they should invent a place where i belong
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Just up thinking. Just a lil upset. That whole āalienated from the human experienceā shit Iām always on is acting up again blah blah. And also just the simple fact of like ā¦ I hate living. I just hate it.
Iāve never liked it. Never got any enjoyment out of it, not long term. Putting the fact that Iām a fucking loser aside, I canāt think of a time where Iāve been Truly happy for six months or more out of the, what, almost 27 years of being here.
The fact that my anxiety is so bad that I donāt drive makes me want to legit kill myself every time I think abt it, I donāt ever feel like Iāll truly romantically connect w anybody. I donāt even feel like I can connect w anybody period, I always feel Othered or like ppl think Iām annoying, they hate me, they like other ppl and everybody else in the friend group more than me. Iāve felt like that my whole entire life. Feel like my family looks down on me
(And like I know ppl care abt me, I hope ppl would be sad if I were gone. Idk why my brain does shit like this)
Itās miserable like itās just depressing. My medicineās not working anymore and like ig idec. I need help or to talk to somebody but what is that gonna do? It breaks my heart to be feeling like this again bc I truly thought I was gonna get a break. Itās just an awful existence
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Once again feeling extremely annoying and like people are reaching their limit with me and like I am unloveable and completely alienated from the human experience. Once again feeling like itās never ever going to get better
Brain: you could just kill yourself
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I feel very annoying all the time and like my friends donāt like me/like each other more But I know thatās mainly just my insecurities from high schoolā¦..
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sometimes i feel like all i am is a disorder
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I really hate myself so much. Everything I do and say is a fucking problem that hurts somebody else
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Kinda starting to feel like a useless piece of shit again
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*through gritted teeth* big heartbreak is indicative of big love and love is the meaning of life
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please please never stop being annoying about that one thing you really care about
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