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Why British? Let me guess: One Direction?

Because I have multiple friends who are Brits and are easy access to literary accuracy lmshshsjsdsd also no....the kooks lol

#BRITISH REPRESENTATION RAHHH 🇬🇧🇬🇧🇬🇧 #hope they like the delicacy of chip buttys 🔥 #authentic rep is importnat #/j #infamous if

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😀 (<- girl who just learned about her mother's trauma and realised that's why she is they way she is)

#my life :( #oh Lord #this trip was meant to be a break and now im cryong in the bathroom #i love you mama #so so much and im so so sorry

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hope you take care <3

thank u anon im trying my best :( back home in nepal for two weeks which is nice <3

#mail #my life :(

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deleting rhe phoenix blog :(

all it is rn is a major source of stress and . yeah im just not in a place to write right now which sucks but

so i guess the games at rest? unfortunately? illg et back to it when i can but. i think for now i'll prioritise things like beta reading which i enjoy more and doesnt just make me feel like shit

i'll keep the game n itch.io up in case i want to work on it in the future but yeah. this is the most official hiatus update i'll do because i just genuinely am too exhausted

#the phoenix talk #i dont want to but. #know its for the better #you know? #and im soso sorry to everyone who loves the game #bur i just know i cant produce anything good right now

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childhood friends to enemies to lovers rejanis brainrot !!!!!

#OHHHHHH. #obsessed. #rejanis #mean girls

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Tumblr is doing some stupid AI shit so go to blog settings > Visibility > Prevent third-party sharing.

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tagged by the lovely @cinezie <3

Tag people you want to know better

last song: golden by fall out boy

currently watching: the apprentice uk for all my fellow brits!

three ships: no clue. oops

favorite color: red!!!! red!!!!!!!!!!

currently consuming: nothing :( last had pork and rice

first ship: honestly dont know? ron/hermione?

place of birth: england

current location: england

relationship status: ...ask me another time

last movie: knives out again!!!

currently working on: writing + beta reading + school work 😣

tagging anyone who sees this hehe 👁️👁️

#tag game #my life :( #fun fun fun

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hi. go buy esims for gaza. go preorder a kufiya from hirbawi. buy insulin for palestinian diabetics who need that help. if you live in the states use this to email your reps (this takes maybe 5 seconds to do). check out this massive list of resources where you can educate yourself in a meaningful and actionable way even if you don't have the financial means right now. from the river to the sea palestine will be free. 🇵🇸🇵🇸🇵🇸

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trying 2 make alex's relationship with the mc more clear

#the phoenix talk #am i still slightly hung up on that ask comparing them to orion? maybe #i know it wasnt meant as a mean thing but like #one of my biggest fears as a writer #is my characters being too similar/the same as others #ueeee ueeee #anyway #hopefully as we get further in it'll become more clear

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????????? just got like 100 followers on itch over the past day ?????

#im insanely grateful but also slightly confused LOL #where'd u guys come from!!! let me give u a platonic kiss!!! #misc

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lee saerom as oriana quinn please hear me out

#infamous if #oriana quinn #o quinn #faceclaim #i'm passionate about this ok #women in suits 💕💕💕 #ESP THE SECOND PIC

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To Gender Select, or to Not Gender Select

So as everyone knows, I'm using the opportunity for this rewrite to really step back and look at what I have so far. I have just subscribed to the whole "follow my gut" thing and for the last two months or so, my gut has been telling me something.

For context, I created Orion (and I have mentioned this a couple times when I first opened this blog) that he came to me fully formed. While other ROs were more of a puzzle that appeared more and more fleshed out with every detailed I added, Orion was like a jenga block tower that grew more and more unsteady every time I changed a detail about him. He just came to me exactly as he was and I didn't really think beyond that. For example, with G, pieces of both Gina and Griffin came to me at the same time and G isn't G without both versions. With Orion he was just...Orion.

But lately—and this was not without many suggestions asking for it!—I've been playing around with the idea of a female version of his character.

