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Reblog for a larger sample size, if convenient.

#imagine going to get groceries wearing a welders mask #thatd be sick as fuck

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#the flames? they followed joan of arc im pretty sure

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sometimes i think of yusuf, at the beginning. poet son of a merchant boy in borrowed armour, skull cracked open on a rock. how long until he returns home again? How does he return, estranged, to those Ithica-like Tunisian shores? Can his father still recognize his covered face?

yusuf al-kaysani, the son, the poet, the not-soldier, made and unmade each night in the looms of his mother's memory, mindbody woven and unwoven by something infinite and nameless.

sometimes i think about "di genova" vs. "al-kaysani". a land versus a bloodline. How they lose both, and then the names, too. immortal odysseus, ogygia-bound, longing to see the smoke that rises from his homeland, longing for death, kept in the soft-tender company of his murderer.

(really, you were founded on the bloody rock of holy ground. really, sometimes there is no return from war. at least not from this. not from the way he touches you.)

#joenicky

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(me, my parents, my sister, and the baby are sitting at the kitchen table eating lunch)

baby, pointing at the light fixture over the table and signing "on": o.*

my sister: we actually can't turn that light on right now, because the lightbulb inside is burnt out! it needs a new one.

baby: ighbu.

sister: yes, lightbulb! granddaddy said after we eat he's going to climb up there on a ladder and change it, and then the light will come on!

baby: gadada! adda, uuu! ighbu o!

sister: exactly!

baby, signing "on" and pointing at the light and then my dad, with increasing urgency: GADADA ADDA UUUU. O.

my sister: we're going to finish eating first though, ok?

baby: nonono. O. gadada adda uuu.

[a split second goes by]

baby, pointing to himself: ba. adda uuu. ighbu.

me: you're going to climb the ladder and change the lightbulb yourself?

baby: dzyeah. *pointing to the buckle where he is buckled into the high chair* ububu.

me: unbuckle you? so you can change the lightbulb?

baby, highly businesslike: dzyeah.

*pronounced like "on" without the n

#linguistics

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Honestly shout out to people with anxiety and panic disorders, y'all don’t get enough recognition for your hard work. Pushing through your body’s instinct to fight/flee/freeze at the slightest worry is a whole new level of strength. You’re battling almost everyday against a fast-acting animalistic response that humans have been experiencing since the dawn of time, a response that is literally designed to take full control of your actions away from you. That takes so much courage and perseverance. You’re strong as fuck.

#theres actually a 4th response and its stomach issues #almost shit myself on a first date not that long ago ☺️

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Nicky + resting his hand on his sword hilt

#tog #nicky

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Horniness is not intrinsically less pure than any other human motivation

#egon schiele moment

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A gay Italian character who is not stereotyped. 

A gay Arab character who is also not stereotyped. 

Neither of them fetishized. 

Both of them bad ass as fuck. 

And they’re in one of the healthiest relationships, queer or not, I’ve ever seen in an action movie.

Two female leads, one of them Black, neither of them sexualized. 

 Not even ONCE. 

 Both of them bad ass as fuck. 

And they both have space to be their own characters, with their own arcs.

Directed by a Black woman. 

Edited by a Black woman. 

 Actual MAIN //obviously// Gay characters in a superhero/comic movie? (Not relegated to cameo status, take notes Marvel!) 

 I’m sorry I can’t shut up about this movie. 

I’m just so fucking INTO everything it’s about! 

(Edit: I was too excited to think while I wrote this and but now it’s doing numbers and everyone is yelling at me asking what the name of the movie is lol. It’s The Old Guard, it’s on Netflix and came out a week ago.)

#remebering this post #tog

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#if my prius gets hit i know itll be totaled but at least i will survive 🙂‍↕️

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#never gonna happen #im dead after 3 🫡

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Me: but can I make a JoeNicky fic out of this?

#joenicky

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#there are lies #damned lies #and statistics

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mutuals post what’s in your bag idc if it’s boring ily

#my laptop #notebooks #textbook #pencils and pen #bubbles #a toy duck #random bits of paper #pills #used and unused tissues #i'll clean out my backpack when i get home (lying)

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Using dissociate instead of zoning out. Describing a hobby as a hyperfixation. Saying nonverbal when you want a bit of quiet. Saying intrusive thoughts because that must mean an urge like to buy coffee or hair dye. Do you know feeling off sometimes is a sign of autism? Lying is gaslighting. Everyone I dislike is a narcissist.

#my friend who actually has and was diagnosed with ocd called an impusive thought an intrusive throught the other day and i almost lost it #not bc i was mad at them but bc im mad at the system

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reminder that digital libraries aren’t owned, also why pirating digital content is a necessity

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ALL OF US STRANGERS (2023) dir. ANDREW HAIGH

#aous #this movie killed me and i didnt come back as a ghost who flirts with andrew scott