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[shesholy]

sure she was expected to be the bigger person . to portray herself as unbothered by his antics but she'd never been the bigger person in her life . truth be told , she didn't care to be . vindictive nature much more enjoyable then the idea of putting on rose - colored glasses and claiming everything happens for a reason . sour laugh coming from her as she finally allows her gaze to fall onto him , " sure . " his  word  nowadays  sounding  much  more  like  white  noise  to  the  blonde  since  the  deterioration  of  their  relationship  .  snide  comment  lingers  on  her  tongue  but  instead  she  washes  it  down  with  her  drink  ,  offering  a  soft  hum  to  his  words  .  shifting  on  the  rail  so  she  could  get  a  better  look  at  ford  ,  "  i'll  always  be  the  best  ,  "  her  words  having  double  meaning  ,  "  i  was  sure  not  even  you  could  manage  to  forget  that  ,  "  she  said  with  a  raise  of  her  brow  .

he was sure the guilt was etched on his face the second she really looked at him, the singer might have not done anything wrong this weekend to piss off the driver but that didn't mean he wasn't holding onto a hoard of guilt over the way he had treated her - and he supposed the behaviour that had only spiralled since then. with alana, then with the continued displays of picking felicity. he was doing a bang up job of making sure no one looked past the mistakes they had made. "come on i wouldn't do that to you." he'd also never thought that he would cheat on her so what his word actually meant to her he couldn't really know. besides, felicity had a boyfriend, and he was strictly not allowed to be seen anywhere near her - not in public. letting her ramble the males face screwed up in disgust. "the people they let in here these days get's more an more questionable." quite literally anyone could get in apparently. "i saw you drive this weekend though, still the best huh?"

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse. ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose. ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

GIGI HADID.

VIA MIMI CUTTRELL’S INSTAGRAM HANDLE. | 24TH APRIL 2023.

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse. ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ semblance. ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖔𝖓𝖊     .     initial     .

full     name:   andrea     daniela     alcantara     . nicknames,     aliases:

drea     . ( preferred name )

andy     .

age:     thirty     -     four     . date     of     birth:    december     twelfth     . place     of     birth:    anaheim     , california     . nationality:     american     . ethnicity:    asian     (          filipino           )     ,     white     (         scottish , irish , spanish         )    . languages     spoken:     english     ,     italian     ,     french    .

zodiac     sign:   sagittarius     . hogwarts     house:   slytherin     . myers     -    briggs:   tba     .

education:         stanford university     (         g.     2011          )     . occupation:     reality tv star , real estate broker , author , former miss universe title holder .

(         you     can     find     her     career     details here     .          )

height:   five     foot     eight     . weight:  132     lbs     . tattoos,     piercings:   same     as     faceclaim     .

father:     cesar     alcantara     (          sixty     -     two         )     ,     a mexican born restaurateur     .     relationship     :     tba   .   mother:    georgia     alcantara nee herman     (          fifty - eight          )     ,     an     american     journalist     .    relationship     :    tba     .          sibling:     tba     .     pets:     bear     (         pomeranian     ,     nine     years     old         )     .

gender:  cis     female     . pronouns:   she     /     her     . orientation:   bisexual , biromantic ( leans more toward woman )     . status:  single     . past     relationships:

brooke hawker . ( d. tba )     

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖙𝖜𝖔     .     background     .

chara     inspo  :     heather chandler ( heathers ) , whitney ( bring it on ) , cc babbcock ( the nanny ) , rebekah mikaelson ( the vampire diaries ) , gabrielle solis ( desperate housewives )    .

born  and  raised  in  anaheim  hills  .  your  typical  orange  county  girl  with  a  love  for  the  beach  ,  afternoons  spent  at  the  mall  ,  and  working  the  word  "  like  "  into  nearly  every  sentence  that  came  out  of  her  mouth  .  her  father  ,  cesar  ,  moved  to  southern  california  as  a  teenager  to  live  with  his  grandparents  after  his  parents  had  a  run  with  the  mexican  government  .  it  was  quite  the  life  style  change  for  him  but  he  was  a  quick  learner  .  by  his  mid  -  twenties  cesar  had  one  of  the  most  high  -  end  "  around  the  world  "  restaurants  in  the  country  ,  the  aristocrat  .  it  wasn't  long  before  he'd  meet  his  wife  ,  georgia  ,  a  journalist  looking  to  do  a  story  on  his  business  .  by  the  time  the  story  was  finished  the  two  were  engaged  ,  the  type  to  believe  the  mantra  --  when  you  know  ,  you  know  .  once  the  happy  couple  welcomed  there  daughter  into  the  world  ,  the  aristocrat  had  already  become  an  international  sensation  with  restaurants  in  over  twenty  different  countries  spanning  all  six  inhabitable  continents  .  to  say  drea  grew  up  with  a  golden  spoon  ,  would  be  an  understatement  . 

