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Cafebreria in Mexico city

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Jacob was a cheater;

Peter had a temper;

David had an affair;

Noah got drunk;

Jonah ran away from God;

Paul was a murderer;

Gideon was insecure;

Miriam was gossiper;

Martha was a nerve wreck;

Thomas was a doubter;

Sarah was impatient;

Elijah was depressed;

Moses stuttered;

Zaccheus was short;

Abraham was old and

Lazarus was dead.

God does not call the qualified, He qualifies the called.

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For the past couple of months, I promised myself to be better. It was my birthday month and I thought to myself, "Allejna you're getting older and that means you need to be more mature. Stop being selfish and start caring about the people around you. The world doesn't revolve around you. So stop and Think" And with that self-realization, I also thought of coming back to God. Learning more about Him, attending Sunday services, and doing my daily devotions. I thought it was going to be easy because I've done it before, but obviously I struggled.

The first two weeks are going smoothly. I started giving my tithes and offering and actually giving my ten percent and sometimes bigger because I'm astonished how God was blessing me as quickly as a lightning bolt. I started getting more shift from work, I was never broke. I found myself having money even though it's not payday yet. And it felt great.

But it didn't feel right. I started questioning myself because it felt wrong after that two weeks. I felt as if I was blinded by the fact that I was never broke. I felt as if I was only giving to get something. The selfishness and the greed of it are taking over, rather than me just giving to God because that is rightfully His and not mine.

After that, I continued giving, and this time with a thankful, cheerful heart. And it felt right. But this time, I'm still not doing my devotions, I don't pray as much. Sometimes I only pray when I'm in church and that was it. My excuse is I have to go to school early, then I get home pretty late then I sleep. Then on the weekends, I have to go to work then after work that's my only "me time".

Then our pastor talked about people's greed of time. She said that God gave us twenty-four hours in a day, there are 7 days in a week, 365 days in a year and WE NEVER HAVE TIME FOR GOD. God only wants an hour or two of our time but we never have time even though we have 24 hours in that day. Sometimes all He wants from us is to talk to Him. AND THAT SHOOK ME! The guilt started to rattle me and woke me up in a daze. I am so selfish! God has given me everything, but I don't even have the decency to talk to Him or even thank Him for any of it. He has given me that 24 hours and all I do with it is waste it.

Think about it. There are two people in a room, but you keep complaining that there's no one to talk to and the other person in the room keeps poking you or saying hi to you but you never respond. Isn't that being rude? Do you know what that person would feel? Now let's say that the other person is God and you are both in the same room and He is doing everything for you to talk to Him but you keep ignoring Him. Do you know how He will feel? Do you know what God would feel when He has given you everything that you need in this life, but you're just there being inconsiderate of these blessings?

It's time we give back and come back to God because let's be honest, HE IS COMING SOON!

#godisgood #giveback #comeback #letHIMin

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When you love someone, its never over. You move on, because you have to but you take them with you in your heart.

Elizabeth Chandler, Kissed by an Angel (via thelovejournals)

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When I get lonely these days, I think: So BE lonely. Learn your way around loneliness. Make a map of it. Sit with it, for once in your life. Welcome to the human experience. But never again use another person’s body or emotions as a scratching post for your own unfulfilled yearnings.

Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat, Pray, Love (via wordsnquotes)

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20 Funny Dear Blank, Please Blank Letters

Dear blank, please blank is a super funny and an interesting project by Jared Wunsch and Hans Johnson that challenges users to write letters in the simple format: Dear… Please… Sincerely… click here to see them all.

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Being in love is a very strange thing. Your thoughts constantly drift towards this other person, no matter what you’re doing. You could be reaching for a glass in the cupboard or brushing your teeth or listening to someone tell a story, and your mind will just start drifting towards their face, their hair, the way they smell, wondering what they’ll wear, and what they’ll say the next time they see you.

Pittacus Lore, The Power of Six (via wordsnquotes)

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Ikaw nga ba?

Naguguluhan ang isip Kung tama ba o mali. Naiinis ang puso Kung ikaw ba o hindi

Ang tagal kitang hinanap Pero parang nag kamali Sa pagpili ng isang talud mo Na isa bang malaking kasalanan?

Sa lahat ng kasalanan Ikaw ba ay dapat ikahinayang? Sa piling mo ay naging masaya naman Pero bakit may nararamdaman na hindi katiyakan?

Ang puso ko ba ay may hinahanap pang iba? Di maintindihan kung bakit hindi makuntento. And ba ang wala sayo na hinahanap hanap ko? Masama ka bang tao o talagang nagsawa na lang sayo? Dahil ngayon ay naguguluhan ako Kung tama ba o mali Ang pag pili sayo.

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Gusto Kong Malaman

Umalis ka ng walang paalam Umalis ka ng hindi ko alam Pero hindi naging mapait at hindi ni minsang nagalit.

Umalis ka at nagnakaw Hindi man lang binalik Ang pusong sinugatan na sana’y unti-unting gumaling.

Gusto ko malaman Kung bakit mo nilisan. Nagiisip ng dahilan Kung bakit mo iniwan

Sa gitna ng bagyong Punong-puno ng katanungan. Bakit mo binitawan Ang puso kong nahihirapan?

Di ka ba nakuntento Sa pagmamahal ko? O sadyang di totoo Ang pinakitang pagkatao?

Bakit ngayon mo pa hinubad Ang maskarang pinagtataguan, Kung kelan inilahad ko na Ang aking mga araw at buwan

Gusto ko lang naman malaman Malaman kung minahal mo nga ba ng totoo O puro biro lang syo ang lahat ng ito Gusto kong malaman...

