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Went to Yellowstone for the weekend (at Yellowstone National Park) https://www.instagram.com/p/CTS-nhfsrF4/?utm_medium=tumblr

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The day of the Crash

Today - Today

Woke up - Just wake up

Time now standing still - Time stop standing still

As i stood, with that cold chill - As i stand, with a cold chill

Up and down my spine - Up and down the spine

And the smells of fresh pine - All these thoughts, with a stench of green pine

In the car that morning - In her car that morning

Yesterday - Yesterday

we fought so hard just to find out - we still fight hard and found out

it goes by to fast - they went by… so fast

The trees drifting past - The overhang of trees drifting past

the path seems to narrow - as the gravel road seemed to narrow

Into a never ending one-way arrow - Into that crooked arrow

Down a path that seemed hollow - Down the road that is shallow

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Warped thoughts in Shackles

Growing up, It was always about what was to come. That another sunrise was set in stone. And looking how we’ve grown All we became In that instant Like time had held itself still And so many thoughts put on the fire Not to confuse the pain with desire We all just got back up after every bruise and scratch Like band aids and sunscreen were an everyday resource Like a bubble bath on a summers eve Was a childhood fantasy Not that fantasy didn't look like insanity Now relying on friends to put our minds at ease It's what we've become but it's all going down the drain Like old water that was left for days Sinking, Sulking, and also the decay But back then you forgot about it The time, its standing still like our lives and experiences were mediocre At the end of yesterday It seemed like we were always fighting for tomorrow when we can’t hardly call today better

Today Woke up Time now standing still As i stood, with that cold chill Up and down your spine And the smells of fresh pine In the car that morning Yesterday we fought so hard just to find out it goes by to fast The trees drifting past as the road seems to narrow Into a never ending one-way arrow Down a path that feels hollow Today we stopped fighting started living what today has became with all the joys But still a path Never ending but time stands still So can someone, Anyone Please tell me why we're all out of our minds when it's all just today we came to find.

All the days we spent drifting away from reality. It isn't all fantasy. But we grow older, tirelessly, and weaken, and the days will last forever. It's not like all we had was reality. It was really more fantasy pouring out of us like blood Bleached and whitened in the sun. Not all tomorrows have a happy ending. But enjoy the good you have today. Rather than spend your life on mediocre things like a child, Right? Not everyday will have the beauties of yesterday. Or not even the happiest of times to add to that yesterday. Where the sun set warmly on the horizon. And flowers closed up softly for the moon to show his face. And pine protruding the thought and taking over the mind. Call it basic, call it crazy, call it whatever u want, Please burst my eardrums With the shouting, screaming, earth shattering, Blood curdling words. There isn't a word for this that gives it justice. You break me bit by bit but I still seem too sore. Because tomorrow comes. And it has our everlasting happy ending. happy ending? hm curious.

Today Just wake up Time stop standing still As i stand, with that cold chill Up and down the spine And hundreds of thoughts on the mind And the smells of fresh pine In the car that morning Yesterday we fought so hard just to find out it goes by… and it never stopped The trees drifting past as the gravel road seems to narrow Into a never ending crooked arrow Down a path that feels shallow Today we still fought we fought the pain But its binding, breaking And they never will feel the same what today has became was just another Broken tomorrow, and babbling brook with all its colorful rocks we seem to have a place No matter how loud she chatters But still a path Never ending ding but time won't stop the still So can someone, anyone Please tell me where losing our minds was mindless when it's all games that we can find. I said someone Anyone Are you listening To the voice in the silence I'm right here I… am right….. Here.

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I love thisss 🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈🏳️‍🌈😱

remember how i said i was working on a lesbian siren lovesong?

here's a tidbit of that was a valentine's day treat💕

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Me and my friends BESTIE ASPEN AND BROOKE

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Made a price for lesbian pride I hope u like it

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Wents to a dance ‘‘twas fun 

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Hehe I may be a bit gay

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Me and my family

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A poem I started writing today but I got a bit of writers block any thoughts???

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Tears

As I watch as my tears fall to the ground I hear the salty water splash and see it turn into smaller tears. I taste them as they run down my face. I feel all of this sorrow because an evil force has hurt me. It feels as though my hearts universe is about to have a Big Bang. I get in the shower with my head hung low. The water droplets clean my sorrowful face and then fall into the drain. And go deeper and deeper down the drain. Just like my sinking heart. Only able to think  about this evil forces words. I don't care about you I wouldn’t care if you died and if you did I would dance on your grave. I begin to cry more like a waterfall blocked by a damn now free. I can only think about the horrifying things it says to me. Hypocrite, Jerk, Idiot. I know it doesn’t care about me every time it yells at me so what it said to shouldn’t be a surprise but it still hurts. I fall to my knees losing all hope of ever seeing it happy. I begin to pray and feel the lord's presence and I begin to calm down. I change into some nice clothes and go in my room. As soon as I leave it the evil force starts stalking up behind me. Then it pounces and begins burning me with its fiery breath. I run in my room and begin crying from the deepest sorrows of my heart. I keep doing this for many nights. Thinking only of how much my wounds hurt but I can’t bandage them. Finally I stop but it still hurts. I am unsafe here with the evil force still around. So I go to a bridge on the other side of town and jump. And begin crying again but not of sadness of joy because I am way past sadness as soon as I hit the river water. I don’t die I just knock all the sadness out of me so that way the evil force can’t dance on my grave and say I didn’t care about you anyway.

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The Love Is Obvious

It only begins with a

 Beat a simple

Beat

Thumping triumphantly

My heartbeat fast

Slow a

Rhythm

A pump

A pulse

Almost like heartbreak

But silent and sure

Why is this so obvious

My eyes sparkle in your

Radiant light

Shimmer in your

Smile

And glisten in your

Embrace

And still that thump

Oh why so obvious

My cheeks

Oh no

Not again

Pink like the roses you gave me

Look at me 

Look away

Run 

Walk back

Its to obvious

My palms

Not sweaty but hot

As is my head

I think I've got a cold

Does that make sense i'm not cold

Why are you so cruel

Making me fall to my knees and beg for

Mercy

You make me stagger and

Wavier

Like a drunken dog

I'm so clumsy

Why is this so obvious

We have barely hugged but 

I still internally scream every time

Oh i can't ever stop giggling either

But i still love you anyway

Now if i get this 

Nights 

Kiss

Or dance with you till i fall

Then i know you will do the same

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Taken in Montana mountains!