at  an  early  age  her  mom  put  her  in  beauty  pageants  ,  anything  that  brought  attention  to  her  golden  child  ,  whether  it  be  modelling  ,  cheerleading  ,  or  pageants  .  although  the  later  was  what  drea  was  drawn  to  ,  she  had  a  knack  for  it  .  the  catty  behavior  behind  the  scenes  ,  the  fake  smiles  and  fooling  the  world  into  believing  outer  beauty  reflected  inner  beauty  :  it  was  sick  and  twisted  ,  but  she  got  a  rush  from  it  all  . highschool  was  unsurprisingly  a  breeze  for  her  ,  top  of  the  class  at  her  all  -  girl  private  school  ,  was  it  because  she  deserved  the  academic  accolades  or  because  she  did  more  than  just  batting  her  lashes  at  unsuspecting  teachers  ,  that  was  something  she'd  take  to  the  grave  .  come  time  for  college  applications  she stayed  true  to  herself  and  her  high  -  standards  only  applying  to  the  most  prestigious  schools  .  when  early  acceptance  came  from  stanford  (  vocally  her  top  choice  )  ,  she  didn't  wait  to  see  what  other  schools  would  accept  her  and  committed  to  their  fall  semester  of  that  year  .  while  at  stanford  she  took  on  cheerleading  ,  a  way  to  get  closer  to  the  football  players  ,  she  was  shameless  &  also  joined  the  model  un  ,  for  no  other  reason  but  the  fact  it  would  look  good  for  pageants  .       

graduating  in  2011  ,  she  truthfully  wasn't  sure  what  she  wanted  to  do  with  her  degree  .  the  world  her  oyster  ,  she  decided  not  to  tie  herself  down  with  a  career  just  yet  .  instead  traveling  the  world  for  the  next  year  ,  until  she  found  herself  in  australia  for  an  extended  period  of  time  ,  being  brought  under  the  wing  of  a  real  estate  mogul  who  got  her  started  in  the  industry  .  with  his  help  she  closed  some  of  the  most  lucrative  deals  a  young  agent  could  only  dream  of  .

a  few  months  into  returning  back  to  the  states  ,  her  mother  informed  her  she'd  put  in  for  her  to  go  on  abc's  the  bachelor  .  a  point  of  contention  for  them  ,  as  drea  had  no  interest  in  displaying  an  facet  of  her  love  life  for  the  public  while  all  her  mother  cared  about  was  getting  more  eyes  on  her  daughter  .  it  was  some  sort  of  sick  affinity  to  live  vicariously  through  her  daughter  and  it  would  soon  become  a  catalyst  to  the  downfall  of  their  relationship  .  despite  her  lack  of  interest  in  the  show  or  the  man at  the  forefront  ,  when  producers  offered  her  a  spot  on  the  cast  ,  she  took  it  .  she  may  not  have  liked  it  but  andrea�� alcantara  was  her  mother's  daughter  through  and  through  .  quickly  becoming  a  favorite  on  the  show  both  by  the  audience  and  by  the  man  of  the  hour  .  anyone  who  knew  her  personally  knew  she  wasn't  being  herself  on  the  show  ,  portraying  herself  as  a  sweet  california  girl  ,  despite  being  anything  but  that  .  she  had  a  deep  rooted  competitive  nature  to  her  ,  she  simply  was  not  wired  to  lose  anything  .  inevitably  the  bachelor  proposes  to  her  and  in  a  shocking  twist  of  events  ,  she  says  no  .  they  date  for  a  months  following  the  show  before  she  seemingly  leaves  him  in  th  dust  popping  up  on  tabloids  with  a  partner  at  her  side  .

drea's  miss  universe  run  started  in  2014  when  she  won  miss  california  ,  followed  by  winning  miss  america  the  next  year  .  the  facade  of  the  perfect  woman  on  full  display  for  the  world  to  see  .  although  her  fellow  contestants  saw  through  the  mask  ,  verbally  and  emotionally  abused  by  the  california  native  their  was  never  any  proof  and  so  it  all  was  spun  on  tabloids  in  drea's  favor  as  a  group  of  catty  women  with  a  bad  dose  of  jealously  .  once  the  2016  miss  universe  crown  was  placed  on  her  head  all  the  years  of  pagaents  seemed  worth  it  ,  she  was  happy  to  fulfill  her  duties  for  the  next  year  and  leave  beauty  pagents  behind  her  .  her  mother  not  so  fond  of  that  idea  ,  berating  her  to  go  on  to  miss  world  or  miss  international  .  this  is  around  the  time  she  cut  ties  with  mother  (  on  really  interacting  with  her  during  family  functions  )  . 

