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I feel like a neuoritc little freak rn

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Me and some other people in my dorm have been hqving a lot of fun doodling jjk on the whiteboard recently i dont thknm ill ever find iut who they are rho

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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I think that Laios can smoke weed. I think he can enjoy the ritual of clean and fill bong, grind weed, pack bowl, and smoke. I think he can enjoy to make infusions of butters and oils with weed.

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My head hurts should i go and sleep despite me desperately needing to do homework y/n

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Legit if you beef with me i will get your mutuals in the divorce. I will get addrd to the server where you used to regularly complain about me. I will be the one getting the messages saying 'you were right about [blank]'

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alright guys im curious. who were the worst mutuals youve ever had

#i tend to block a lot of people out of my memory tbh but either 15 or z slur but i was also muts with like adrian and etc saur #either way ive had some pretty bad mutuals but i jusr cant remember them

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Ugh if i go to sleep even an hour past 10 now then i wale up with a headache i think i should fhange my meds because this doesnt help for schoolwork at all

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I didn’t miss that social cue I just thought it was stupid 

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He may need some WD40...

#sent to me #beautiful

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@tigersharks

his&hers matching callout post

#us because of our joint callout

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Mixed reactions from the crowd

I think we should start uskng this inage again

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Koji Yamaguchi

#🌈

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*chapped lips bloodshot eyes labored breathing and clutching a horrible wound on my side* have i... have i won teh internetz today

#fave #fave fave favf fave

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I think we should start uskng this inage again

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