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I find beauty in all things authentic, pure, and eternal. And so I value honesty, I value holiness, and I value the soul.

Lauren Britt (via existential-celestial)

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Sometimes skulls are thick. Sometimes hearts are vacant. Sometimes words don’t work.

James Frey, A Million Little Pieces (via wordsnquotes)

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My life - my personality, my habits, even my speech - is a combination of the books I choose to read, the people I choose to listen to, and the thoughts I choose to tolerate in my mind…

Andy Andrews (via thequotejournals)

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I’m always soft for you, that’s the problem. You could come knocking on my door five years from now and I would open my arms wider and say ‘come here, it’s been too long, it felt like home with you.

Azra.T “My Heart is Full of Open Windows” (via thequotejournals)

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I love being horribly straightforward. I love sending reckless text messages (because how reckless can a form of digitized communication be?) and telling people I love them and telling people they are absolutely magical humans and I cannot believe they really exist. I love saying, Kiss me harder, and You’re a good person, and, You brighten my day. I live my life as straight-forward as possible. Because one day, I might get hit by a bus. Maybe it’s weird. Maybe it’s scary. Maybe it seems downright impossible to just be—to just let people know you want them, need them, feel like, in this very moment, you will die if you do not see them, hold them, touch them in some way whether its your feet on their thighs on the couch or your tongue in their mouth or your heart in their hands. But there is nothing more beautiful than being desperate. And there is nothing more risky than pretending not to care. We are young and we are human and we are beautiful and we are not as in control as we think we are. We never know who needs us back. We never know the magic that can arise between ourselves and other humans. We never know when the bus is coming.

Rachel C. Lewis, Tell The People You Love That You Love Them. (via thequotejournals)

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Tara Laro Tayo

Puro laro nalang ba tayo? Nagtataguan ng nararamdaman, Naghahabulan ng pusong nasasaktan. Pagminsan ikaw ang taya, Pero maaabutan kaya Sa konting sigundong haplos Tayo ay magpapalit ng posisyon At ako naman ang mag hahabol

Pag napagod ka sa kakatakbo Sasabihin mo ,“TIME FIRST!” At sa isang iglap, Ikaw ay maglalaho. Mawawala na parang bula Na hindi ko na ulit makikita. Hinayaang umalis ng hindi pinaglalaban. Marahang binitiwan pero hindi nawawalan ng pagasang babalikan.

Kapag ikaw ay nababato, Tatawagan at sasabihing “tara laro tayo.” Na para bang walang nangyari At binaon mo na sa limot ang mga ginawa mo. Ito namang si tanga Papayag at makikipagkompitensya Sabay sasabihing “GAME”

Sa laro ng nag-aalab na apoy. Sasabay sa paginit ng mga umuusok na baga Kahit alam ko sa dulo Ako lang ang mapapaso at matatalo. Tila laging naglalaro ng bolang naaagaw. Kahit alam ko sa huli kahit isang puntos walang makukuha. Pero mahal, sa pag mamahal ko na umaapaw, Ako ay kumakapit at iniisip na “malapit na. mamahalin mo rin ako.” Kaya ito ako, naghihintay ng tamang oras kung kelan mo ulit tatanongin ...“TARA LARO TAYO!”

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Kathang Isip Lamang

Gabi-gabi ay napapanaginipan, Pero ang iyong mukha ay hindi makita. Ang pagkatao ay di mawari, Pero ang puso ay damang-dama. Ang bawat pintig ng iyong puso Ay parang musika sa aking tenga At dahil dun ako ay tila laging nawawala. Naliligaw sa kagubatan ng aking isipan. Sa musika ng iyong puso Ako ay dinadala sa ibang mundo na hindi ko pa nasisilayan.

Imahi mo ay pinipilit i-pinta. Kahit natatakot na mabigo at madismaya. Pero kayang-kayang balewalain Kung ang puso at kalooban ay napaka-ganda. Kahit hindi makita ang iyong pisikal na anyo Ako'y napapangiti sa simpleng pag-iisip ng iyong presensya.

Isip ko ay laging lumulutang. Hindi alam kung na saan. Hindi marunong lumipad, Pero sa isang sulyap mo Tila ako'y biglang nasa alapaap. Sana ay aking matagpuan Pag mamahal na walang hanggan. Pangarap ko ay ikaw Pinagdadasal sa araw-araw Na sana dumating din Ang sinasabing nakalaan Kahit ikaw ay tila parang KATHANGISIP LAMANG. Ako'y umaasang ikaw ay Buhay sa KATOTOHANAN.

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R.I.P

I'm so mad! This feeling of anger is revealing through my eyes. And it keeps building up as I was galvanized by the loud noise of realization... I feel so stupid for eating and digesting all your sugarcoated words that was fattening me with lies and your deceiving acts.

I don't want to cry. I want myself to believe that there is a drought inside my eyes.And that they could hardly feel any moisture inside them...but the feeling of sympathy and pity was trying to overshadow my whole system that I could no longer hold. The pain and sorrow is outshining all the vexation and rage, which leads me kneeling to the floor, shedding tears for as long as I remember.

I was drowning in my stupidity of loving a guy like you. The feeling of solicitousness is irritating me, but what could I do? I'm in love with you ... Although, how could I love my friend? When I know your days are long gone and have reached your expiration date...

I love you Goodbye.

#hugotpamore #tbt