in  early  2018  the  brokerage  she  worked  for  was  approached  by  netflix  ,  the  producers  seeing  the  opportunity  to  showcase  the  vivacious  and  cutthroat  personalities  some  of  the  top  selling  real  estate  agents  around  .  filming  started  soon  after  and  when  season  one  of  selling  sunset  came  out  an  entirely  new  light  had  been  shed  on  her  .  called  out  by  the  public  for  being  fake  and  cruel  after  years  of  portraying  herself  as  something  entirely  different  to  the  public  .  after  a  few  seasons  the  outrage  seemed  to  die  down  ,  after  all  ,  she  was  good  tv  and  better  yet  damn  good  at  her  job  .  the  top  selling  agent  in  the  firm  for  the  last  four  seasons  .  she's  currently  in  talks  with  the  heads  of  the  firm  and  producers  of  the  show  to  take  over  the  international  branch  of  the  firm  and  potentially  get  her  own  spin  -  off  show  .                

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖙𝖍𝖗𝖊𝖊     .     facts     .

the  type  to  carry  her  dog  everywhere  she  goes  ,  whether  it's  into  a  coffee  shop  to  grab  her  daily  matcha  or  to  do  a  house  showing  . 

frequent  flier  at  fashion  week  and  overall  any  big  fashion  event  .

released  a  book  in  2021  titled  "  what  if  i  lied  ...  "  and  autobiographical  comedy  book  and  ny  times  best  seller  ,  pretty  much  delving  into  what  it  would  have  looked  like  if  she  was  in  fact  as  bitchy  as  everyone  says  she  is ,  moral  of  the  story  :  she  outs  herself  but  makes  jokes  in  between  to  make  it  palatable  . 

doesn't  believe  in  lifting  a  finger  ,  she  has  two  assistants  and  an  entire  staff  on  her  estate  who  do  everything  for  her  from  cleaning  to  grocery  shopping  to  reminding  her  of  her  daily  schedule  .

pretty straight edge , had her drug phase in college and hasn't touched anything since . although you can catch her with a glass of wine at any given time throughout the day .

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖋𝖔𝖚𝖗     .     wanted     connections     .

i’ll  put  something  here  one  day    !

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃⁿᵈʳᵉᵃ 𝐚𝐥𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐚 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse* ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #hillzhqsintro

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navigating through confrontation was never bristol's strong suit . the type to wear her heart on her sleeve . making her way through the house , an attempt to just have a moment to herself , to calm down . his words ringing in her ear . " my last husband ? " her voice raising to a point she'd never so much as thought it'd reach with him . " had enough sense not to bring up my past relationships , " a roll of her eyes , inner monologue telling her to keep some semblance of composure and not say anything she didn't mean . " and news flash , just because you're in a shit mood doesn't mean you get a free pass to just shout , handle your fucking emotions better , " she huffed , opening the door to their bedroom and slamming it closed in his face . a heavy sigh coming from her as she ran her fingertips through her hair .

closed starter for angel & bristol | @shesholy

"where the hell are you going?" angel yelled after the blonde as she began to move her way through their home, and suddenly he was being forced to follow her. they had bickered before, living together would do that but this was the first time they had ever really argued and so far - they sucked at it. "i'm not sure how your last husband did shit bris but you don't get to walk away from me until we sort this out." hence why correctly or not, he was still following her through the house. "i know you've never bene through an off season with me before but news flash they suck for me, and i'm sorry i shouted at the dog alright but it was under my feet and i could have squished the fuvking thing and then you've had been even more pissed at me!"

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇʳⁱˢᵗᵒˡ 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇʳⁱˢᵗᵒˡ 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 : ��� ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

leaning over with a bright smile to the little one , " hadley , you absolute beauty queen , " she gushed , tip of her finger poking at her nose . there was an elephant in the room , there was no denying that much but bristol would never let mallory's child see that . bristol was happy with her life and the direction it'd gone in . she was and wanted nothing more than to be happy for her ex finding his happiness even if it were the girl she at one point didn't have to worry about . a lesson learned to trust her gut instincts she supposed . attention fully on th brunette as she gave her a slight nod , " it's okay , " she laughs of the idea of a sugar rush , " how've you been , babes ? " not entirely sure how to navigate being alone with mallory nowadays but she'd try her best .

closed starter for mallory & bristol | @shesholy

“Auntie B!” The toddler was off before she could stop her and soon enough Hadley was wrapped around the legs of the woman that had once been so familiar to her. Bristol Decker, or Bristol Griffin now she supposed. It had been a while since she had seen her and even longer since her daughter had, the time alone would have made it awkward except she was now dating her ex-husband, as the girl Bristol had been told not to worry about and she couldn’t help but shrink into herself just a little as she looked back at the younger woman. “Hi - sorry she had sugar for lunch.” Smooth start Mallory.

