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ANGSTY FUCKIN' SENTENCE STARTERS

“I appreciate what you’re trying to do, but you’re just making this worse.” “I don’t think we have anything left to say to each other.” “Are you happy? Huh? DOES THIS MAKE YOU HAPPY?!” “This isn’t the end. Just the part where I say enough is enough.” “Stop. Just…stop.” “You have a lot of nerve saying ‘Hello’ like nothing happened.” “I’d say ‘give me one good reason to stay’ but I already know the reasons. I just have better reasons to go.” “I’m sorry…we didn’t make it in time. They’re gone.” “You said you’d always be there for me…so how did this happen? Why weren’t you there?” “There will never be anyone else like you…if I’m very lucky.” “What, you thought you deserved better than a voice message?” “What did you do?” “How much have you had?” “That isn’t water in that bottle, is it.” “I can’t stand watching you destroy yourself like this.” “Didn’t it occur to you that you’re hurting me, too?!” “This can’t keep happening.” “The only good part about being alone is that I don’t wake anyone up when I start screaming at night.” “Holy shit–did you do that?!” “How long have you been doing this to yourself?” “I don’t want help. I just want the pain to stop.” “I just can’t stand being alone anymore.” “Please, don’t tell anyone.” “I can’t stand to lose anything else.” “I’m hurting you too much…you should leave.” “Some things just aren’t worth fighting for.” “I don’t even know why you pretend to care anymore.”

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Miles didn’t care with simplicity. When the male felt something, he felt it hard. Everyone he loved, everything he hated, would be faced head on with utter PASSION && DEDICATION. When you’ve been through the hell he’d experienced, it gets hard to rationalize what’s going to far && what’s not far enough. It was all in or all out. He couldn’t be on the fence anymore, because that’s where he’d be most likely to fall. Being unsure just wasn’t an option. Whether it was lucky or unlucky for the eldest Hollingsworth to care about you, the one thing you could count on was having an undying companion by your side. Between coming on too strong && self sabotaging, Miles brought a lot of baggage to his relationships. Holding everything back && self destructing was just another way he attempted to take care of people. In times like this where he faced someone’s problems head on, the emotions seemed to overwhelm him entirely. As much as he’d like to offer a simple talk, or maybe a comforting hug — his feelings always took over. No way in hell could he back down now. Especially when the person in question denied everything.

Knowing he upset his brother when something was already wrong, was not the way he wanted to start this drive. It was just hard to talk to him without getting overwhelmed && feeling the need to snap. As much as he tried to keep to himself, those strong feelings of concern were bound to break out. There was no stopping him once he was started. He just wished he was better with words, so that maybe he could start helping without hurting in the process. “I didn’t mean to snap. I’m sorry, alright? I’m just a little on edge today.” he had to stop himself already. Maybe part of the reason he was so overbearing in other peoples problems was because he bottled up so many of his own. The moment he felt himself start to open up, he’d shut down. Start working his mind like a machine, focusing all of his energy on the first big thing to come his way. In this case, it was Hunter. Now was definitely not the time to brush Miles off. Not that Hunter could be blamed. Miles would never let anyone into his head, especially not family. There were enough problems in his household. It’d be selfish to bring his own back into the equation. “Don’t you think I know when you’re lying to me? Hunter, that’s not a NORMAL session time. If you really want to prove me wrong, we can go back && I’ll ask your therapist myself. Or, if you want to make this easier, you can just be honest with me && I wont have to tell anybody. You know if I go in there asking questions, the first person they’re gonna call is mom.”

