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Frey und Odin (1952) by Norbertine Bresslern-Roth. Mixed technique on paper.

#dog

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The most valuable thing I learned doing a Masters degree with depression, anxiety and ADHD was to change my “things I’m bad at” list to “things I can’t do on my own.” Stop thinking of them as things I could do if I tried hard enough, and accept that I can’t accomplish them by effort and willpower alone; they’re genuine neurocognitive deficits, and if I need to do the thing, then just like a blind person reading or a mobility impaired person going up a storey in a building, I need to find a different method.

I’m “bad at” working on long-term projects without an imminent deadline or someone breathing down my neck? Okay, let’s change that: I can’t work on long-term projects without an imminent deadline and someone breathing down my neck. So let’s create an imminent deadline and recruit neck-breathers. Find a sympathetic prof who will agree that 3 weeks before the due date they expect me to show them my preliminary notes and bibliography. Get a friend I trust to block off an hour to sit with me and keep asking, “Are you working on your project?” Write a blog post about my progress. Arrange to trade papers and proofread them with another student.

Accept your limitations and learn to leverage them, instead of buying the neurotypical fairytale that they’ll go away if you just try hard enough.

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[sic] is my favorite editorial notation because of its inherent bitchiness.

#unironically #I got so excited adding [sic] to a paper for the first time

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The idea that lesbians can engage in the "male gaze" is so stupid and we need young lesbians to understand that their desires can't be "male gaze fetishitic" because they are lesbians. You're experiencing lesbian desire. That's by definition not "male gaze fetishitic"

But also. How did film theory concepts get distorted so badly that people think that the "male gaze" is a thing that people can people "do". A man lusting for a woman is also not "male gaze" because that's not what male gaze means.

Why are people using film theory concepts to describe emotions and human experiences. help.

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fucking adhd. I have to run a con on my own brain to get anything done.

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happy Women’s History Month I really think the impact of misogyny on dress history as a field of study cannot be overstated

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get in babe we're 30 year old women we're having formative experiences that our teenage years denied us

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the right hairstyle for your face is the one that makes you smile when you see yourself in the mirror btw.

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So many idiots have masters degrees maybe I could be the next

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• Dress.

Designer/Maker: H. Leitner

Date: ca. 1886

Medium: Machine-woven wool fabric with velvet and lace decoration, steel buckle, machine and hand stitching.

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i can not believe how much doing the bare minimum stresses me out

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“i can’t do this anymore” says a girl who is not only going to do it but do it well

#me about school right now

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“but what if i’m being annoying :(“ everyone’s annoying dipshit it came free with fucking being alive and existing. now go talk to your friends

#mantra against anxiety

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‘Study of Thistles’ by Sophia L. Crownfield, c. 1890.

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Feminist fantasy is funny sometimes in how much it wants to shit on femininity for no goddamned reason. Like the whole “skirts are tools of the patriarchy made to cripple women into immobility, breeches are much better” thing.

(Let’s get it straight: Most societies over history have defaulted to skirts for everyone because you don’t have to take anything off to relieve yourself, you just have to squat down or lift your skirts and go. The main advantage of bifurcated garments is they make it easier to ride horses. But Western men wear pants so women wearing pants has become ~the universal symbol of gender equality~)

The book I’m reading literally just had its medievalesque heroine declare that peasant women wear breeches to work in the field because “You can’t swing a scythe in a skirt!”

Hm yes story checks out

peasant women definitely never did farm labour in skirts

skirts definitely mean you’re weak and fragile and can’t accomplish anything

skirts are definitely bad and will keep you from truly living life

no skirts for anyone, that’s definitely the moral of the story here

#long post