#muse #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇʳⁱˢᵗᵒˡ 𝐝𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #prose

[shesholy]

having just flown back in after the all star open , staying in for the night should have been of utmost importance to alabama but instead she found herself in one of the few spots she could actually stand to party at . memories ran rampant here and not quite the ones that were easily suppressed . half checked out of a conversation she'd lost interest in a while ago , she grabs her drink and bows out . slipping away to the one spot she knew no one would be . their her secret spot . pushing the door open , to find the only person who would know to hide away there . a roll of her eyes as he's already rambling , heavy sigh falling from the brunette . leaning her arms over the railing as she refuses to even look at him . " surprised you didn't bring her up here , " her expectations of him nowadays were low but even she knew he wouldn't go that far . " i'm not going to kick you out , " she says plainly , taking a sip of her drink , " i needed to get away from this guy damn near begging for an in to the monaco grand prix because , " pausing for a second , " it's be so sick to get content there , " her tone mocking the guy with a shake of her head .

closed starter ford & alabama | @shesholy

of all the shitty places people held parties these days, this one was his favourite, it was over used and had way to many influencers trying to make their way inside knowing they would see someone at that could be their ticket, but it was still fords favourite. it had a hiding spot, a hidden stair case that unless you stumbled through it drunk trying to find somewhere to hook up like he and his ex-girlfriend had years ago by accident, you wouldn't find it. since then it had become a safe haven when the parties were too much, it was access to a quiet roof to smoke and not have to mingle with anyone. or it was till right now, when he heard the door click and he knew it was only one person that would be joining him. "you can't kick me out i was here first and that fucking blonde that just hit a million followers on tiktok won't leave me alone, she's told me the same story five times i'm not going back inside."

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse. ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃˡᵃᵇᵃᵐᵃ 𝐥𝐞𝐯𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐨𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose. ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

icedfae·:    

“They should be fired? Now that’s a little harsh, even for you,” Eyes bugging out in response to her words, pretty sure that it was Austen Sinclair just being Austen. She was known for being blunt in her assessments and Freddie refused to fault her for that reason. Plus, he did have a reputation to uphold, considering what last name he bore. “Is it Tuesday? I only shower on Tuesdays, you know that!” He teased her right back, moving closer so she could get a better whiff of him, desperately trying to keep the smirk off his face at the bantering. He had showered earlier in the day, after all, but she would not know that. Hands swatting playfully at her, Freddie’s attempt at hiding things gone as the smile finally broke on his face. “Good to see you haven’t lost your sense of humor since I’ve been gone.”

“  how  is  it  harsh  ?  “  she  pouts  slightly  ,  “  it’s  like  doing  them  a  favor  ,  maybe  they’ll  learn  to  do  better  in  the  future  .  “  turning  her  head  away  in  a  feigned  attempt  to  not  be  subjected  to  his  scent  ,  “  did  you  happen  to  skip  this  tuesday  ?  “  she  joked  ,  hand  dramatically  waving  in  front  of  hr  nose  .  hints  of  a  light  hearted  smile  finally  pulling  at  the  corners  of  her  lips  as  she  gives  him  a  slight  shrug  .  humor  naturally  her  best  and  worst  personality  trait  ,  dependent  on  who  you  asked  .  “  where  did  you  go  anyways  ,  houdini  ?  you  know  ,  it’s  not  a  good  trick  if  you  just  come  back  ,  right  ?  “  she  laughs  with  a  raise  of  her  brow  .      

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

watching as her mom started unpacking the grocery bag , it was reassurance as to why she'd had her over to begin with . since making the decision to actually let persephone in , their relationship was better than ever . she could only hope that wouldn't change . finally working toward the relationship she always wanted even if she'd never admit that outloud . eyes flutter closed once she feels her squeeze at her shoulder , head dropping as she tries to keep her composure as best as possible . " i'm glad you believe that , " she says finally picking her head up . austen had always had a more pessimistic look on life . shake of her head at the sentiment of her mom being proud of her . " it doesn't feel like it's what's best for me , " she takes in a deep breath , another attempt at keeping her composure . " i don't even care about the fucking movie without him , " she groans , some truth to her statement . she's said she'd stayed for the sake of her career but in all honestly it was because of her brother , knowing deep down there was no way she could function properly thousands of miles away from her twin .

persephone had known heartbreak all too well, especially in recent months. and because of that, she wanted nothing more than to be by austen's side. she didn't care what people had to say or the rumors that they started - she knew how happy austen was and with that gone, she wanted to make sure she was okay, that she was solid on her own, that she didn't slip back into old habits. she knew how tempting that was. after making her way over to austen's with all of her favorite snacks and junk food - a very out of character thing to do for the health nut that persephone was, but she'd indulge in it today if it bought comfort to her daughter, she moved around the kitchen, unpacking the grocery bags she had got over. as austen breaks the silence, she stops in her motions, looking over at her as she let out a low sigh, placing one of the bags of chips down as she made her way over to austen, placing a hand on her shoulder as she gave it a gentle squeeze. "sometimes, they come back, you know." she said, offering a sad smile. "time is the biggest bitch of all, you know? but i'm a firm believer in everything happening for a reason and falling where it should, and if one day down the road you two are meant to be together, you'll find your way back to each other. but you did what was best for you. and for that? i couldn't be prouder of you."

