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“Quite a few Americans like the idea of strongman rule. Why not a dictator who will get things done? I lived in eastern Europe when memories of communism were fresh. I have visited regions in Ukraine where Russia imposed its occupation regime. I have spent decades reading testimonies of people who lived under Nazi or Stalinist rule. I have seen death pits, some old, some freshly dug. And I have friends who have lived under authoritarian regimes, including political prisoners and survivors of torture. Some of the people I trusted most have been assassinated. So I think that there is an answer to this question. Strongman rule is a fantasy. Essential to it is the idea that a strongman will be your strongman. He won’t. In a democracy, elected representatives listen to constituents. We take this for granted, and imagine that a dictator would owe us something. But the vote you cast for him affirms your irrelevance. The whole point is that the strongman owes us nothing. We get abused and we get used to it.”

— The Strongman Fantasy - by Timothy Snyder

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Killing children in a playground is a clear sign that the dehumanization of Palestinians is seen as an opportunity, not a crime.

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My 3-Year Fanniversary

So, I missed it, but my fandom anniversary was April 25. I posted my very first fic on AO3 that day in 2021, and I've been here ever since.

This is post probably going to be too long. But before I begin my self-indulgent rambling, I just want to say thank you. Thank you, yes you specifically, for everything. You all have honestly changed my life and I can say joining this fandom is one of the best decisions I've ever made.

I've said recently that I've really struggled to write as of late, for a lot of reasons. But I'm still here, and I hope I always am. Because I love this community. I wish I was still churning out fics like I used to, but the fact is I'm not a college student anymore, and I don't have the time and energy that I used to. And truthfully, there are days when it feels like I just forgot how to write. I look back on my old fics and I wonder how the hell I finished them, and why the hell anyone likes them.

But then I go get a glass of water. I text a friend. I get some air. I try to remember that this is supposed to be fun. And I know I've always got another story to tell; it'll come out when and how it's supposed to.

I hope this year I expand beyond the songfics. As fond as I am of the Drarry as Taylor Swift songfics series, and I hope to continue it, I also think I need to branch out. I look forward to that, and to wherever my creativity takes me this year.

But most of all, I look forward to just being here for another year. Thank you all for an amazing 3 years so far.

Love you all,

Phoebe

#its my (belated) fanniversary!! #thank you all!!! #love you so much!! #im the luckiest

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Man when I was growing up and dealing with my undiagnosed, unmedicated ADHD and having the worst time, my parents would say, “If you can’t do this now, how are you going to handle being an adult?” all. the. fucking. time.

But all of my problems are actually so fixable.

My mom is out of town and asked me to take out her trash. I forgot. And when I remembered I had two seconds of freaking out before I put together a plan: I got two big plastic boxes, loaded her trash into the trunk of my car, and threw it out in my apartment complex’s dumpster. The only bad thing that happened is I had a small leak into one of the boxes, and I’ve already got that soaking with bleach in my tub. FIXING my terrible ADHD mistake took less effort than doing it properly and you are the only people who will know.

But nooooo when I was a kid it was always ~do it right the first time exactly how we expect or it can’t be done at all~. No fucking wonder I’m a mess of an adult now.

#i will never forget when a math tutor i had in 8th grade who said he was going to “shame” me into turning in my homework on time #fuck you. i dont even remember your name. but fuck you.

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i am in fact unhinged

#draco looks stunning #I also think pansy would be gorgeous in this too

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im noticing that for a lot of americans “free palestine” has been an ideological motto and symbol rather than them actually believing in their heart that freedom is attainable and necessary

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but then why am i screaming? why am i shaking? oh, god, was there something that i missed? did i squander my divinity? was happiness within me the whole time?

#THEY SAY WE ARE ASLEEP UNTIL WE FALL IN LOVE #WE ARE CHILDREN OF DUST AND ASHES #BUT WHEN WE FALL IN LOVE WE WAKE UP AND WE ARE A GOD AND ANGELS WEEP #BUT IF I DIE HERE TONIGHT #I DIE IN MY SLEEP #the great comet #dave malloy shouldve yanked the tony out of pasek's and paul's hands #in my genuine opinion great comet is the most perfect show to ever exist #“really? you think its better than—” yes. yes I do.

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by talos this can’t be happening is a mandela effect because the actual phrase is by the gods this can’t be happening and i’ve never heard anyone say the former in game

#this is absolutely perfect #also personally obsessed with the santino rice acc

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just another day at hogwarts

#tRULY I believe drarry was real even in AVPM

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other people writing ao3 comments: love this! can’t wait to see more ❤

me writing ao3 comments: gyjfsdghjkldsfhj fukc dude i………..id eat this if i could….

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More examples of the WORST mansplaining here.

#this is not as cool as the examples #but once i was at work #in an entry level position at the time. i'd been there probably less than a year #and we were having a meeting with these corporate lawyers explaining to us how to not get the company sued #they said 'the laws about this subject vary state by state. here it's X.' #i raised my hand and said 'actually i think its Y' #the lawyers said 'no it's X' #*one google search later* #lawyers: 'you're correct it's Y' #and that's the story of a how barely out of college Phoebe told a bunch of lawyers they were wrong in front of most of her coworkers 😂

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HI IT’S ME AGAIN

YOU’RE FUCKING UP YOUR TEETH AND YOUR MUSCLES AND SHIT

#first of all op #i did unclench so thanks #but also #holy shit you're so talented #this is really impressive and detailed and it must've taken a long time to put together #amazing job

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what is the truth

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New Drunk Fic Ahoy!

I wrote for the latest edition of Firewhiskey Fic and I won a thing! Behold this incredible banner made by @unmistakablyoatmeal <3

And here's the fic:

Time to Die Live

Harry/Draco | 950-ish words | Explicit or Very Mature

Summary: Draco pulls in a club and lo and behold it’s Potter.

Prompts Used: Sex Education, Honey

Tags: Clubbing; Depression; Depressed Draco (he's not suicidal but he doesn't really care if he lives); Hopeful Ending; Some Ableist Language; Drug Use; Drinking; Brief, Past Draco/OMC; Blow Job; Anal Sex; Semi-Public Sex; POV 1st Person; POV Draco Malfoy; I Was Drunk When I Wrote This

#FUCK YEAH!!!!!

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even if straight women did dominate m/m shipping to the degree people like to claim (which I’ve never seen substantiated and which has never reflected my own fandom experience), it wouldn’t hurt to maybe extend a little empathy with regard to why women who are attracted to men might find straight erotica painful and alienating to consume. perhaps apply some critical thought before whipping out fetishization as a trump card. 

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Wizard worm just emerged from a wizarding hole! Lucky you!!!✨🪱🪄🍀

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my dream as a fanfic writer is to write a story which people want to talk to me about and send asks about afterwards and discuss things the characters did and the symbolism and meanings behind certain lines and I'll be all "hehe thanks" but irl I'll be in literal tears because I wrote something that means something to someone

#BRO FR #these kinds of comments are everything