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Updating Honkai so I will be avoiding the dash for a bit (on purpose this time) and we'll see if anything brings back muse for this blog. Been over on @venitdomum if you guys want to interact with my Genshin muses

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Might be around for a bit today. Decided to finally take a break from Genshin and get caught up with some of Star Rail for once. I haven't really played seriously since Jing Liu came out.

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"THE LAST TIME I SAW YOU, YOU HURT ME" PROMPTS *  assorted dialogue for painful conversations, adjust as necessary

we didn't exactly part ways on a good note.

i'm still waiting for my apology. you know. the one you owe me?

i hated what you've done to me.

the guilt eats me up inside.

you put me in an awkward position.

i thought i told you i never wanted to see you again.

this isn't what i had in mind.

don't you have somewhere else to be?

i want you to leave me alone.

you haven't apologized for what you did.

i don't want to see you. i never want to see you.

i said it once and i'll say it again. leave me alone!

go away, and never come back here!

i can't forgive you.

you're just sorry you got caught.

if you're looking for forgiveness, you won't find it here.

you broke my heart. what part of that do you not understand?

how am i supposed to just look the other way?

i stuck my neck out for you, and this is the thanks i get?

you were never going to apologize.

can we speak of this another time? i'm busy.

i never want to see your face again.

you know what? lose my number.

get out of my face.

you're not welcome here anymore.

i should have apologized ages ago.

you missed your chance to apologize to me.

you had plenty of opportunities to say sorry.

you're not sorry for what you did.

can't you just leave me alone?

i'm here to apologize to you.

i'll do anything you ask of me.

you know i had no other choice.

go somewhere else. not here. you're not welcome here.

don't come any closer.

turn around and walk straight out the door.

i said get away from me.

i just need five minutes of your time.

i think i owe you a pretty substantial apology.

the last time i saw you... i hurt you. i didn't mean to hurt you, but i know i did.

could you give me a second chance to make it up to you?

i can still see the hurt on your face.

you didn't deserve the way i treated you.

i should have come to you sooner, i'll admit.

is there any way we can talk about what happened?

i never should have done what i did.

you have no idea the damage you caused.

i think it'd be best if we never spoke again.

delete my number.

what i did to you... is unforgiveable.

could you at least listen to me for five minutes?

i never meant to hurt you like this.

you didn't deserve the way i treated you.

you deserved better than that. i know that now.

what if we tried again?

maybe i don't deserve forgiveness after all.

i don't even want to hear it.

don't say another word.

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Scar Survey starters

"What's the story behind this scar? It looks like it has a tale to tell." "I can't help but notice the scars on your arms. They seem to have quite the history." "Every scar has a story, right?" "Did this one happen in a battle, or is there a different story behind it?" "Your scars are like a roadmap." "Where did you acquire this scar?" "I've always been curious about your scars." "This scar on your shoulder looks like it's been through something intense. What's the story?" "Scars tell a story of survival. Care to share some of yours with me?" "Scars aren't just wounds; they're badges of honor." "This scar on your hand seems different. What's the story behind it?" "Scars can be reminders of both pain and triumph." "Scars make us who we are." "Scars are like a visual history." "What's the history behind this scar on your back?" "I've been wondering about the stories behind your scars."

[SURVEY] The sender gently traces their fingers over the receiver's scars, curiosity evident in their touch. [SHARE] The sender rolls up their sleeves, revealing a collection of scars. [EXPLORE] The sender and the receiver spend an evening examining each other's scars. [TRACE] The sender leans in, delicately tracing the outline of a scar with their lips. [DISCUSS] The sender initiates a conversation, asking about a specific scar. [REVEAL] The sender opens up about the scars on their own body. [TOUCH] The sender's touch is gentle as they explore a particularly sensitive scar on the receiver's skin. [POINT] The sender points out a scar, prompting the receiver to explain the circumstances that led to its formation. [COMPARE] The sender and the receiver compare scars. [NARRATE] The sender narrates the story behind one of their scars. [LISTEN] The sender listens attentively as the receiver recounts the tales associated with each scar. [SHARE] The sender opens up about a particularly meaningful scar.