Hunter wasn’t the type of person to back down easily, especially when it came to family. When Hunter felt any type of emotion, he felt it hard and most of the time the emotions are OVERWHELMING because he didn’t have a way of coping and he was terrified of letting anyone into his head because in doing so, his vulnerability would be exposed. Therefore, he proceeded to push people away by putting up walls as a defense mechanism. That is why being backed into a corner never went over well with the short tempered male, even if he WAS the one to cause the problem, and this moment was no exception. “I was with Vijay and Yael.. we were playing Runesayer.” the brunette admitted in a soft spoken tone of voice before glancing back over at his older brother. “I can’t go to these STUPID appointments anymore. - they never help anyway.” he paused for a split second to gather his thoughts and to swallow the giant lump that had formed in his throat. “Besides, you’re the reason I’m being forced to go here. None of this would be happening right now if you hadn’t told mom..“ Hunter barely even remembered the last few days that he spent at the clinic due to the fact that the doctors had him doped up on all sorts of antidepressants and anti - anxiety medication. The doctors liked to call them ‘happy pills’ and they wouldn’t be wrong. Being in the mental health facility was stressful for Hunter and most of the time he looked for ways to try and escape. Even going as far as tripping all of the alarms and if it hadn’t been for the security guard standing at the front door, he would have been free. He ended up blaming another patient because she didn't tell him about the security guard, they got into a fight and he ended up throwing a chair at her. Which in turn, led the doctors to place him on the highest dosage of the medication, to calm him down. He never opened up to their mom or anyone in their family about that incident, and the doctors never spoke about it to them because he knew that if he spilled, his family would keep him there for another month.

 "Just, if mom asks tell her that I was in therapy.."

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trigger warnings apply! ( mental illness, drugs and alcohol use, self-destructive behaviours, and vomiting )

“You haven’t slept for days, have you?” “Are you eating properly? You don’t look it.” “Why do you keep stumbling over your words? Just how tired are you?” “You need to think about yourself every once in a while.” “I know your work is important, but you’re going to end up in hospital if you go on like this!” “You haven’t even touched your food. What’s going on?” “You look so… empty. I’m worried for you, please talk to me.” “Are you alright in there? You’re so quiet.” “How did you get these bruises? Please don’t lie to me.” “There’s something bothering you that you’re not telling me and I can see it slowly destroying you. What happened?” “You’re sleep deprived and you haven’t been eating. Why do you think you’re feeling dizzy?” “I can give you some pills to help you sleep. They aren’t healthy, but this is even less healthy.” “If you didn’t just blink I would’ve sworn you were dead, that’s how sickly you’re looking. Go to bed, please!” “Have you drank all of these bottles in one weekend?!” “I know you don’t want this, but it’s for your own good. Sign the papers so they can pick you up tomorrow and you can get clean.” “What the hell are you doing?! Did you do that to yourself?!” “When was the last time you left the house? Or opened the curtains for that matter.” “Here, just keep breathing. It’ll be okay. Better out than in…” “This can’t go on like this! You’re not eating, you’re not sleeping, you barely talk!” “I’m sorry. I went through your room and found this. Explain what the hell this is doing in your room!” “I thought you’d quit! How long have you been lying to me?” “I’m only trying to help and right now I think I have a much better idea of what you need than you do.” “Did you take anything? Why are you passing out? Hey! Stay with me!”

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Didn’t know how much I needed this.

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On anon, be my muse’s psychiatrist and ask them questions!

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Open!

“This is a mistake, I don’t belong here..” the male mumbled, glancing down at the patient wristband the doctors had placed on him during his admission process and he allowed his hand to gently graze his name. The elegant decor of the visitors lounge hid the dark secrets that these types of facilities carried, most of which had been undisclosed to families. The first fourty eight hours in the facility were incredibly rough for him, as family or friends could not visit during that period of time. Many of the therapists that he had sat down with in those grueling fourty eight hours weren’t as kind as his original, but he dealt with it. Hell, maybe they would be able to figure out an accurate diagnosis for the ocean eyed brunette.

“Can you just let me leave, now?”

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Okay, so I’ve done all of my replies and therefore my drafts are currently empty! ( its about time haha ) so if anyone wants to plot, ( or if I'm missing anyones replies ) just send me a message and we’ll figure it out!