One of my biggest things was to make sure that this wasn't a matter of just changing a variable. When it comes to my gender selectable ROs, I want to make sure I'm including the subtleties and nuances that come with being a man/woman in the public eye, especially for O. Their route is heavily centered around the idea of professionalism and...other things I can't mention and I think it'd be super interesting to add another component of being a woman, not only typically stern and taciturn but in a dominant position in music mostly taken up by men. Which is why, in the rewrite, there will be lines that are unique to Orion and unique to her. Reactions that are different, conversations that change. People who continue to romance Orion will prob not see a difference.

Not only does it separate them as two different people, it creates some distance from Orion, who is an established and beloved character already. I want his female counterpart to stand on her own as her own character.

Just because they have the same route does not mean they are the same person. I've always said that about my gender selectable characters.

This was not a spur of the moment decision. I was thinking about this for a while. I just needed to make sure every piece of Orion's route would make sense for her, and I do believe it does.

I've also been told many times how many people like Orion's route and the whole "manager-client" trope but are unable to play it as they are not attracted to men. I think this would be a nice addition and a way to make it more inclusive/give more people more routes to play!

The things I have written for Orion will probably stay the same since they've been written. Everything after the rewrite will have both options to select from.

So meet Oriana Quinn. With a short black bob usually greased back and a perfectly pressed suit, Oriana is as intimidating as she is determined. Yes, she's just as tall and muscular as her male counterpart and as obsessed with the gym as he. Her route with Cory will be different in its nature (since Cory is straight) but...guess we'll see!

fun fact: The beauty of Oriana being the name is that coincidentally, it also has to do with the sky. One of my requirements for finding a name like Orion's was that it was sky themed since it does come up. It almost seems like fate! haha

TLDR: Orion will be gender selectable. If you have plans to romance Orion and Orion alone, this will make no difference to you. For those who were hoping for this, I hope this news makes Infamous a bit more enjoyable for you! <3

#HOT MUSCULAR WOMEN EVERYONE CHEERED!!! #congrats amy btw this is a massive step and im super proud of u <33 #i know u'll handle it great and cant wait to meet oriana in game!! #infamous if

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something about dedicating all your songs to someone only for them to walk away but when they come back you're still singing the same songs, still about them, always about them, who else could it be?

#unnamed kpop if talk

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who else up thinking about their own mortality 🔥

#misc #i gotta get whatever this is checked out #@ prefrontal cortex develop #sick of being scared

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Fall Out Boy: What if we had a figure of speech... but changed it slightly

Me: Oh yeah that's the good shit

#i love it so deeply #gshisbwjsdhmekd #<- how pete lyrics make me feel #fall out boy #tunes talk

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Here you said that Qiu had a string of casual 'fwb' flings. In the course of these flings were they ever reminded of MC? like for eg if they were kissing someone they always compared the kiss with one they had with MC.

Oh, absolutely. Qiu never forgot MC, not one year in, not two years in--not for a moment. They slowly put the pain and the regret away, slowly learned to live with MC's absence and make peace with all the things they could have done and didn't do, but the "what-ifs" and "maybe if MC came back to Singapore", never quite went away completely.

Qiu thinks of MC and replays that kiss they had (and that one time they... did more) every time they are intimate with another person; but they also have those moments of physical intimacy in an attempt to erase the memories of MC--the ghost of MC's lips on theirs, the phantom brush of their fingers on skin--it works, to a certain extent.

It's the quiet moments, the moments of stillness, that Qiu still feels MC's presence the strongest in the things they would've said, the things they'd shared once upon a time. The strength and clarity of Qiu's mental image of MC--their smile, laugh, or the impression that they'd say a particular thing--surprises them sometimes. They wonder if its even accurate, if it's memory or fact or the delusions of a lunatic. Accuracy, truth--these things are important, to a lawyer, to Qiu, but they'll never have that with MC again; all they have left of their first love is fading impressions, hazy textures, and fragments that are halfway between speculation and memory.

That is, until MC walks right back into their life.

#well then. #head in hands #merry crisis #qiu

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Merry Christmas 🎄

Just reblog this post to enter the giveaway for a chance to win an itch.io key (delivered via dm on tumblr or email, whatever the winner prefers) for the new Winter Solstice mini game!

Going ahead and posting it now so everyone can enter! That way the winners will get their keys promptly when I upload the finalized mini game.

Good luck to everyone and I hope you all had a happy holidays!