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02/24/23 I was at 288 and today 03/01/23 I am at 284 4 pounds down in 5 days.

That means since start of the year till now I am down 32 pounds.

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i’ve gotten so fucking fat. want to die.

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yyyyeah if i could get back below 130 that would be nice …

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January 7th I was 316 pounds

February 24th I am 288 pounds so that means in a month and 17 days I've lost 28 pounds.

I hadn't started off with restricting. I was dieting normal/doing not so hot. Was losing maybe a pound or so a week sometimes 5 a week. I had joined a contest with my coworkers for dieting and was like even if I don't lose it is a good start because near end of 2021 I was 356 pounds and by end of 2022/start of 2023 I was 316. I was being lazy about dieting and thought you know maybe this will be a little kick in butt. Back in 2014 I was down to 120/130 pounds and I ended up in a really abusive relationship and food was only comfort I had and he made sure I ballooned up pretty fast too because I honestly think he planned it that way so I would feel less self worth. Since then I have felt disgusted with myself. I'm at point where I don't even look at myself when I get dressed because I will just hate the way I look, change my outfit, hate how I look in that, repeat first steps over and over again until I'm crying and say fuck it. I planned to diet "healthier" and not fall back into my habits. But my coworker literally told me because it goes off of percent of weight lost vs start weight. Mind you at this point I had been winning the contest "I'm actually surprised you're winning. I thought was bad idea for you to enter the contest because it was going to be harder for you to win and you'd basically just be losing the contest not weight" and them saying that reached down into my brain and dug up the old me that got me to 120/130 and brought her back to life. I feel literally disgusted by all food now, I'm snacking on mainly baby puffs because crunchy snacks were my weakness and I get that crunch for only 25/35 calories. I'm biting more than I'm eating now. I have binged a few times. I'm working on not doing it and cutting back. Although one day I definitely know I counted calories wrong or something because I had a McDonald's meal for dinner. It was large with a coke and I didn't work out that night. I still lost 2 pounds that night. I was shocked. Now I'm definitely making sure I win this contest because I'm only one losing weight. Most of the people have gained in the contest or have only lost 2-3 pounds. And this has been since January 7th. I also want to be 240 by mid May. My sisters graduation is then, and she has honestly NEVER seen me under 290/300 (Long lost sister. I met her the year after I got with abusive ex so she missed the 120/130 me. I just want to be lighter for her graduation and look pretty in family photos.

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I wish that just once, I could be the pretty friend.

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Like or reblog if your SW was/is over 230 pounds, please!

I want to follow more people with a higher SW.

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I’m on a new diet called don’t fucking look at me

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Weight loss

Wednesday (02/15/2023) I was 295 Today (02/22/2023) I am 289 wooo

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Keep it up girlfriend

Goal for the day: 500

What was eaten: 476

What was burned: 692

Net calories (what was eaten - what was burned): -216 (so far might go for walk later.

A breakdown:

Breakfast (175 calories)

Egg white omelette with bacon, spinach, tomatoes, fresh salsa, salt, and pepper

Lunch (160 calories)

Banana baby food (90 calories)

Lil crunchies apple and sweet potato (70 calories)

Dinner (Skipped)

Snacks (140)

Takis (Mad I ate some, but it was situation where I would be questioned if turned down because use to be favorite snack. Thank god I knew I was at low calorie intake and was already going to skip dinner. These were snack after breakfast and lunch)

Biggest achievement?

I went shopping today and bought a shirt from hottopic. Normally I can't buy in store because I was 3XL-4XL in shirts, and it is hit or miss if you find plus size in store or not. I bought a woman's XL shirt and it FIT. And when I say fit I don't mean like sausage tight looks awful. I mean it actually fit fits. I almost cried.

I weighed myself at gym right now, and this was after eating today, drinking water all day, etc and everyone knows that normally your weight later in day is higher than your morning weight. I didn't weigh myself this morning at all. I did yesterday morning and I was at 292, when I weighed at gym I was at 291!!!! Meaning I might be around that or 290!!!!

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i have control issues, mommy issues, adhd and im a perfectionist, it wasnt a question of IF i would develop an ED it was more of a WHEN would i develop it

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90 g carrot - 37kal

215g zucchini-34kal

Whole bag of shirataki tofu pasta-20kal

1tsp of beef flavor bouillon-10kal

(Half of lime juice-8kal -optional-)

Total: 101kal

Very filling 100% recommend I ended up with left overs because half of the soup was very filling so I ended up consuming 50kal

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‼️‼️AMAZING SAFE FOOD I FOUND‼️‼️

Tidbits! I don’t have them where I live but I bought them as a great low calorie snack to keep under my budget. They are pricey but each bag totals out as 60 cal. Good replacement for cookies (or so I’ve heard😶‍🌫️)

Comes in all sorts of flavors they even have a keto pack.

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literally stfu

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here have a meme i made

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i have control issues, mommy issues, adhd and im a perfectionist, it wasnt a question of IF i would develop an ED it was more of a WHEN would i develop it

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In 2 weeks you'll feel it

In 4 weeks you'll see it

In 8 weeks you'll hear it