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

slipping into the car , slight nod to the driver . sister's voice breaking through the air leaving that same driver beside himself and beckham , unphased . chuckle coming from him as he leaned over , hand gripping the driver seat , " you heard her , " wiggle of his brows before falling back into his . " you know , " finally turning his head toward bianca , fingers picking up one of the wrappers and crumbling it between digits . " i'm partially inclined to call the cops over breaking and entering , just to see a light show , " content sigh coming from him before giving the driver the green light to get on the road , even with bianca in the car .

𝐎𝐏𝐄𝐍 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 : 𝖇𝖎𝖆𝖓𝖈𝖆 𝖛𝖆𝖓 𝖇𝖚𝖗𝖊𝖓

𝐥𝐨𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 : 𝖞𝖔𝖚𝖗 𝖒𝖚𝖘𝖊'𝖘 𝖈𝖆𝖗/𝖑𝖎𝖒𝖔

a bobby pin and a dream - that's all bianca needed to break into whatever locked off spaces she pleased. and today was no different. perched in the vehicles back seat, she reaches forward to rummage through the glove compartment, looking through whoever's car this was' scattered belongings throughout, completely unphased when they opened the car door and joined her. "you know, you really need to get this under control. do you know how many gun wrappers i found in here? ew." she said with a scrunch of her nose, leaning back against the seat with a huff as one long leg crossed over the other. "and for the record, your seats could totally use some refurbishing."

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose: ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

icedfae·:

“You’re telling me that this outfit isn’t working? I didn’t think fashion trends changed that quickly,” Freddie whined over his drink, looking down at the outfit that had called the conversation into question. “At least tell me my hair looks alright.”

“  i’m  telling  you  ,  whoever  your  stylist  is  deserves  to  be  fired  ,  “  austen  confirmed  with  a  slight  shrug  of  her  shoulders  .  truthfully  ,  he  didn’t  look  as  bad  as  she  was  letting  on  but  he  was  also  a  hawker  ,  her  expectations  were  naturally  much  higher  for  him  .  “  but  it  doesn’t  ,  “  she  whined  ,  scrunch  of  her  face  to  hold  back  the  smirk  trying  to  fight  it’s  way  onto  her  features  .  this  time  entirely  teasing  the  fellow  blonde  ,  “  have  you  even  showered  today  ?  “  she  questions  ,  digits  touching  a  couple  strands  of  his  hair  as  she  lifts  herself  up  on  her  tip  -  toes  .    

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

who : austen and persephone . ( closed ) location : austen's house in encino .

her mom had been there no longer than ten minutes . the only time she'd left the couch since returning home . propped up on the kitchen counter . she'd been fighting every piece of her that told her to revert back to her old ways , her old mindset . " why does everyone leave ? " voice only carried by an underlying frustration . a life riddled with backs turned to her as they walked out the door , the sound of a door closing becoming something for her to be afraid of . although , none of her anger is geared toward anyone but herself . she wasn't mad at merrick , she didn't hate him and that perhaps was what made this entire situation all the more tough on her . gaze falling on her mom , " it's not fair . " ( @rxscss )

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #<333

[shesholy]

who : austen and julian . ( closed ) location : julian's estate in california .

i can't leave . three words that were plaguing her mind since she'd uttered them . refusing to send him off at the airport , it hurt too much , to watch him go . another choice that would plague her mind . once she'd run out of tears to cry , that nagging feeling she's done so well at keeping suppressed reared it's ugly head . couldn't stay cooped up in the house any longer , she goes for a ride . driving aimlessly for what felt like an hour before she finds herself on familiar property . glossy eyes blink for a second , pulling herself out of the car and to the front steps . ringing the door bell before she slumps down onto the steps , head in hands . she just wanted her dad . heavy sigh as she hears the door open , head not moving from her hands , " are you still going to boston , " she manages to get out . ( @lgends )

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵃᵘˢᵗᵉⁿ 𝐬𝐢𝐧𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐢𝐫 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

"  i've  seen  better  ,  "  a  quirk  of  perfectly  refined  brows  ,  a shrug  of  his shoulders  to  showcase  his  indifference  .  sipping  from  rocks  glass  ,  as  he  looks  her  over  , again . a picky guy in nature but by no means was he blind . "  subtly  is  boring  ,  "  leaning  up  against  counter  space  ,  infamous  mischievous  air  to  him  present  as  always  ,  "  don't  you  think  ?  "  setting  his  glass  down  ,  perfect fit  of  white ,  tom  ford  button  down  on  full  display  as  he  reaches  his  arm  out  .       

open  starter  !

