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Just incited a grudge from one of the most spiteful, unforgiving, victim-card-playing people i know, possibly lost a friend with her, and to top it all off i saw a dead toad in the driveway

#so yeah this evening is going swimmingly #i pointed out that it was kind of shitty of her to use her past trauma as an excuse to not apologize to someone she severely wronged #and she basically accused me of abusing her and then tried to make it my fault that she had something to apologize for #and then when i snapped and told her that she needed to help my friend stop suffering because thats what decent people do #she left the chat and i doubt were ever going to have a civil conversation again #that might be a bit dramatic but knowing her its a definite possibility #after she left i said some very unkind things to the chat #without realizing that one of our few mutual friends was in there #so now he probably thinks im a monster #and is going to give her screencaps of the things i said so now she has more ammo to prove that im a horrible person #and since she apparently has an allergy to meaningful civil conversation this is never going to get cleared up #the second i try to talk to her about it shes gonna run off and cry to her boyfriend about how im trying to harass her #and man i just saw that toad last night he was hopping around and i was really happy to know he was there #couldnt have been more than an hour between then and when he got squished :(

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Honestly if youre gonna be a bitch then imho its way better to just admit it than to pretend you're not. Cause if i meet someone and i know theyre kind of a bitch and then later they say to me "yeah im kind of a bitch" then i know that theyre at least self aware. They know whats going on, they know how their actions affect people, and they at least have the capacity to change for the better. But if I meet someone whos kind of a bitch and then later they say something like "no im an uwu soft bean plx be nice to me uwa~" THEN I'm gonna be pissed the fuck off. No, you're not. You're a bitch. I know too many people who've been hurt by you for this not to be true. You mean to say that for all that shit you pulled, you never once stopped to think, "huh, maybe this is kind of terrible? Maybe i should somewhat improve how i conduct myself around other people who also have thoughts and feelings?" Wow. Fuck off.

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I love it when i ask someone to stop guilt tripping me about things i cant control and then they guilt trip me about the fact that they're not supposed to guilt trip me anymore

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Me: Jeez, why have I been so stressed out lately?

The rational introspective part of my brain: *pulls its head out of the sink, gasping for air* maybe its because- *cough* because of this complicated multifaceted issue youve been dealing with for a- *cough cough* while now that been bothering you for months but you think it would be selfish to speak up about it and also youre *gasp* feeling guilty about feeling this way in the first place due to the sensitive circumstances surrounding it and fear of how the people involved will react

Me: *shoves its head back underwater* maybe it's because of school