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‘That didn’t exactly answer either of my questions’ Yael thought, but now was not the time for some quick witted comment.

“Did he hit you?” she asked, concerned; eyes squinted and brow furrowed as she studied him. Hunter had made a few off hand comments about his relationship, or rather lack-there-of, with father but they never raised any suspicion with the nerd girl. Yael didn’t know what the correct protocol for a situation like this was, ‘should I hug him? But Hunter isn’t exactly fond of physical affection? But he has willingly hugged me before?’ As the thoughts raced thorough her head, she heard more foot steps in the hallway signifying that a class had been let out. She looked away and tugged at the sleeves of her white sweater, before she said, “The analysis of Act 2, Scene 4 of Macbeth? Yeah.”

Hunter gave a small nod at her question, silently confessing the words that he was unable to say out loud. “Please, don’t tell anyone..” Hunter fell silent when he heard the footsteps in the hall grow more frequent as most students headed straight to their next class, while some students socialized at their lockers. Luckily for Hunter, this was his lunch period, so he didn’t have to deal with the strangers staring at him if he didn’t want to. “You have a free period now, right? Do you want to go grab a bite to eat? Maybe kick some ass in runeslayer?”

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This is a small STARTER CALL for anyone who wants one.  Also, if you have anything you would like to plot with me, now is your chance to do so! Just shoot me a message!

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Yael stood at her locker, mentally going over the list of things she needed to get done that day. ‘Finish the math assignments, pick up a new spool of white thread to repair her RoD cosplay, stop by the comic shop and register for the Magic draft tournament, and spam Baaz with yaoi if he keeps annoying me.’ Today, thankfully, wasn’t as hectic as her usual days.

“Hey!” she smiled at Hunter before noticing the discoloration of his face.“Either you need to teach me that makeup technique or start explaining now.”

Hunter fidgited a little bit, attempting to think of whatever excuse that he could to get out of having this conversation right here and right now but all of his thoughts acted simply as if they were scattered puzzle pieces in his brain. He figured that he had hurt her enough already, and telling her would only make her more worried about him. If he had any hope of keeping their friendship alive, he knew that he couldn’t hide anything from her. Now was the moment, and he was terrified of what she might think when the truth had finally come to the surface.  Taking a deep breath in, he opened his mouth to speak but there was only silence. ‘C'mon, Hunter. Just tell her.’ he thought to himself.

“My dad and I got in a  tiny  fight last night. It's nothing, really. Did you do last nights english assignment?” 

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more texts for you bitches

ANGSTY TEXTS, BITCH

[text] You should have told me you wanted me out of your life. [text] I should have never let you back into my life. [text] Okay [muse’s name] what’s the deal, pretty sure this is you…listen if you want me to leave you alone, please just tell that. [text] Please don’t walk away. [text] Please don’t do this. [text] When are you going to realize I want nothing to do with you? [text] You want nothing to do with me, I get it. [text] I’m an idiot. You fooled me again. [text] When I think things are about to change … I’m always proven wrong. [text] I just want you to be happy. And you’ll be happier without me. [text] I just hate that someone could make me trust [him/her/them] the way that I did [text] The truth is I’m not over you. [text] The truth is I never really wanted to be with you. [text] I’m seeing someone else. [text] How the hell did you get my number, stalker? [text] You’re so selfish. [text] I just saw you leave with [her/him/them]. [text] FUCK YOU AND YOUR DUMB CUTE FACE