"  i  look  good,  don't  i  ?  "  smirk  curled  around  plump  glossed  lips  ,  emine  cocking  her  head  to  the  side  to  challenge.  dress  ,  cinched  at  the  waist  and  low  at  the  bosom  ,  was  short  enough  to  draw  attention  but  not  short  enough  to  be  called  a  whore.  especially  the  line  she  liked  to  walk.  "  i  don't  blame  you  for  staring  ,  "  she  purred  ,  tone  sweet  like  candy  floss  ,  "  but  at  least  try  and  be  subtle  ?  "  

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse: ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

😎

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ semblance: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse: ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

a list of wanted connections for beckham van buren .

american  jesus  ,  you  know  all  my  secrets  ,  american  jesus  ,  baby  ,  won't  you  take  me  to  heaven  tonight  ?  you  know  you're  my  weakness  ,  american  jesus  ,  save  me  ,  you're  the  greatest  love  of  my  life  .

to  beckham  they're  just  a  fun  long  -  term  situationship  but  to  your  muse  they  are  so  much  more  .  he  knows  everything  about  them  while  they  only  know  what  he  lets  them  know  what  he  wants  them  to  to  .  maybe  he's  led  them  to  think  there  is  more  there  than  there  is  or  he's  been  very  clear  but  him  always  coming  back  to  them  makes  them  think  his  words  don't  match  his  actions  ,  even  if  he  only  ever  really  makes  time  for  thm  at  night  or  for  impromptu  baecations  .

need  you  most  ,  you  always  get  mad  and  say  what  you  coulda  had  ,  and  that  you  want  me  to  make  it  right  ,  i  couldn't  do  that  to  save  my  life  .

beckham  has  a  laundry  list  of  people  he's  screwed  over  ,  over  the  years  but  this  muse  is  one  of  the  few  to  have  called  him  out  publicly  .  after  he  publicly  humiliated  them  on  his  podcast  they  cut  all  time  with  him  .  he  misses  having  them  around  ,  probably  were  like  something  of  a  partner  in  crime  to  him  or  childhood  friend  but  his  pride  can't  allow  him  to  apologize  and  they  won't  let  him  slide  this  time  around  .    

selfish  ,  i'm  not  ready  for  no  commitments  but  i  swear  i  hate  seeing  you  with  them  .  i  can't  help  how  i  feel  ,  i'm  just  keeping  it  real  .  they  can't  have  you  because  i'm  selfish  .  i  want  you  all  to  myself  ,  i  swear  ,  you  don't  need  nobody  else  ,  i  swear  .

if  there  was  a  one  for  beckham  in  this  world  ,  it's  them  ,  even  he's  convinced  of  this  .  despite  this  he's  always  refused  to  settle  down  and  in  turn  they  have  a  bit  of  an  on  -  again  -  off  -  again  going  for  them  .  anytime  they  try  to  move  on  from  him  ,  he's  somehow  managed  to  ruin  their  new  attempt  at  a  relationship  .  he  refuses  to  see  them  with  anyone  else  ,  while  also  refusing  to  give  them  the  security  they  need  .        

saturday  night  ,  cause  they'll  only  know  what  you  let  them  see  and  all  the  things  that  i  know  ,  that  your  parents  don't  ,  they  don't  care  like  i  do  ,  nowhere  like  i  do  .  

beckham  doesn't  have  a  soft  spot  ,  he'll  claim  that  until  he's  blue  in  the  face  .  truth  is  this  person  is  that  soft  spot  for  him  .  he  tries  his  best  to  look  out  for  them  :  taking  them  under  his  wing  in  many  ways  .  even  with  how  much  he  does  care  about  them  ,  it  manifests  in  a  rather  toxic  way  ,  where  they've  become  a  bit  dependent  on  his  attention  and  help  and  beckham  thrives  off  being  needed  by  someone  .  

 billie  jean  ,  and  mother  always  told  me  '  be  careful  who  you  love  and  be  careful  what  you  do  because  the  lie  becomes  the  truth  '  .  billie  jean  is  not  my  lover  ,  she's  just  a  girl  who  claims  that  i  am  the  one  but  the  kid  is  not  my  son  .

