like me!

#this was posted a few months ago but I made the last meme!!! #it makes me happy bc I haven’t been on here in a while and I’m glad people are still discovering that this is a real thing #madd #me stalking ppl too 😍😍

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#madd #yeah

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Acting out your daydreams and then seeing yourself in a mirror

#LITERALLY #AND THEN I CANT GET BACK INTO THE GROOVE #madd

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#madd

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#KSHDKFJF ME #madd

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I’m here, but mentally i am putting flowers into my para’s hair.

#madd #;;;-;;;

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MaDD InkTober 2020

Yo! Here are some Inktober prompts for Maladaptive Daydreamers. If you’re uncertain about the prompt, feel free to click on it to be directed to an explanation page. Overall, these can be interpreted in whichever creative way the artist wants. Tag with #MaDDTober if you want to share with other MaDDers. Have fun!

Parame

Para

Paracosm

Companion

Home

Emotion

Fun

Action

Fashion

Wish

Hurt

Photograph

Enemy

Crossover

Love

Memory

Motivation

Threat

Location

Daydreamer

Song

Secret

Eat

Work

Vacation

Hobby

Achievement

Fear

Skill

Interesting

Abnormal

#YOOOO #madd

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its so funny seeing tweets and posts about ppl saying they love wearing their masks bc they've been talking to themselves a lot recently without anybody noticing but ive just been doing that shit regardless lmaoooo

#ive been doing it a lot more lmaooooo! #madd

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I think wearing masks and social distancing has made it easier to daydream in public (at times when I have to go somewhere public). I can daydream and make strange expressions and no one will notice. Oh you did notice? You’re standing too close

#maladaptive daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming disorder #madd #actuallymadd #my post #oh did you notice me smile with my eyes? six feet apart sir