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DanHeng and Gepard

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not enough mermaid aus in this society

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"Assaulting me isn't what I wanted!" Gepard spat back. He gears up to give Sampo a swift kick between the legs, but stops as the man suddenly deflates. It was unexpected and also a relief. It caused Gepard to relax a bit, untensing himself.

"...I think there's been a misunderstanding here," the captain finally said as he simply let's the other rest his head against his chest, even if his heart is pounding. "I'm... not good with this sort of thing. I never have been. I asked because I was curious. I've always had an attraction to men, but I've never pursued anyone.... I was always too afraid to. I was scared of what people would think of me. But kissing you... it made me want to chase those butterflies you gave me. So I asked."

“This is what you wanted!” Then why is he hurting himself like this? 

If it wasn't for his gloves, his nails would have dug into the Captain's skin. It wasn't worth getting this upset. Yet everything screamed to just take it out on him. The man gave the go ahead, didn't he? So this was fine. He's fine.

His face comes close to finally shutting him up but they stop short at his question.

Would he prefer that? Sampo glares at him then… Places his head against Gepard's chest. Why? Why could he just keep quiet? It would've made both their lives easier. But this man got under his skin and dragged out the worst in him.

“I don't know.” 

For once he doesn't have an answer.

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Merry christmas~🎄🎅

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Gepard let out a half strangled gasp as he had the wind temporarily knocked out of him from being slammed into the wall. Icy blue eyes were wide and bewildered at the sudden aggression shown by Sampo. Of all the time he'd known the man, he never saw this side of him before. Perhaps smug or even cowardly, but never angry.

"I- !" He opened his mouth to explain himself but was stopped by the friction made against his groin. It made his body shudder, but he suppressed any noises that tried to escape him. "W-what the hell is wrong with you, Koski?" he panted as he tried pulling his arms free. Sampo was a lot stronger than he looked. With Sampo's leg slotted between his own, he contemplated for a short moment if it was worth escalating the situation by kicking the other man in the balls. Instead, he decided to try and be the one to keep a level head.

"Would you rather I have asked you for sex for free?" he finally asked.

His gloved hands clench with every word, each sentence the man said. “I thought,” Sampo starts. His fists, no, his whole body is shaking at this point. Was the man really as serious as he said he was?

“I thought you were a man of value and integrity.” It's said oh so quietly. A whisper only the other could hear. Yet loud with all the emotions he couldn't bear to hold in any more.

Before Gepard could say another word, the thief pushed him against a wall. The man wanted aggression? He'd give him aggression. A rough hand comes up to grab his face, forcing him to look at him. The other hand pinning both the Silvermane Guard's arms above his head. A knee comes up to rub up against his crotch.

“It's all the same. Each and every single one of you self righteous pricks.” This is what he wanted right? This is what they both wanted? 

Then why did it feel like he was harming himself with each action he took?

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"I'm being serious, Koski..." Gepard said before letting out a sigh. It wasn't like he expected it to work in the first place, so why did he still feel disappointed? It almost felt like a door had been slammed in his face, shutting down that option a little too quickly. He turned away from the other as well. Feeling a bit embittered, he uttered his next words without much thought to it.

"Well... I suppose I can always try someone else."

Emerald hues widen again, Sampo turns to face him. There's a range of emotions swirling within him as he stares him down. It was one of the few times his mask slips. If someone were to pay attention, there was a flash of anger. Disappointment. Guilt. But only for a moment.

Sampo regains his composure. He gives one harsh laugh. “Your jokes need work, Captain.”

Buying and selling sex was easy. Anyone could do it. That was the beauty of that kind of work. But seeing who bought it, who sold it. That was ugly. And now he felt that ugliness staring at him in the form of Gepard.