everyone  deserves  a  fun  little  paternity  scandal  .  could  be  from  the  past  or  an  upcoming  plotline  but  i'd  love  for  someone  who  claimed  beckham  fathered  their  child  .  a  big  public  scandal  ,  she  fabricates  some  story  maybe  because  they  had  a  thing  in  the  past  and  he  hurt  her  feelings  or  for  whatever  other  reason  you  could  think  of  .  bottom  line  is  he's  not  the  father  .                

heathens  ,  you'll  never  know  the  pyschopath  sitting  next  to  you  ,  you'll  never  know  the  murderer  sitting  next  to  you  ,  you'll  think  '  how  did  i  get  here  ,  sitting  next  to  you  ?  '  but  after  all  i've  said  ,  please  don't  forget  ,  all  my  friends  are  heathens  ,  take  it  slow  .   

beckham  doesn't  hold  many  people  close  but  these  guys  are  like  family  to  him  .  just  a  group  of  like  minded  guys  who  cause  a  ton  of  chaos  together  and  have  each  other's  back  throughout  it  all  .  likely  his  longest  lasting  friends  .  

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #did i actually make a wc post for the first time ever ?? yesss #will i ever do it again ? prob not lmao

[shesholy]

sweetncthingss​:                         

was it smart of carson to be inserting himself in the outwardly messy life of a kennedy? it sure as shit wasn’t but he’d been dropped on his head just one time too many as a kid and was perfectly fine with reasoning reckless decisions were just a part of his lacking frontal lobe. and shit, if it all went wrong then he was going to taylor swift this shit and have one hell of an album, he really couldn’t see what was wrong with any of it. “you complaining about it or you going to just listen to someone for once and believe it?” he didn’t think there would be all that many people lined up to put the other in her place. moving her out of his way without asking first, hands gripped to hips for just a second, carson placed his own helmet atop of his head, climbing on the bike with a small smirk in her direction before gesturing for her to climb on behind. “you got a curfew or can i just keep driving?” 

being  intimidating  was  something  of  a  kink  for  the  woman  .  on  the  rare  occasion  courage  was  mustered  up  around  her  though  ,  baby  blue’s  lit  up  .  lips  parting  as  head  jerks  to  the  side  ,  gaze  could  be  interpreted  as  awe  .  a  rush  flushes  through  her  at  his  touch  and  before  she  knows  it  she’s  been  put  in  her  place  :  both  verbally  and  physically  .  roll  of  blue  eyes  before  she  gives  in  and  climbs  on  ,  an  arm  snaking  around  his  torso  ,  “  do  i  look  like  someone  who  has  ever  had  a  curfew  a  day  in  my  life  ?  “  her  own  smirk  now  stretched  on  to  her  features  .  if  he  was  going  to  give  it  to  her  she’d  give  it  right  back  .  “  i’ve  never  been  very  good  at  listening  ,  by  the  way  ,  “  she  manages  out  before  the  engine  revs  ,  satisfied  look  on  her  face  covered  by  the  masking  of  the  helmet  .        

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ʲᵒʳᵈᵃⁿᵃ 𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐝𝐲 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ prose ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ʲᵒʳᵈᵃⁿᵃ 𝐤𝐞𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐝𝐲 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse ⠀ ⠀ ❫

[shesholy]

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖔𝖓𝖊     .     initial     .

full     name:   beckham     james     van buren     . nicknames,     aliases:

beck     .    

bj     .    ( by family )

age:   twenty     -     seven     . date     of     birth:    august     eighteenth     . place     of     birth:   southhampton     ,     long island     ,     new york     . hometown:     upper     east     side     ,     new     york     city     ,     new     york     . nationality:     american     . languages     spoken:     english     .

zodiac     sign:    leo     . hogwarts     house:    slytherin     . myers     -    briggs:   tba     .

occupation:    actor , podcaster , socialite     . career     details:

( can find his career details here . )               

height:   six     foot     two     . weight:   180     lbs     . tattoos,     piercings:   no tattoos , used to have his ears pierced but let them close a while ago     .

father:    fredrick     van buren     (         tba          )     ,     ceo of a luxury jewelry company     .     relationship     :    tba     .   mother:   sara     forbes - chase     (        forty - nine          )     ,     a     german - american     heiress     ,     philanthropist     ,     and     supermodel    .   relationship     :   tba . step - father: harry chase ( sixty ) , an american ceo and chairman of jpmorgan chase banking company . relationship : tba .  sister: bianca van buren ( twenty - two ) , an american heiress and model . relationship : tba .      pets:     none .

gender:   cis     male     . pronouns:   he     /     him     . orientation:   bisexual ( doesn't lean more towards either one )     . status:   single     . past     relationships:

tba .                

