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#◟ 𝐆𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐋𝐓 ⠀: ⠀ein Junge mit scharfen Kanten .

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I want to punch a wall until my fists bleed and crack. I want to destroy everything and rip myself to fucking shreds.

#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern .

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𝐂𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐄 𝐀 PICREW 𝐎𝐅 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄.

(So this is the look a heir to mafia business gives you right after getting caught while doing business with not so friendly thugs…)

TAGGED BY: @nuit-sanglant (Grazie mille!) & TAGGING: @sh-aimlessly , @maleficis , @fireburial , @wahnsinnlichkeit & @seelentief

#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern . #a little sad that there were no creoles as ear jewellery

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Show me all your tender spots so I know where to aim the knife

#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern .

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Almost!

#◟ 𝐀𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐊 ⠀: ⠀zwischen Waffen und Wein .

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LUKA & OKANE Rebelde | 2.01

#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern .

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#◟ 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐄 ⠀: ⠀Schmerz reinigt das Herz .

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Chelsea Hodson, from Tonight I’m Someone Else: Essays; “The End Of Longing,”

#◟ 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐄 ⠀: ⠀Schmerz reinigt das Herz .

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Luca Guarini

#◟ 𝐙𝐀𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐊𝐄𝐈𝐓 ⠀: ⠀die Knochen sind ein Käfig für das Herz .

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Rotten desire

#◟ 𝐀𝐄𝐒𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐓𝐈𝐊 ⠀: ⠀zwischen Waffen und Wein .

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#◟ 𝐆𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐄𝐑𝐎𝐁𝐄 ⠀: ⠀die Fassade einer Tragödie .

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𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐃𝐎𝐄𝐒 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐂𝐀𝐑𝐑𝐘 𝐄𝐌𝐎𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒 ?

BOLD what consistently applies, italicize situational / not always.

ANGER. jaw clenching, hands balling into fists, teeth grinding, yelling, going non-verbal, stuttering speech, rushed speech, slow concise speech, rambling, quiet, arms crossing, shaking head, tearing up, animated, expressionless, projects, internalises, vents, withdraws, passive aggressive, direct, physical outbursts, verbal outbursts.

JOY. easy smiles, fighting back grins, suppressed laughter, loud laughter, giggles, chuckling, smirks, whole body laughs, covers mouth when laughing / giggling, throws head back when laughing, slaps leg, touches people around them when laughing, looks down when laughing, looks for eye contact when laughing, sparkling eyes, bubbly happiness, quiet subtle happiness, obnoxious happiness, wants to spread joy, quietly savours joy.

SADNESS. crying, bottling it up, seeks distractions, wallows, meditates, trains and processes, avoidance, seeks out comfort, withdraws, talks it out, internalises it, sad smiles, depression naps, uses alcohol, uses drugs, seeks out sources of joy, fidgets with sentimental item, sits in silence, broods, gets moody, wants someone to share the misery, tries to hide negative emotions, nurtures others to make themselves feel better.

EMBARRASSMENT / SHAME. blushing, looking away, rubbing at back of head, covering face, laughing nervously, laughs it off, overthinks, lets it go, self-deprecating humor, deflects, gets irritated, smiles, withdraws, crossing arms over stomach, crossing arms over chest, hands in pockets, shoulders sinking, shrugs, falling into silence until comfortable again, talking a lot to compensate.

GUILT. avoiding eye contact, shoulders sinking low, head hanging down, crying, chest aches, lashes out, internalises, apologises, deflects, communicates, withdraws, grand gestures for forgiveness, accepts fault easily, punishes themselves, martyrdom, victim complex, guilt complex, healthy conscience, internalises even after forgiveness, seeking redemption, moves on easily, denial, lack of guilt / conscience, sorry they got caught more than caused harm, can’t handle knowing they hurt others.

FEAR / ANXIETY. trembling, crying, sarcasm / sass to cope, rambles, goes silent, gets angry, fidgeting, clenching jaw, picking at nails, chewing at lip, pulling at clothes, adjusting jewellery / clothing, swallowing thickly, eyes widening, over-reacts, under-reacts, calm, logical, panic, irrational, overthinks, carefully analyses, talks to themselves, breathing exercises, flight, fight, withdraw, fawn.

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#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern .

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The Portrait of Dorian Gay - J.J. English - 1974 - USA

#◟ 𝐙𝐀𝐄𝐑𝐓𝐋𝐈𝐂𝐇𝐊𝐄𝐈𝐓 ⠀: ⠀die Knochen sind ein Käfig für das Herz .

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#◟ 𝐀𝐔𝐃𝐈𝐎 ⠀: ⠀der Klang von Gefühlen .

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“When you start liking pain things start to get interesting.”

— Jenny Holzer, Inflammatory Essays and Survival Tips

#◟ 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐓𝐄 ⠀: ⠀Schmerz reinigt das Herz .

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“You cut up a thing that’s alive and beautiful to find out how it’s alive and why it’s beautiful, and before you know it, it’s neither of those things, and you’re standing there with blood on your face and tears in your eyes”

— Clive Barker (via princess-mary)

#◟ 𝐀𝐍𝐀𝐋𝐘𝐒𝐄 ⠀: ⠀der Geruch von Qualm und Fehlern .

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Blueboy Magazine (June/1978)