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these days i feel even more in dire need to see a therapist

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capybara #145: very scary dinosaur

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kalo gue mau marah, boleh ke siapa?

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capybara #136: hot capy summer

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silly goofy cats forever

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#Spotify

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capybara #130: pov he saw you holding a slice of watermelon

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im back after 2 years

have a capybara going cycling

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Art by Charlie Herve

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wishing

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this is not regret, i keep telling myself.

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no because the funniest thing is that they ask you why you're not out and mingle with the others when this is how they treat you when you let your walls down just for an inch like make it make sense please

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they say God hears our prayer and i guess to some extent He did mine, but apparently not this one. why though?

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you see, my mind is always swirling around thoughts. in fact i dislike it when it quiets down unless my body is tired and cant be bothered to think. these days, though, it's as noisy as ever, but i don't think i'm thinking about what actually matters and it worries me to no end.

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being gentle is so hard these days

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“You can criticize something you love!”

Yeah, and you can also get tired of criticizing something you love. You can get completely fed up with it and decide, “You know what? Flaws aside, I love this thing, and I don’t have to waste hours of my life admitting its flaws to strangers on the Internet in order to somehow justify my love of it.” You can get sick of watching others gleefully tear it apart, for no reason other than that it’s popular and they hate that you love it. You can get sick of watching others tearing it apart with good intentions, too.

In the end, it’s just a cartoon, or a book, or a movie. It’s not that serious, and you can enjoy it without hyper-focusing on its flaws. You don’t need to justify your love of something to someone else, least of all a person you don’t even know.

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Danny Lai Lai (Chinese, Beijing, China) - 悠闲的午后 (Leisurely Afternoon), 2021, Paintings: Digital Art