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖙𝖜𝖔     .     background     .

inspo     :     draco  malfoy  ( harry potter series  )  ,  lucifer  morningstar   (  lucifer  )  ,  chuck  bass  ( gossip  girl  )  ,  nate  jacobs  (  euphoria  )      .

it  was  was  very  clear  from  the  day  he  was  born  ,  beckham  was  not  going  to  be  like  other  children  .  rarely  cried  ,  he  was  cold  and  distant  .  wails  only  coming  from  him  when  picked  up  .  born  the  first  and  only  son  of  fredrick  van  buren  and  sara  forbes  ,  a  couple  who  were  the  picture  of  perfection  in  new  york  society  .  all  that  glitters  isn't  always  gold  though  ,  the  truth  was  his  parents  hated  eachother  and  it  wasn't  long  before  the  two  finally  separated  .  unlike  most  children  he  was  unphased  by  the  split  between  his  parents  ,  entirely  indifferent  .  his  parents  showed  their  love  for  him  in  drastically  different  ways  :  his  father  tossed  money  and  gifts  his  way  to  make  up  for  the  lack  of  affection  while  his  mother  took  on  the  role  of  a  fan  of  her  own  son  ,  he  could  do  no  wrong  in  sara's  eyes  and  as  he  grew  older  it  became  clear  she  was  more  of  a  friend  to  her  son  than  a  mother  .

formative  years  spent  in  long  island  before  his  mother  let  go  of  the  idea  of  living  her  best  life  and  settled  down  (  although  the  last  thing  she'd  done  was  settle  )  ,  marrying  one  of  the  richest  men  in  the  world  ,  harry  chase  .  harry  was  no  better  than  his  mother  ,  beckham  quickly  turning  into  the  apple  of  the  mans  eyes  .  claiming  to  have  always  wanted  a  son  ,  he  wanted  nothing  more  for  him  to  accept  him  and  even  at  a  young  age  beckham  was  aware  of  this  and  used  it  to  his  advantage  .  a  household  entirely  ruled  by  the  whims  of  a  young  boy  .  the  move  to  the  upper  east  side  of  manhattan  happened  swiftly  ,  beckham  already  well  acquainted  with  the  area  thanks  to  time  spent  with  his  father  .  city  life  turning  out  to  be  much  more  his  speed  .  a  life  riddled  with  luxury  drivers  ,  elite  private  schools  ,  and  access  to  just  about  anything  he  could  ever  want  .

it  was  at  fifteen  that  he  started  his  acting  career  ,  getting  the  role  of  max  dennison  in  the  classic  hocus  pocus  .  it  was  entirely  based  on  nepotism  ,  his  parents  having  the  right  friends  in  the  right  places  but  he  couldn't  have  cared  less  and  neither  did  the  audience  who  fell  absolutely  in  love  with  him  .  as  if  his  ego  needed  to  be  stroked  any  further  .  from  there  on  the  roles  just  started  to  flood  in  but  beckham  was  very  particular  about  what  he  took  on  .  acting  never  his  first  priority  ,  he  cared  much  more  about  the  life  of  a  socalite  .  the  parties  ,  the  drugs  ,  the  sex  ,  the  drama  it  was  addictive  to  him  .  becoming  a  mainstay  in  gossip  blogs  before  he'd  even  hit  eighteen  years  old  .  his  reputation  soon  enough  preceded  him  ,  he  would  ruin  someone's  life  with  a  smile  on  his  face  .  walk  away  from  the  chaos  he'd  created  and  do  it  again  .  he  doesn't  hide  who  or  what  he  is  and  somehow  has  managed  to  convince  many  he  means  well  (  fun  fact  :  he  doesn't  )  .

at  some  point  he  got  wrapped  up  in  the  internet  world  ,  making  appearances  in  some  of  the  biggest  youtubers  videos  and  making  guest  appearances  on  podcaster  where  he  quickly  became  a  favorite  .  his  lack  of  a  filter  and  charming  smile  that  always  followed  outlandish  quotes  capitulated  him  into  a  space  acting  simply  could  never  .  it  wasn't  long  before  he  realized  guest  appearances  weren't  needed  any  more  and  he  started  up  his  own  podcast  ,  why  stop  now  .  within  two  years  he  was  picked  up  by  spotify  who  offered  him  the  biggest  deal  to  date  .      

now  he  splits  his  time  between  los  angeles  and  new  york  ,  leaving  a  trail  of  tears  and  disarray  everywhere  he  goes  .              

𝖑𝖆𝖞𝖊𝖗 𝖋𝖔𝖚𝖗     .     wanted     connections     .

i’ll  put  something  here  one  day    !

#ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ muse: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #ㅤ۪ㅤ۫ㅤ੭ ᵇᵉᶜᵏʰᵃᵐ 𝐯𝐚𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐫𝐞𝐧 : ❪ ⠀ ⠀ about: ⠀ ⠀ ❫ #hillzhqsintro