LOVING TEXTS, BITCH

[text] Did I tell you today that you’re the most adorable? Cause, yeah. [text] Be careful. [text] I’m only saying it because I love you. [text] I’m only saying it because I care about you. [text] Okay, I’m bringing coffee. [text] I’m thinking dinner and a movie later this week? [text] Let me take you out, please? [text] Let me make you dinner tonight. [text] I want you to be happy. [text] You’re always safe with me. [text] I can’t stop thinking about you. [text] I seriously don’t know what I’d do without you. [text] I know you may not feel like you are, but you are loved. And important. Please don’t forget that. [text] It was so good seeing you. [text] You don’t need this shit. [text] I’ll be there in five minutes. [text] Let me help, please? [text] You’re important to me. [text] Stop falling asleep in the bathtub. You’re going to drown and die and leave me and I’m not having that. [text] I would gladly watch Netflix and eat Thai with you any day. [text] I’d give up my phone charger AND the last piece of gum for you. That’s love. [text] Hey beautiful no judgment but why is there a bucket of KFC chicken in the bathtub??

ANGRY TEXTS, BITCH

[text] If you don’t want me to bust your window, I suggest you answer the phone. Now. [text] To quote Mean Girls, you’re a fugly slut. [text] Are you SERIOUSLY bringing that up right now!? [text] Lose my number, asshole. [text] You’re so predictable and obnoxious. And it’s not only me who thinks so. [text] …The least you could do is answer, wtf. [text] You’re a piece of shit human being and an even worse friend. [text] This is YOUR FAULT. And you can’t even pretend like it isn’t, because you know it is. [text] Why couldn’t you just stay out of it? [text] Holy fucking shit, take a hint, asshole. [text] Go fuck yourself. [text] What the fucking hell is wrong with you? [text] You can take your stuff back as long as I don’t light it on fire first. [text] I have cramps and a migraine so you do NOT want to mess with me right now [text] Bye and have a very fuck you day

SEXY TEXTS, BITCH

[text] Just let me suck your dick and be happy. Let me have this. [text] Why are you so hot…like honestly, it’s not fair. [text] Yeah, you looked good in your [dress/shirt/pants] last night but really, they looked way better on my floor. [text] Come over. With condoms. [text] You should come over, clothing optional. [text] I feel like a nasty slut and I LOVE IT [text] Sorry I got drunk and texted you about my sex life [text] Sex on a rooftop - trashy or adventurous? [text] If you’re not at my apartment, shirtless, in five minutes, I will be personally offended. [text] I don’t think he likes that I’m always sending him pictures of me in my bra but he needs to get it together [text] It’ll be like The Notebook, except with way more of my penis. [text] I didn’t know that all of his brothers would be hot and musically inclined, too. That’s a dick move on behalf of biology. [text] I DON’T WANT YOUR DICK. I WANT BRUNCH. [text] So is it your turn now to pretend like dating someone else would stop us from fucking? [text] I just need some of your time and all of your body. [text] I am available for nakedness [text] I think about [him/her/them] when I masturbate so I guess you could call it love

DRUNK TEXTS, BITCH

[drunk text] So wat are you really over me no w [drunk text] AND I UNFOLLOWED YOU ON INSTAGRAM TOO, BITCH [drunk text] You are my queen and my savior and I love you forever [drunk text] You are the most beautiful girl I have ever known [drunk text] I’m eating macaroni and cheese on a slice of pizza and autocorrect just wrote that text for me pretty much, what’s your night like [drunk text] Listen up slut, you’re one hot piece of ass and if [he/she/they] doesn’t realize it, it’s their loss [drunk text] but what’s the point of a Disney sing off party if you’re not here. You have to be be the Pumbaa to my Timon [drunk text] Can you pls remind me tomorrow of how much of a fool I made myself tonight [drunk text] FUCK YOU YOU’RE GORGEOUS [drunk text] I think maybe you and me should like go out and eat pizza or something check yes or no [drunk text] Please don’t hate me I’m too tired and too dizzy to be hated [drunk text] I hate (him/her) but less when I’m drinking. Thanks, alcohol. [drunk text] Omf g you need to get over here now I think I’m dyin [drunk text] SWEEEEEEEET CAROLINE

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— “The QUIETEST people have the LOUDEST minds.”

Independent and semi selective Hunter Hollingsworth from Degrassi! 

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