“I'll get you a joke book for Christmas.” He continued, now looking away from him. The jester wasn't laughing anymore.

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@versatilejoker asked: 🌿🍒

The captain's gaze flickered back and forth between that man and the mistletoe he was so smugly holding above his head. If Sampo was trying to get a rise out of him, Gepard wasn't going to give him the satisfaction. At least not the kind he was looking for. Instead, he gave some serious thought on whether or not he should kiss the other man, a list of cons ever growing. However the one pro he could find stood out louder than the rest. He wasn't likely to ever get an opportunity like this again. To explore the kiss of another man. He had always been quite private about his sexuality, not even telling his sisters about his interest in men. It was the perfect excuse to try it.

"Fine, have it your way," he said, acting as if it was such a hassle to comply with the other man's request. It wasn't. He reached his hands up and cupped Sampo's face before pulling him in for a kiss.

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@dupliciti asked: 🌿🍒

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It was probably a mistake to kiss Sampo. Honestly, anything involving Sampo was probably a mistake, but that didn't seem to stop Gepard from his seemingly bad decision. Of course, it was only a bad decision if it came to anything more, right? The blonde wasn't just going to sit there and listen to the incessant teasing from the other man that he didn't have the courage to kiss him. If anything, Gepard took it as a challenge. With a quick glance to make sure no one was watching them, he leaned in a pressed a kiss against Sampo's lips, if only to shut him up.

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Customers? Pay for the rest? Well, that certainly confirmed a few suspicions that Gepard had been holding onto, and honestly, wasn't that surprising. Of course he wasn't just a regular con man. Those of the Under World had to make a living somehow, why would sex work not be a part of that? Not that he would ever judge someone for it. However the idea of Sampo being skilled in that area intrigued him and filled him with jealousy at the same time. Freely exploring that side of life, something Gepard had difficulty doing. It wasn't as if he could just walk up to any man he fancied and talk his way into their bedroom, not like Sampo could at least.

"How much?" he asked after a long stretch of silence, hoping that the other wouldn't laugh him off immediately. It was already risky of him to be offering someone to pay for sex, but Sampo? He had to be out of his mind right now. Still, now that the words were out there, he couldn't just take it back like a slip of the tongue.

The thief doesn't pull away. He remains in his place, though there is a knowing smirk on his features.

"I haven't had a single customer complain to me yet. I wouldn't let you be the first, Captain." A gloved hand comes over to pull the man's face back to where it should be. Close to his own. "You'll have to pay for the rest however."

As if.

He pulled away to face away from the man. Face now turning red from this little act. He wasn't one to fluster easily. And yet... "I'm joking. Just a little prank, Mon Captain."

#*eyes emoji*

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I know I did like two things after not being around, but my new job is kicking my ass and I'm ready for bed djklfghs

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Gepard was a bit surprised at how gentle the kiss was. He had thought Sampo would have been a bit more aggressive, but was pleasantly surprised by the more tender affections. It was enough to make his heart flutter a little in his chest. When he pulled away, his face was a vibrant shade of pink as a slight smile tugged at his lips.

"You're a much better kisser than I imagined."

How cheeky. The Captain is using his own words against him. Yet… his lips don't leave. “Depends.” The thief says, his lips ever so close against the other's. “Depends on how well you kiss.”

The gap is closed between them. Warm lips against warm lips. But Sampo is a gentleman. He doesn't push his luck, nor does he try to push his tongue against the Silvermane Guard. It's a simple, soft peck. Nothing more and nothing less.

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@maskednihilism asked: "Pay back, Geppie." “🌿🍒

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"Are you sure you won't regret this either?" the Captain asked. Sampo had made it a point to make sure Gepard didn't regret his actions. Perhaps it was Sampo who was the one who regretted it. He leaned in closer to kiss the con man, only hesitating to see if the other would pull away before their lips met.

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