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ive gotten addicted to cigs, and now i berally eat cuz the idea of food makes me sick. imma be honest ive had some nights where i am actually wondering if this is really it for me or do i want to put in the work to recover…

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The only reason i haven’t killed myself yet is cuz i want to prove all the ppl who did me wrong, wrong. IsTG i fucking hate it here.

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I wanna literally delete myself sometimes

So i havent used my discord in a while and i just joticed the 3 server i wasnin where closed and i think i git kicked off one cuz j wan innactive lmao,

welp i guess seasonal depression hittibg to hard, excuse me while i use this to be an awful person and purge my feelibgs out

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Imagine purging the small dinner u had for new years eve only to come home eat 2 thin oreos a small slice of salamy and a quarter of a rammen bag

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So i havent used my discord in a while and i just joticed the 3 server i wasnin where closed and i think i git kicked off one cuz j wan innactive lmao,

welp i guess seasonal depression hittibg to hard, excuse me while i use this to be an awful person and purge my feelibgs out

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that moments when u are waitibg for everyone to leave the bathroom to throw up

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happy new year purging lmao idk if i should send u all grosspo, it usually helps me purge harder than usual

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communion <3

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With the heroine chick era comming back a lot of ppk are gonna develop ED’s, so let’s not drag new kids to this mess.

I may not want to recover, but ill never wish this to my worst enemy.

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just weighted myself after 3 weeks of finals and braking my cal goals of the day (usually i eat max 600 cals a day but the highest i got to was 800 cals)

lets just say that, for some fucking reason ive been on the same weight since the middle of december

istG WHY AM I STUCK ON THIS WEIGHT. WHY CANT I JUST LOOSE THIS FUCKING FAT OFF MY BODY.

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Im gonna be honest i used to have that mindset too, until i turned fifteen and my world view changed when i did something “bad people” do. Then I noticed that there are mo good or bad people just people who make good or bad decisions in hopes to keep their sanity.

If you wanna know the bad people stuff i did is basically drug and alcohol and failing my first class ever.

many problems are caused by the mindset that the world is divided into good people and bad people and the bad people can be "found out" and removed, eventually leading to a utopia containing only good people.

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ok so, rn im in finals week and ive been just surviving on the worst food posible and having no time to exercise. god i hate being under stress TT

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just ate a bagel and a grill cheese, Time to purge it all out!!! 😋😮‍💨🤮

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i need sto stop smoking, i was feeling ok. then i smoked n now i feel like throwing up TT

did a 1 hour run this morning thou burned like 300+ cals

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I cooked something nice!

Grilled chicken with boiled broccoli (144 CALs)

RECIPE:

Ingredients:

-Broccoli (Full one), Chicken breast (1), Oregano (1 tea spoon), brown sugar (quarter of tea spoon), vegetable oil (1 tea spoon), chili powder (1 tea spoon), Adobo (1 table spoon) [or all purpose season] salt ( 1 tea spoon) and sesame seeds

How to:

1- Heat up oil and add brown sugar.

2-Season the chicken with oregano, chilli powder, adobo and half of the salt.

3- Grill chicken on the oil. be careful to not burn it. after finishibg cook you can add sesame seeds (Add vitamin B, but adds 2 cals)

4- Cut the broccoli

5- place broccoli on boiling water with the rest of the salt.

Enjoy!

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I’m going for a run when i am done with this cigarette, how much should i run for i was thinking an hour